SubscribeStar Story: The Tutor, Parts 1-35

Part One

First day on the job.

I was still a little hesitant about committing myself to this; the only reason I said ‘yes’ in the first place was because the money was just too good to pass up.

Back in high school, I would have answered the call to tutor without any hesitation. A chance to make a little bit of extra cash, by only giving up a small fraction of my free time? Sign me up. It would have been a far better alternative than the soul-sucking retail job I ended up dealing with for the sake of saving some money away for university.

Now that I was in undergrad, however, my time was at an all time premium. I don’t like to brag about it, but I’m basically the star pupil in my major. Numbers have always come naturally to me, and my sophomore self was already on track for all kinds of things at the beginning of the next school year. A few specialized programs, a TA position for one of the classes I excelled in when I was a first-year; I even had two separate professors mention that they would be happy to write letters of recommendation for grad school once I completed university.

So, when the Alodia family reached out, I had to politely decline. Apparently they had connections with my school, and were seeking a tutor for their daughter. Not because she was struggling, but because they were interested in grooming her for undergrad classes while she was still finishing her last year of high school. One of my professors must have given them my name.

While I was flattered by the reference that they wanted ‘the best’ for their daughter Annabelle, I couldn’t say yes. Keeping up with my studies was time consuming enough, not to mention the few extracurriculars and social commitments I managed to squeeze in on top of my academic pursuits. Adding in a tutoring session, complete with a commute, would stretch me too thin.

However, they were persistent. Annabelle’s mother insisted that they could work around my schedule, and that money was no object. I had to assume the family was wealthy; not only because of that comment, but also due to how they knew what they wanted and didn’t simply go a different direction when met with resistance the first time. When I tried a second time to politely say ‘no,’ going so far as to refer them to one of my classmates who might be a good fit, I was simply told to offer a time and that I would be paid $600 for a 90 minute session.

Naturally, I found my initial resolve quickly crumbling. Go figure, a middle class girl like myself can be bought more easily than expected. Staring at the number on the screen, it took my math major brain all of half a second to frame the figure as $400/hour. Back in my retail days, it would take me nearly a full week of working twelve hour shifts to make the number I was being offered for a simple hour and a half. Well, two or more hours counting the commute, but still.

It was enough of a temptation to warrant a phone call, where I was given more details. When I asked why they just didn’t hire a professional, as they clearly had enough resources to do so, I was told that I would be better for their daughter. I was a girl majoring in mathematics, which would be more inspiring to her than some older man experienced in the field. There were other women who could do the job too, of course, but my age was also a factor. Annabelle already had adults teaching her all day at school, so a younger tutor would be a shift in dynamic that would make our sessions feel less like an extension of her other classes.

They had clearly thought it through, though I was a little worried about the fact that I was barely two years older than the girl. That being said, it’s not like I was there to babysit her. Tutoring doesn’t necessarily require authority, plus she was legally an adult. With rich parents, I was sure she’d be a proper and mature young lady. There was still the matter of how taking the job was going to add to my already exhausting weekly workload, but I had already been hooked enough by their offer to be roped in. Rather than fully committing right away, I could simply come over for a single session. If Annabelle and I clicked, and if it felt like a job that I would be willing to continue on a weekly basis, then we could make it official. If not, then that would be it.

Finally convinced, I accepted their invitation. Worst case scenario, I tried something new and got $600 for my troubles. Best case, I’d have a steady stream of income that required very little time on my end compared to an actual job.

Since the Alodia parents were keen to work around my schedule, I got to choose our potential tutoring day and time. Weekdays would be stressful for me on top of classes, and rush hour would make the commute across the city awful. Ultimately, I settled on Saturday morning. I felt a little bad about making a high school girl start her weekend like that, but taking the job itself was already a huge sacrifice for me. She would just have to deal with it.

When Saturday came around, I was ready. Her parents had sent me a list of classes Annabelle should prepare for, and I filled my backpack with books and notes from the previous year. If I was going to be a TA for those classes, perhaps this was a blessing in disguise. It would give me time to brush up on everything.

Coffee in hand, I made my way to the student parking lot. Just a twenty minute drive, and I’d be meeting Annabelle for the first time.

Part Two

Did this girl live in a mansion??

I grew up in a small house in the suburbs, so I wasn’t sure where the line was between ‘big house’ and ‘mansion.’ But for all intents and purposes, that’s what it felt like when approaching the Alodia’s property. Aside from the huge white house being impressive, the front yard and surrounding greenery were expansive and well maintained, and I found myself driving up one of those long, semi-circle driveways that I had only ever seen in movies.

If Annabelle’s parents hadn’t explained how they wanted another girl, and one closer to her age, I would have been more surprised when approaching the house. Why not just hire an army of tutors for the girl? They could probably afford one professional from every field if they wanted to. Instead, they chose me. And, while it was flattering, it was also incredibly intimidating.

I had barely stepped out of my car when I heard someone call out to me. “Ms. Moore?”

“Yes, that’s me,” I said. Turning towards the voice, I saw a girl who looked to be around my age standing just outside the front door. “Are you Annabelle?” The moment the question escaped my lips, I realized how wrong I was. The girl was dressed in black and white, appearing more like a maid than what any normal teenage girl would dress like. Even a wealthy one.

“No, ma’am,” she said, “I’m Trixie. I apologize for the inconvenience, but can you please pull around to the back? Employees are supposed to use the side door.”

Oh.

So, one of those households. It wasn’t quite a ‘servant door,’ but it had a similar vibe. Whatever flattery I felt just a few moments ago waned as I realized that my first visit here didn’t warrant ‘guest’ status. I was getting paid to be here; therefore I was an employee. It wasn’t necessarily insulting, as this was a completely different world than I had ever experienced, but I was definitely taken aback.

“Umm, sure,” I replied, “Should I just let myself in?” None of these details were included in the latest message from Annabelle’s mother. If I was relegated to the side door, was I allowed to roam the unfamiliar house until I found the girl? Or was I to be escorted? So many questions.

Thankfully, Trixie was familiar with the routine. “I’ll meet you down there,” she said, “And I’ll inform Ms. Annabelle that you’re here.”

After getting the simple directions from the girl, and thanking her, I got back in my car. It was simple enough to find the side road that led to the back of the property. I parked next to the rest of the cars that were hidden behind a clever facade that obscured my vision of the house until I walked around the thick bushes and towards the side door. While I had never experienced such a lavish lifestyle, nor had any friends that were this wealthy, it was pretty easy to connect the dots. Less impressive cars were hidden away so guests socializing on the back deck didn’t have to deal with the eyesore.

But who was I to judge? Trixie and I were probably here for very similar reasons–Money that was impressive to us, but pennies to the Alodia’s. If I was being paid this much to tutor, I imagine she was here because it was more lucrative than some hotel or waitress position.

I didn’t have to knock. As I neared the small side door, Trixie propped it open for me. “Shoes off, please,” she said, “Then you can follow me.”

It didn’t escape my attention that the young maid, assuming that was her role, was wearing shoes herself. Maybe they were indoor-only shoes, as her black flats were spotless. I was wearing flats too, as I had somewhat dressed up for my first tutoring session. If I was being paid this much, the least I could do is look professional. My current footwear was a lot more clean than my sneakers, for example, but I guess I had still just worn the flats outside.

I did what Trixie said, awkwardly balancing with my backpack over just one shoulder, and carefully stepped one at a time out of my flats.

The cool tile on my feet made me feel a little bit self conscious, as my ensemble was now missing something. It’s not like I hadn’t done study sessions barefoot around friends before, but this was different in so many ways. It was a new job, a first impression, and a girl who had probably grown up with the ability to snap her fingers and have anything she wanted. Part of me wished I had worn a gala-worthy dress instead of a simple skirt and blouse. That ship had long sailed, however, and I couldn’t help but be curious what rich girls wore on Saturday. Would Annabelle be dressed down, or look absolutely perfect?

I wouldn’t have to wonder for too long. Trixie led me down the side hallway, where I spotted a laundry room and a mini kitchen along the way. For staff to work invisibly while the Alodia family and guests were going about their business? The door at the end of the hall opened into a more impressive kitchen, and it was only when I stepped onto the marble floor in yet another long hallway that another thought crossed my mind.

Was I supposed to address my student as ‘Ms. Annabelle?’

That would be beyond weird. Especially since I’d be sitting and teaching her for a full ninety minutes, while Trixie probably came and went with much shorter interactions. I guess some private school teachers did that in their classes, but it’s like nothing I had personally experienced in high school or university life so far.

I was about to ask the girl guiding me, but it was too late.

“Ms. Annabelle?” Trixie said, a few paces ahead of me as she turned a corner, “Your personal tutor is here.”

Part Three

Red hair.

That’s the first thing that drew my eye, especially amidst all the neutral colors that made up the spacious living room. She was wearing a black skirt and an emerald satin top; the classy outfit immediately answered my recent question. Rich teenagers don’t dress down, not even on a Saturday. 

With just one look, I could see that Annabelle Alodia was the kind of girl that made pretty much every other girl jealous. Myself included. She was tall, but not too tall. Slender, with curves that gave her a perfect hourglass figure. Perfect skin, perfect hair; perfect everything, and an outfit to accentuate those features. It was difficult to believe that she was only eighteen years old, as her posture alone would have been enough to make me believe otherwise if I hadn’t known who I was there to see. 

For the most part, I had only been with guys, save for one or two drunken girl kisses over my first few years of university. Annabelle was the first girl, however, to make me consider a more open-minded sexuality on the spot. She was drop dead gorgeous, which made me feel guilty, confused, and a ton of other emotions as I remembered that she was still in high school. Eighteen, sure. But still a teenager, a daughter of my employers; the last girl I should ever be interested in. And yet, she caught my attention in seconds.

“You must be Meredith.” 

No uptick in her voice, no questioning tone that so many younger girls tended to use when they spoke. Hell, how people in college still tended to talk sometimes. I was nervous enough just from the pressure of a first tutoring session, and off balance from the servant-like way Trixie had me enter the impressive house. The last thing I expected was for Annabelle herself to fluster me even more. And she hadn’t even done anything.

“Umm, yes,” I said. Feeling a blush coming on, I tried my very best to will it away before totally screwing up this first impression, “Meredith Moore. It’s nice to meet you, Annabelle. Or is it ‘Ms. Annabelle?’” I asked, glancing towards Trixie for a moment. Does being an employee mean all of the blonde maid’s rules apply to me as well?

To my relief, the red haired girl spoke up first and let me off the hook. “‘Annabelle’ is fine,” she said, “Come on in; get settled. Trixie, bring us some refreshments. Have you asked our guest what she would like?”

“No, Ms. Annabelle. I’m sorry,” Trixie said, then turned to me, “May I offer you a drink, Ms. Moore?”

“Anything at all,” Annabelle added.

I didn’t even know what to say. I’m sure Annabelle meant it, but I already had a thermos of coffee with me. This wasn’t like being a guest at some friend’s apartment, however, so I still felt compelled to ask for something. “Ice water?” I asked. Normally I wasn’t the type to specify something like that, but I felt self conscious enough to act like my tastes were more picky than usual.

“Yes, Ms. Moore.”

With a nod, Trixie walked back down the hallway from which we just came. For a moment, I wondered why she didn’t ask Annabelle what she wanted as well. Then it dawned on me that a Saturday morning routine was probably already established for the girl. 

I had fantasized about being rich before, but I don’t know if I would be interested in this level of wealth. Taking care of myself was perfectly manageable without someone to get my drinks, for example. It was also strange seeing a girl like Trixie in a subservient role like this. Perhaps I was biased from seeing older women as maids in shows and movies. It was probably what I thought earlier; that Trixie was doing it for the paycheck, rather than actually being interested in a career like that.

A moment of silence lingered as Annabelle and I were left alone. Trying my best to slip back into tutor mode after all the curveballs of the morning, I spoke up. “Well, shall we get started?” I asked. Noting the lack of notebooks or pretty much anything but furniture in the room, I added, “Where do you like to study?” 

“We can go to my room,” Annabelle said, “Come, Meredith.” 

She strode right past me, and I was definitely shorter than her once she closed the distance and I could see for sure. Not by much, but it made the difference when I already felt somewhat small in the huge house. I had no idea how to handle her straightforward and mildly patronizing order. It sounded like the way you’d address a dog, but everything Annabelle said so far had a proper and entitled edge to it. Maybe that was just how she spoke.

Thankfully, she calmed my swirling thoughts right then and there. “Relax, Mere,” she giggled. Turning to me with a friendly smile, “I’m not actually like that. But it was worth it. Your face was priceless!”

Oh. She was . . . kidding? About which part? “Oh, umm,” I began, internally cursing about the filler word I normally never used. But here, it had already happened a few times.

“I’m just a normal girl; just like you,” she said, “And don’t mind Trixie. She’s just following the rules.”

“Good to know,” I replied, still feeling fairly awkward about pretty much everything I said. Annabelle had just been joking, apparently, but this new dynamic was just as confusing. Maybe I wasn’t cut out for tutoring after all. 

“I know, I know,” Annabelle said. She gestured to the room behind me. “It’s a fucking mansion or whatever. If it helps, we can just go to a coffee shop or something.”

Hmm, maybe she was a normal girl after all. “No, it’s fine,” I said. Faking a small smile of my own, I decided as the tutor that staying here was better. Maybe a coffee shop would make me feel more comfortable, but the commute would waste time that I was being severely overpaid for. “We can just study in your room. I don’t mind.”

“Suit yourself,” she said. With one last glance towards me before turning to lead the way, Annabelle repeated her earlier phrase. “Come, Meredith.”

Part Four

“Come, Meredith.”

I had mixed feelings about being spoken to in such a way; especially since Annabelle had said it twice. It was demeaning on the surface, but I also couldn’t sense any malice in her words. She was being so nonchalant, where I’d normally expect such a phrase to be used in a bitchy or bratty way. The girl was certainly confusing, as she was friendly and entitled at the same time. Maybe that’s just what happens when you grow up with wealth.

Ultimately, I decided not to say anything about it. This was our first tutoring session, and I didn’t want to come across as difficult before we even opened a notebook. 

Following Annabelle around a corner and up a wide flight of stairs, I was led to a door at the end of another long hallway. I still had my bearings, mostly, but it was baffling how big the house was. Seeing it from the outside hadn’t been enough to get a good grasp of the size, especially when I stepped into Annabelle’s ‘room.’ 

For some crazy reason, I had expected a bedroom and only a bedroom. Instead, I was greeted with a full suite. Apparently, the red haired girl had an entire living room to herself, as well as a modest kitchenette off to the side. A small hallway off to the side led to what I assumed was her bedroom and a private bathroom to complete the suite, but I was still busy taking in what was more or less a fancier version of my one bedroom apartment. 

Play it cool, Meredith.

This was insane compared to my childhood bedroom, but a comment about my surprise couldn’t be the first thing out of my mouth. Annabelle probably went to an expensive private school with a bunch of rich friends, all of whom wouldn’t bat an eye at this kind of lifestyle. And, while taking a job for extra cash no doubt spoke volumes about me to a girl who didn’t have to lift a finger around the house, I still didn’t want to let on how out of my element I was feeling.

“Nice room,” I said. Pausing a few steps in, I took a second scan of the room from more of a tutor perspective. We could easily set ourselves up at the kitchenette bar, or by the living room table; or perhaps Annabelle’s actual bedroom had more surprises in terms of possible space available. “Where do you like to study?”

“On the sofa is good,” Annabelle replied, “More table space. Go ahead and make yourself comfortable. I’ll go get my things.”

Good. That’s where I would have preferred to study. While soft furniture isn’t as psychologically conducive to productivity, Annabelle had the right idea. It’s nice to have more room for books and notebooks.

While she wandered off to her room, I delicately sat down on the edge of the sofa. Aside from the overwhelming wealth surrounding me, there was the personal awkwardness of just being in a new house for the first time. Similar to the few times that I babysat in high school, it’s a little weird to be an authority figure in a totally unfamiliar place. Thankfully, Annabelle made things easy enough. 

I pulled the small stack of materials from my backpack, still not sure where we were going to begin. Instead of helping a girl struggling in one of her classes, I was hired to prepare her for undergrad. However, I couldn’t just jump into university material without gauging her strengths and weaknesses, so this session was going to be a bit of an adventure. Even with some preparation ahead of time, I still felt like I was going in somewhat blind. 

“Wow, so many books!” Annabelle exclaimed as she returned to the living room. Coming right over, she plopped down right beside me and dropped a single notebook onto the table. “So what first, Mere?”

“I actually prefer ‘Meredith,’ if you don’t mind,” I said. It was only after this use of the shortened version of my name that I decided to address it, due to how distracted I was downstairs. No one really called me ‘Mere,’ ever, as it wasn’t exactly a natural abbreviation of my name. I wanted to keep things friendly with Annabelle, but there were other ways to do that without quietly accepting a nickname.

“Oh, really? I have a friend who goes by ‘Mere’ all the time.” Annabelle shrugged. “Well, okay. But it’s not my fault if I mess it up.”

Classic teenager. Avoiding personal blame. But her reason at least made sense, and it was fine as long as she didn’t slip up too often. “What about you?” I asked. “Anna? Or Belle?” 

“Nope, ‘Annabelle’ is too pretty to give up. Don’t you think?”

“Umm . . .”

Once more, I found myself a little bit flustered by the red haired girl. It’s not like she was flirting or anything, but she didn’t shy away from eye contact in the slightest. There was also the subtle implication that ‘Meredith’ isn’t pretty, if she’s okay abbreviating mine but keeping her own, but that could just be me reading too much into things. I was more taken aback by her question. It was one of those innocent ‘traps,’ where there wasn’t really a good answer. Saying ‘yes’ was a little embarrassing, but saying ‘no’ would be a little insulting. 

Was she teasing again, like downstairs? I couldn’t tell.

“Almost as pretty as ‘Meredith,’” I said. Making sure to smile and add half an eye roll to let her know I was kidding, I breathed an internal sigh of relief. This was why I tended to get along with boys better; they were just easier to talk to.

Thankfully, she didn’t push the casual question. Instead, she just brushed back her hair and opened her notebook before glancing back at me.

“Well, Meredith,” she said, adding an exaggerated sultry tone to my full name, “Should we get started?”

Part Five

I’ll admit, Annabelle was brighter than I expected her to be.

The stereotype/cliché of rich teenagers coasting by with their parents’ money made it easy to make false assumptions. At the same time, I probably wasn’t wrong; Annabelle would have plenty of job security and cushion thanks to the connections and other advantages that your average young woman wouldn’t have available to her. As for her intelligence, however, I was way off base. 

The first portion of our private tutoring session was spent having her work out a few problems I had prepared ahead of time. Starting with Calculus, to see how strong she was in her current class, and then gradually shifting the problems into more advanced material that your average high school senior wouldn’t have touched on. 

Annabelle breezed through the top of the page. She mentally calculated a good chunk of it, too. Rather than showing every step of her answer, she only wrote down two or three lines out of the eight or ten that one of the ‘show your work’ teachers would have required someone to include. Personally, I didn’t mind her process. Clearly she wasn’t cheating, as I was watching the entire time, and the end result was ultimately a correct answer. 

“Right so far?” she asked. With a glance in my direction, it struck me how ridiculous it was that she could still look so proper while leaning over to work out complex equations. I’m sure I didn’t present as attractive of an image when I was hunched over and buried in an assignment. 

I nodded, also realizing it had been awkwardly quiet for a little while until she spoke up. “Mm hmm,” I said, “I’m sure you’ve heard it a million times, but writing every step out can offer partial credit sometimes if your final answer isn’t right.” Sure, I didn’t mind the shortcuts, but it was at least worth mentioning. Several of my professors were that way, and her future university would have similar teachers. 

“So I’ve heard,” she shrugged, “But I’m usually right.”

So confident. Before I could mention that some future teachers may not be so flexible, a light knock on the door interrupted us. Annabelle called out with a ‘Come, Trixie’ similar to the way she addressed me earlier. I still wasn’t sure if it was an Annabelle quirk, something she got from her parents, or the kind of language that was casually used in her world in terms of hired staff. 

Save for the fact that Trixie looked to be around my age, she was the spitting image of the kinds of maids I saw in movies. Dressed from head to toe in black and white, and currently holding a silver platter in her hands. After jumping straight into a tutoring session with Annabelle, I had completely forgotten about the fact that Trixie had gone to get us refreshments until I saw the glasses balanced on the shiny platter. “Ms. Annabelle,” she said, with a small nod of her head.

Not batting an eye, Annabelle casually beckoned her over. “Sorry for the wait, Mere,” she said, “Trixie normally isn’t this slow.”

“I’m sorry, Ms. Annabelle.” Trixie blushed and glanced away as she set the drinks down on the coffee table in front of us. Ice water for me, and orange juice for Annabelle. “I was-”

Annabelle held up her hand, which was enough to instantly quiet the girl. “Hush, please,” she said, “What are you working on next?”

After a beat of silence, where I could see poor Trixie trying to work out whether she should answer the question or not after being shushed, she said, “Prepping for lunch, and cleaning the kitchen afterwards. Unless there’s something else you’d like me to prioritize, Ms. Annabelle.”

It was more awkward than being over at a friend’s house when they got into a fight with a sibling or an argument with their parents. At the same time, it wasn’t at all the dynamic that I had seen once or twice at restaurants; where an entitled woman unnecessarily berated an underpaid server. Annabelle was calm and not particularly harsh or judgmental aside from the casual criticism from a moment ago. And yet, Trixie seemed so nervous. 

Annabelle thought about it for a moment as she tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear, before finally answering. “No, you may prioritize the kitchen. Actually-” she said, turning her gaze towards me, “Do you mind helping her, Meredith? I’ll be working on this for a little while anyway, and I’d hate for you to be bored. Besides, Trixie could probably use another set of hands.” 

“Umm . . .” I trailed off. Help Trixie in the kitchen? That’s not exactly what I was there to do. I didn’t want to be rude, and Annabelle’s point was mildly valid about how I was pretty much just sitting there during the first few problems, but still. “It’s helpful for me to see your process,” I said, finding the right thing to say after the filler word that was becoming more common than usual for me since stepping into the Alodia mansion, “I wouldn’t be a very good tutor if I wasn’t here for the first half of our session.”

“It’s fine, Mere,” she said. Waving off my answer with barely a thought, Annabelle decided, “I work better without someone looking over my shoulder anyway. It’s okay, no one’s going to dock your pay or anything. In fact, I could convince my parents to give you a bonus for the extra work.”

“No, no; it’s not that,” I began, but stopped short. It’s not about the money? Except that’s the whole reason I caved and took the job in the first place. Well, humor worked last time. “I’d probably just get in Trixie’s way. And I’m a terrible cook!”

Annabelle once again glanced towards the young brunette still standing there. “Trixie?”

“Whatever you say, Ms. Annabelle,” she said, without missing a beat.

“Then Meredith will help you,” Annabelle said, “Go on, Mere.”

Part Six

Under normal circumstances, I wouldn’t have even considered such a ‘request.’

I hadn’t even fully committed to tutoring Annabelle yet, as this session was only supposed to be a trial. Despite the amazing paycheck, I was still on the fence about making this an addition to my already hectic weekly schedule. That was still my mindset when I got in the car, though I was admittedly already leaning towards the job simply because the extra spending money would alleviate a different kind of stress than an extra commitment would add. My first day there, as a guest, and I was being told to go help in the kitchen?

If this were a guy, I would have slapped him in the face. However, Annabelle’s casually presumptuous attitude made it sound natural after hearing the way she spoke in general prior to Trixie’s arrival in the suite. That, and I had been off balance since the moment I arrived. Being told to park around back, taking the servant’s entrance, coming face to face with an unfairly gorgeous red haired girl, and being stunned by how lavish every single room in the room was.

I tried one more time to suggest that my time here would be better served tutoring, but I’m not the best at confrontation. Annabelle brushed off my words with the same response as before; that it would be a more productive use of my time than simply sitting there waiting for her to finish the problem set. Besides, poor Trixie was working alone today, when she’d normally have someone else to assist with everything downstairs. 

Ultimately, I caved. There wasn’t really any harm in stepping away for a few minutes, and Annabelle was the only client here due to her parents’ absence. If this is what she wanted to pay me for, rather than my mathematics knowledge, then so be it. 

Following Trixie out of Annabelle’s suite and back down the long upstairs hallway, I got my bearings a little better after a second pass through the house. Expansive upstairs layout, stairwell to the front door, and a couple gathering rooms before the kitchen that I had previously not seen. I shouldn’t have been surprised by the size, considering everything else in the house, but I was still taken aback when I stepped into the cooking space. 

Two islands, rather than one, complete with marble countertops. A fridge twice the size of your average suburban variety. Overall, an insane amount of both counter space and walking space. Those were just the first few things I noticed, and I could already imagine them owning the most expensive cooking tools, ingredients, etc. Trixie was already used to the impressive kitchen, and wasted no time walking over to the island sink, washing her hands, and finally looking towards me. 

“What are you waiting for, Ms. Moore? Wash your hands. We have a lot to do before lunch.”

“Oh, right. Of course,” I nodded, breaking out of my momentary awe. Following suit, I washed my hands and then looked towards Trixie for guidance. I wasn’t lying when I told Annabelle I was a terrible cook. Most of my meals were from the cafeteria at university, or whatever simple thing I could throw together at the apartment during a small studying break. 

Like a lost lamb, I pretty much stood there and waited for Trixie to set everything up after washing my hands. 

“We’ll cook in two stages, Ms. Moore,” she explained, “The primary focus is Ms. Annabelle’s lunch, but we’ll also do some prep work for dinner whenever there is extra time between steps. Cleaning afterwards, of course, and then we’re done. Sound good?”

“Umm, sure,” I replied. Since I could barely cook for myself, I definitely wouldn’t know how to do so for the rich. Following Trixie’s lead was the way to go, “Just tell me how I can help? Oh, and ‘Meredith’ is fine.”

“That’s not your call, Ms. Moore,” she said, “Do you know how to mince?” 

Trixie placed a knife and cutting board next to the island sink, followed by a small stack of vegetables. When I mentioned I had only ever done so a few times in my life, she gave me a brief lesson as a reminder. Rinse the vegetables first, hold the knife like this, cut like so, etc. Best to not go too quickly at first, to avoid a potential cut. With that, she left me to my own devices.

I began working my way through the pile, and it was certainly a slow process for an amateur like me. Every vegetable was a different shape and size, meaning adjustments and a few awkward angles of the knife as I tried to figure out how to line everything up. In the meantime, Trixie started on pretty much everything else. Pots and pans from a number of places, ingredients from the fridge and cabinet, cooking utensils and spices, and more. I tried to focus on the task at hand, but I couldn’t help but notice how the girl moved so efficiently without seeming rushed at the same time. It came with experience, I suppose, but how much experience could someone possibly have at her age?

For Annabelle’s insistence about Trixie needing an extra set of hands, I definitely didn’t feel that helpful. After mincing everything, I was mostly tasked with stirring a thing or two and keeping an eye on those things while she did everything else. A helpful task, I suppose, so she wouldn’t have to stress about it while handling other steps, but I still felt like I was more in the way than actually contributing.

By the time Annabelle’s lunch was prepared, a well-seasoned meal that made my mouth water a little bit after being surrounded by the amazing smells for the entire process, I had completely lost track of time. Glancing towards the clock on the stove, my eyes widened when I saw that we had been cooking for just over an HOUR. 

“Trixie-” I began, knowing that Annabelle must have finished her problem set well over thirty minutes ago.

“Time to clean, Ms. Moore,” she said.

Part Seven

How had I lost track of time?

There was literally a clock on the oven. The kitchen may have been huge, but it was also an open design with plenty of visibility. All I had to do was look up from the various tasks Trixie gave me, and I could have seen how long we were taking to prepare lunch and prep for dinner. But I didn’t. And now Trixie was telling me there was more to do.

“Sorry, Trixie,” I said, deciding immediately to call it quits. An extra set of hands may be helpful, but she would have managed just fine if I had decided to turn down the tutoring opportunity and wasn’t here today, “I need to continue my session with Annabelle.”

“Ms. Moore, stay. Please.” After the low key subservient way the young brunette girl spoke to Annabelle, she was surprisingly firm when speaking to me. “You said you would help me with the kitchen. That means cooking and cleaning. The job isn’t done until the room is spotless.” 

If you’re a stickler, sure. Personally, I tend to do the dishes a little while after making my meals. This didn’t exactly line up with my lifestyle, however, so who was I to argue? “I know, but-”

“But nothing. How about this? Get started on the dishes while I take Ms. Annabelle her meal. I’ll ask her if you may return upstairs instead of assisting me. Okay?”

“Trixie-”

“Dishes, Meredith. I’ll be right back.” 

With a pointed drop of the prepared plate onto a silver tray, Trixie added a small salad bowl and a glass of sparkling ice water she had recently poured to the mix. Then she walked out of the kitchen without another word, tray in hand, leaving me speechless behind her. 

What was happening? 

Rather than treating me as a guest, the girl literally dressed as a maid was bossing me around. I’m pretty sure she and I were the same age, too. And yet, I felt powerless to do anything but reluctantly obey. I wasn’t the biggest fan of confrontation, especially with people I barely knew, and something told me that following Trixie upstairs would result in something like that. Surely Annabelle didn’t want her new tutor wasting this much time downstairs, but she also hadn’t come to check on me. Was she too spoiled to bother? Or maybe she lost track of time as well. Or, more likely, she wanted a bit of her Saturday morning to herself if given the opportunity.

Regardless, there wasn’t much I could do in the meantime. At least Trixie said she would ask Annabelle, and I’m pretty sure the teenage girl would suggest that I should return. There were plenty of people who could wash dishes, but only so many that could teach undergraduate-level mathematics. 

Sighing, I trudged over to the sink and started running the water to warm it up. Even if I was heading upstairs in a minute, I could at least help Trixie a little. Better than just twiddling my thumbs. While I didn’t appreciate the way she spoke to me, I could understand how stressful it could be to handle all the chores that came with a house this size. 

Where to start? Trixie had only made lunch for Annabelle; a meal for one girl, and yet there were so many dirty dishes. I suppose we did some dinner prep as well, but still. Rather than coming up with a game plan like I might do at home with my more familiar kitchen, I simply grabbed the closest pan and began scrubbing. I actually don’t mind dishes; it’s one of those chores that can be cathartic if you allow it to be. But not when there’s something more important to be doing with my time; Annabelle’s time, too.

It took Trixie a little longer than I expected for her to simply deliver a meal and have a short conversation with Annabelle. From what I had seen so far, conversations between the two of them didn’t last very long. But finally, a few minutes later, she returned. “Miss Annabelle said to stay down here until the kitchen is done,” she said, right away, “Then you may resume your tutoring.”

“Wait, what?” I asked. The moment I saw the girl arrive out of the corner of my eye, the plan was to finish washing the cutting board I was working on and then dry my hands. But, with Trixie coming to stand between me and the hand towels, that wasn’t as simple any more.

“We’re not done with the kitchen yet,” she replied. 

So what? Trixie is the maid; not me. “I’m only here for 45 more minutes,” I said, a bit exasperated as I set the board aside, “This is a total waste of my time!”

“Meredith, it will go much more quickly if you stop complaining about it,” Trixie said, “Now, will you please keep working on the dishes while I put everything else away?”

“No, I just said-”

“Now, Meredith.”

My aversion to confrontation wasn’t helping, nor was the girl’s curt tone. I hadn’t even noticed that she had switched from ‘Ms. Moore’ to my actual name, but it definitely snapped me to attention mid-conversation. But wasn’t she listening? At this rate, Annabelle and I would barely have any time for actual teaching. “But-”

“Dishes, Meredith. You’re wasting your own time at this point.”

“Umm . . .” I trailed off, at a complete loss. You’d think a girl dressed like that wouldn’t be intimidating, but I had no idea how to handle the abruptly bossy attitude. Relenting, with a small sigh, I turned back to the sink. “Okay.” 

Continuing to work on the barely halfway completed task, I picked up the salad bowl next. Once she saw that I was committed to the dishes, Trixie began working on everything else. Putting everything on the counters away, wiping down the counters, and eventually drying some of the dishes I had already washed.

All in all, it took a solid ten minutes together to make the kitchen spotless. It could have been twenty for Trixie, and I could have been with Annabelle, but no. Finally turning off the faucet and drying my hands off, I looked at the young maid with as stern a look as I could muster after subjecting myself to all that cleaning. “Are we done, now?” I asked.

Part Eight

Trixie didn’t bat an eye at my annoyed glance, but also didn’t try to press any more cleaning on me. From what I could tell, the kitchen was spotless, but I was half expecting her to notice some nit-picky thing we hadn’t dealt with yet. 

“That’s everything, Ms. Moore. Thank you for the help.”

“Great,” I muttered. Without another word, I left the kitchen.

I actually wasn’t sure if Trixie was the right target to vent my frustrations towards. She had been bossy, sure, but Annabelle also apparently said that I should keep cleaning instead of doing the job I was here for. And, of course, I was partly to blame for not standing up for myself and just walking away. Instead, I was my usual pushover self every step of the way.

The house was still intimidating in its size, but the layout was still straightforward. Now that I had been to Annabelle’s wing once, it was easy to retrace my steps. Down the long corridor on the first floor, back up the wide stairs by the front door, and all the way to the last door that opened into the spoiled teenager’s suite. I opened the door to her private living room without giving it a second thought, and immediately regretted doing so.

Annabelle was on a yoga mat, doing ‘upward facing dog.’ That would normally be fine, if not a little bit unexpected; except, in this case, the redhead was only half dressed.

Her clothes were neatly folded in half over the back of the sofa, and Annabelle was only wearing a simple black bra and a matching thong. Since she was facing me, my eyes were immediately drawn to her cleavage, exaggerated from the yoga position. Since I was standing, I could also see over her shoulders to catch her mostly bare ass as well. Her body was as flawless undressed as it seemed when she was dressed, but it was also a body I should very much not be seeing without clothes.

I immediately averted my gaze, the rest of my body still frozen from the surprise. Thankfully, Annabelle’s eyes were closed in the stretched out position, but opening the door and stepping into the room must have alerted her to my presence. Maybe she thought I was Trixie, coming upstairs to deliver a fresh drink or something; I could see how she wouldn’t bat an eye when her young maid walked in on her like this. 

Clearing my throat, still solidly staring out the window rather than at the half naked girl girl on the floor, I started with yet another unintentional, “Umm . . .”

“Oh. Meredith. You know, it’s polite to knock.”

Since I was making the effort to look away, I didn’t even know if she had opened her eyes yet. However, she didn’t seem particularly freaked out that it was me. Not in tone, at least; and there was no scrambling for clothes that I could see in my peripherals either. I guess there’s no shame when you’re confident and have a great body. “Sorry,” I mumbled. She was right. Even if we were studying here before, it was still Annabelle’s private space. I just hadn’t thought of it that way, since it wasn’t a bedroom. “I can wait outside, or something.”

“Don’t be silly,” Annabelle said, “I’m almost done. In the meantime, do you want to look over my answers?”

Like, while she was still doing half dressed yoga? 

In a matter of seconds, I had already lost all my steam. Between the kitchen and her suite, I was considering a mini lecture for the girl. About how I was here to tutor her, not to do Trixie’s job. About how I didn’t appreciate how presumptuous she was in terms of waving me off to help without even asking me about it first. The mental dots hadn’t all been connected yet, but I still wanted to say something. If this was going to be more than one session, it was important to set boundaries. 

But now, I was too thrown to even remember half the phrases that had formed on the way upstairs. “But, you’re-” I began, not sure where to even start. Speaking of boundaries, this was a whole different issue than what I had been preparing myself for. She was eighteen, and we were both girls, but the fact that she still attended high school made me feel a bit unsettled. “Can you please get dressed?” I ask. Immediately realizing I sounded a bit more like a babysitter than the peer she treated me like earlier, I made sure to hastily add, “Or, I guess I can check your work downstairs?”

“Nonsense, Meredith. Everything’s already set up in here,” she said, “And I’ll only be a few more minutes; promise. Does it really bother you that much?” 

“Well,” I said, then hesitated. Yes, it bothered me. I was already confused enough in terms of how attractive she was despite my straightness, and that was before everything else. The frustration of cooking and cleaning with Trixie. The surprise of walking in on Annabelle like this. Most recently, the addition of ‘that much’ to the question. I was stuck between looking super reserved, or having to stumble through an explanation of how it bothered me when talking to a girl who clearly felt totally fine with all this. 

Ultimately, I decided not to fight it. Mostly because Annabelle was using the same logic she used when telling me to go off with Trixie, but reversed. It would take me a few minutes to go through the problem set she completed, so she was just keeping herself busy in the meantime. Using the most of her time, I guess. 

Perhaps my body language would be enough for her to realize that this was all a bit awkward for me, or maybe I’d be more prepared to discuss it next time. “It’s fine,” I said. Still not looking at her; it felt a bit strange to talk to someone without making any eye contact, but I didn’t want to risk another unintentional glance at her body while she was mid-stretch.

Which was going to be difficult. As I sat back down on the sofa, I realized that the table in front of me didn’t hide Annabelle in the slightest. And she was directly in my line of sight.

Part Nine

I’m a straight girl.

Always have been. And not in a closed-minded way. I grew up in a progressive area, with open and accepting parents. Several of my old high school friends and current college friends are gay or bi, and it’s never bothered me in the slightest. Like who you like, and let people like who they like; it’s not that difficult of a concept. Sure, I’ve kissed a few girls for the stupid sleepover reasons, but that doesn’t mean I’m actually into them. A cliché dare is still just a dare at the end of the day.

Until Annabelle. 

I don’t know what it was about her. I’ve seen attractive girls before, but anyone can recognize good looks within their own sex. Perfect face, perfect hair, perfect body. Youthful in her late teenage years, but mature in her expressions and body language. Confidence practically exuded from her, no matter what attitude or tone she was taking. I had already seen several facets of her personality within a single morning. But I had also seen all those features on all other girls throughout the years, often combined in similar ways. None of them had made me subconsciously question a thing or two about myself.  

And here she was, in just a bra and thong. The simple black style of her undergarments didn’t seem to match the expensive outfit that went over them, but what did I know? She could have paid plenty for the right fabric, the perfect fit, etc. Lord knows bras are a pain to get just right. Or maybe Annabelle just wasn’t picky about her underwear when she was at home on a Saturday. Either way, the simplicity didn’t detract from her beauty. The black paired well with her long red hair, and both red and black offered a contrast to her flawless fair skin. 

Not that I was staring.

I was looking over Annabelle’s work. The extensive problem set I had prepared for her, to see what the best tutoring approach would be. When choosing the problems, as well as creating some myself, I had started with calculus. Even though I was hired to prepare her for undergrad, it wouldn’t hurt to help her shore up any weak spots in her current AP class. Plus a strong grasp on calculus would help her in future classes as well, considering that she would be taking a more advanced version of the subject next year. That’s what I did when I started university. 

Looking over Annabelle’s work. Not constantly glancing over to the portrait view of the scantily clad girl. It’s not even that I was actively checking her out. She was too young for me, and a private student of mine, and a girl. But she was also literally doing yoga in my peripherals, even when I managed to keep my gaze down on the sheet in front of me. Ultimately, I just had to keep telling myself that both nudity and movement would draw anyone’s eyes. If someone walked into Annabelle’s suite right now, man or woman, I’m pretty sure I’d have trouble keeping my eyes up if they were unexpectedly wearing next to nothing.

Back to mathematics. 

Going into this session, I had no idea what to expect. Annabelle’s mother told me that the girl was bright, but that could have just been a mother being a mother. Despite being told that I was hired to prepare her for undergrad classes, there was still a chance that she was a spoiled rich girl who didn’t have a solid grasp on the basics. I already knew I was wrong about that particular assumption, based on the problems Annabelle completed before I went to help Trixie with the dishes. Annabelle had breezed through everything, leaving her to work on the last two thirds of the problems in my absence. 

As for the rest of the problems, I was once again surprised to see just how well she did. Correct answers, again and again, until she made it to the last ten problems. It’s not that I had prepared the girl to fail, but I also purposely complicated things as the problems progressed. Unless she had a tutor before me, or had worked her way through numerous mathematics textbooks on her own, there was no way she would be able to solve the higher level problems I had given her. And she didn’t. But her efforts were still impressive. She had inferred quite a bit on her lonesome, despite not knowing the proper formulas, and had taken a stab at every problem rather than leaving anything blank. The last few were blatantly wrong, but at least she didn’t leave them blank.

One thing was certain: I’d have to adjust my tutoring plan. Annabelle knew a lot more than I expected her to know. But since most of my time had been wasted on chores rather than teaching, I wouldn’t have to improvise a lesson for very long. And, now that I was thinking about my work with Trixie again, there was also the question of whether or not I’d be coming back at all. It was good money, but this was also a lot more than I bargained for when hesitantly agreeing to the trial session. Not only the excessive time spent in the kitchen, but also the current situation where the redhead bombshell was carrying on with her stretches regardless of my discomfort.

Part Ten

Annabelle finished up her underwear-clad yoga just as I was marking a few things down on the last problem she had attempted. 

It was almost perfect in how we synced up the ends of our separate activities, like she first suggested when idly continuing her stretches instead of joining me to look over her work. From her position on the floor, there was no way she could have known I was wrapping up as well, which meant she’d have even more grounds to feel validated in her earlier assumption that the timing would work out. 

I had hoped that the girl would have a little more modesty afterwards, but she was clearly too confident in her body and her private suite to be bothered by such things. Instead of retrieving her clothes and getting dressed, Annabelle just walked over and plopped down next to me on the sofa. “Well? How’d I do?”

When she was doing yoga, I wasn’t staring; she was just right in my line of vision. Now I was dealing with a similar problem. Her D cups bounced the slightest bit when she landed on the sofa, immediately drawing attention to her obvious cleavage between the bra cups. And, just below that, the matching thong left her thighs fully on display. It was a LOT of bare skin, and I had no idea how to carry on a normal conversation next to someone so scantily clad. 

If this were a guy, I would have fled back to my car the moment I stepped back into the private living room. Maybe even called the cops on him for the uncalled for visual, especially when paired with such confidence. But this was different. Annabelle was a girl. Not only is the fairer sex a little more comfortable around each other in terms of locker rooms and such, but we also all have the same parts at the end of the day. This was very much not a locker room, of course, yet the redhead next to me was acting totally normal. 

Maybe it was fine for her, but it was all still pretty awkward to me. “Umm, maybe you should get dressed first?” I suggested, albeit not in the most assertive way, “It will take a little while to go through all of these.” 

“That’s fine; I don’t mind,” Annabelle said, “It’s a little warm up here anyway.”

Well, yeah. It was already pretty apparent that she didn’t mind. “It’s just,” I began, wanting to choose my words carefully. Sure, the girl was crazy confident, but I still didn’t want to risk somehow making her feel self conscious. But I already started talking, so I had to say something, “I mean, I’d be more comfortable. You know, tutoring you like normal?” As in, fully clothed.

“Oh.” She glanced down at her mostly bare form, then back to me, “Are you, like, a lesbian or something?”

What?! “NO.” I quickly blurted out. I could feel the heat rushing to my face, both from the unexpected question and from my knee-jerk reaction to it. There’s nothing wrong with liking girls, but the word ‘lesbian’ is just so sexualized compared to ‘gay.’ Especially when suggested out of the blue like that. “No, I’m not,” I added, more calmly than before.

Annabelle didn’t seem particularly bothered or taken aback by my reaction. “Really? Then what’s the problem?” she asked, “I’ve been like this ever since you got back, and it’s been fine. Hasn’t it?”

Shit.

What was I supposed to do with that? Telling her that it wasn’t really fine would mean that I had basically been sitting there the whole time without speaking up while I was grading and she was stretching. But agreeing that everything was fine would mean that I’d lose more ground. It was a lose/lose, especially against a girl who didn’t seem to see a single reason wrong with any of this.

Before I could find the words, if there were even any words to find, Annabelle went on. “Clothes are a construct, anyway. It’s fine for me to be outside in a bikini, but I can’t learn a little math in my bra?”

I mean, she wasn’t wrong. God knows my girlfriends and I have similar conversations about the parallels between those two things. The difference was, you expected to see people in swimwear at the pool. For this? Not so much. Although I guess that was Annabelle’s point about clothes being a construct. Damn.

Except, we weren’t just two girls. If a classmate took off her shirt in her dorm room . . . well, I’d probably still be uncomfortable, but potentially more amenable to the idea. But Annabelle was in high school. And wearing a bra as a top was one thing, but just a thong below the waist was a lot more to handle.

And, just like that, I found myself blurting out one of those thoughts. “But, you’re a high schooler.”

“I’m eighteen, Mere. And why does that even matter? If you’re not into girls, then it shouldn’t make a difference. Or, are you bi?”

“No. I’m not- anything! Look, I’m straight. But that doesn’t mean I’m okay tutoring some half naked girl. And it’s Meredith.”

She just sighed. “Whatever. So, problem one?”

After all that? Nothing. 

Annabelle remained seated on the sofa, making no move to get dressed. Her posture was perfect, just like before, except there was nothing proper about her revealing appearance. And yet, all that bare skin was almost more intimidating than the expensive outfit she was wearing when we first met. But what could I do about it? I was getting paid a lot to be here, and too much of my time had already been wasted in the kitchen.

At this point, there was a good chance I wasn’t going to be back here a second time. It was just too much to put up with. For now, however, I’d suck it up and run out the clock.

“Problem one,” I relented.

Part Eleven

As I reviewed the first few problems with Annabelle, I had to make a conscious effort not to accidentally check her out. Whenever she leaned over to get a closer look at something on the page, it resulted in her cleavage being painfully obvious in my peripherals. Her bare thighs were also on display the entire time, and it was impossible to ignore the fact that she was half dressed when I was stuck looking at the completed packet in front of us.

Just a few more minutes. 

This was supposed to be a 90 minute session, and I had already been here for nearly two hours. Because I was being paid so much, I decided earlier that it wasn’t fair to count the time it took to pull around to the back of the house, or the introductions with Trixie and the redhead that was way too comfortable in her own space. Instead, I noted the time when Annabelle and I actually started talking mathematics and used that as the official start to our session. 

Now that I had spent a little over an hour cooking and cleaning in the kitchen downstairs, we had less than ten minutes left for what I was actually hired for. While I felt a little weird about taking so much money for such a mundane task, none of this was my fault. Annabelle was the one that sent me away, and she and Trixie were annoyingly persistent about keeping me down there. At this rate, I figured I should be paid in full simply to make up for all the trouble and the awkwardness. 

Annabelle and I only made it to the end of the fourth problem. While her answers were correct, there were still a few things that I went over in terms of how she could have been more thorough with her work. And, in one instance, how a different method would have been better. She had the same attitude as before: when she knows that she’s right, the potential padding of partial credit doesn’t interest her. And I understood. I was also a bit of a human calculator in high school, but university taught me to slow down. Ultimately, there’s a lot more to learn during the journey of a problem than the destination.

Maybe I would have extended our session if it had just been the time issue caused by the dishes, but Annabelle’s state of undress was too much on top of that. Eighteen or not, her high school status complicated things. “Well, that’s all the time I have,” I said. Setting the packet down to add a visual cue to the end of our session, I realized a moment too late that no longer focusing on the problem set meant that I’d have to look more directly at her. 

Annabelle let out a small sigh. “Already? I wanted to learn about those last few! I had, like, no idea what I was doing.”

‘Maybe we could keep going if you got dressed.’ I thought about saying it, but there were too many unknowns with something like that. Either she’d once again make it sound like I’m the one being weird about it, or she’d take me up on the offer. This was also MY weekend, and I had a lot to get done for my own classes. “Sorry, Annabelle. Maybe-” My voice caught in my throat. Maybe next time? This was only supposed to be a trial session, and I had already mostly decided that it wasn’t worth the trouble. I was a busy girl, and not even a few hundred dollars could tempt me to tutor a topless girl week after week.

“Maybe what?” Annabelle asked.

Well, at least I had cut myself off. Thinking quickly, I turned towards her and focused on her eyes and only her eyes. She definitely wasn’t shy about eye contact, and had noticeably deep green eyes. “Maybe I can send you some materials?” I said, “Most of those problems revolve around the same formula.”

“That would be great, Meredith. You have to take that with you to review, right?” she asked, nodding towards the packet, “Could you send me a copy with those materials? I want to try to figure it out on my own before next Saturday.”

Damn. So much for slipping out without mentioning my hesitation about continuing these tutoring sessions. “Umm, like I told your parents,” I began, not entirely sure how much they shared with their daughter about the communication leading up to this, “I’m not sure if I can make this a regular commitment.”

“But, why not? I gave up my Saturday for you, Meredith. You’re going to quit on me after one day?”

“No, it’s not like that. It’s just- umm, I mean-” 

“Here.” Annabelle reached over and grabbed her phone from the coffee table. Unlocking it in half a second with her face, she handed it to me. “Give me your number. If you’re not going to come back, at least let me message you to make sure I’m doing the last few problems right after you send me everything. Just while I look for a new tutor. Okay?”

“Oh. Well . . .” I trailed off. It wasn’t exactly the most unreasonable request. Although it was definitely her fault that most of my time was wasted, maybe she deserved a little closure on the kinds of problems I introduced to her in the first place. And, again, her parents were paying me enough that a little follow-up work on my end was tolerable. “Okay. But I’m really busy, Annabelle. I might not be able to get back to you right away,” I said. As I typed in my contact information, I figured it was important to mention something like that to a teenager who may be used to more instant replies. 

Taking the phone back when I was done, Annabelle just shrugged and brushed her hair back. “That’s fine. If it means learning new things, then it’s worth the wait.”

More mature than I expected, but should that be a surprise? Despite the surprises of the day and the low key presumptuous attitude of the girl, nothing about her was particularly immature save for the occasional teenage use of the word ‘like.’

While her enthusiasm for my chosen field made it more difficult to commit to my decision to make this our first and last session, I had still more or less made up my mind. She could be as passionate and mature as she wanted, but there were just too many difficult variables that I couldn’t deal with. So, after taking a minute to collect my things, I wished Annabelle luck moving forward, and bid her farewell. Letting out a quiet sigh of relief once I was able to turn my back and no longer face the scantily clad girl, I made my way down the hall and back downstairs. Now I just had to retrace my step to my shoes. 

Trixie intercepted me fairly easily, as she was dusting nearby when I reached the base of the stairs. “Ms. Moore.” Pausing her cleaning, she picked up a nearby envelope and brought it over to me. “Thank you again for your help in the kitchen. Here’s everything for teaching and cleaning, plus a small tip. I hope cash is alright.”

“It’s fine,” I lied. Hundreds of dollars would be a lot easier to deposit with a check and an app. Sliding the envelope into my bag’s side pocket, I let Trixie escort me through the house and back to the side door. 

Just like that, I was back in my car. Almost thirty minutes behind schedule, but I wouldn’t complain when I had earned a big stack of cash for my troubles. Even with my prep work, the commute, and whatever future Annabelle texts I had to deal with, I still ended up making more than $100/hour. I couldn’t help myself. In the solitude of my car, I opened the envelope to check out what I had made. 

My eyes widened as I sifted through the bills. Rather than the $600 I expected to find, there were NINE hundred dollar bills waiting for me. An extra $300, for what? Dishes and a tip? It was absolutely crazy. Especially since working with Trixie wasn’t in addition to the time I spent tutoring; it was in place of it. 

The moral part of me wanted to knock on the door and give the extra money back. And yet, the broke university girl part of me was a little more tempted to come back next Saturday . . .

Part Twelve

My phone was sitting on my desk, awaiting my decision.

It had been four full days since I left Annabelle’s house. Four and half, if I counted the rest of Saturday after I returned to my little apartment to get started on all my schoolwork for the weekend. All that time, and I still hadn’t fully made up my mind about whether or not I’d return.

When I had left, the decision felt so easy. I was insulted and annoyed that neither Trixie or Annabelle thought twice about subjecting me to chores, and I was flustered from having to deal with Annabelle’s lack of clothes for the last thirty minutes that I was there. However, getting 150% more cash than I expected was a strong temptation to suck it up, and actually having the stack of hundreds in my hand made the money feel a lot more real than if I was given a check instead. And, as each day passed afterwards, it became easier to explain away all the difficulties that I suffered through. 

It’s not like I tried very hard to get out of helping Trixie in the kitchen. The girl was dressed as a maid, for crying out loud. And yet, I didn’t have the backbone to put my foot down. At least, not firmly. Looking back, I remembered trying to get back to tutoring, but Trixie had been so short with me. Maybe if I pushed back and stood up for myself, she would have stepped aside and not made such a fuss about it. 

And then there was Annabelle. While her half nudity was a shock to say the least, she was also still technically a teenager. That meant she would be opinionated about a number of things, including the whole ‘clothes are a construct’ concept. Maybe instead of fighting her on the issue, I could get away with teaching her downstairs, or outside, or at a coffee shop. Somewhere that would pressure her to maintain a proper and appropriate appearance, rather than being too comfortable in her own room. 

Actually, a coffee shop would eliminate the potential for chores. Normally I was too frugal to pay several dollars for a single cup of coffee when I could simply make some at home for a fraction of the cost, but it would hardly make a dent when it was coming out of my tutoring pay. Although, speaking of temptations, if I went into a chore knowing that I was getting $300/hour to do so, I’d be a little more amenable. Would it be manipulative to keep teaching at the Alodia house in hopes that I’d be sent off with Trixie again? A family that wealthy probably wouldn’t miss the money, but I could really use the padding for my savings account. Decisions . . .

Aside from the financial reasons, I was also more interested in tutoring Annabelle after exchanging a few texts with her. 

Our first session had already made it apparent that she was intelligent for her age. However, she continued to surprise me with her interest and her initiative on top of that. As requested, I had sent her a copy of the problem set she attempted to complete, as well as a few PDFs and scans from my textbooks. Within 24 hours, she had worked her way through the material and sent me back her new attempts at the problems she hadn’t known how to do before. Not only were all of her answers correct the second time around, but she also went out of her way to show every single step of her work. The formulas and concepts may have been new to her, but that wasn’t enough of a reason for her to be so thorough when I had seen that she was capable of solving plenty of smaller parts of problems in her head. 

Maybe I was overthinking it, but it almost felt like Annabelle was saying ‘I’m trying it your way’ to me. But only through her work, as she didn’t mention anything like that over text. It was surprisingly mature of her. 

Finally, there was a notable amount of passion for the subject in her texts. Not only did she ask me if she did everything right, and if there was anything she could improve on, but there were also requests for more complicated problems that related to the new material she had essentially taught herself. Once again, Annabelle was subverting any expectations I had about her being a rich girl coasting through life. She wanted to learn, and knew how to apply herself. Honestly, it made her a lot more desirable than when I was messaging her parents. A student that wants to learn is a dream student, as most teachers and tutors end up teaching those that either don’t want to learn or those that are just going through the motions for a decent grade.

Good money for a good student? It was ideal. 

Which only left one problem–Annabelle had also been mature about not pestering me to come back. We had a good texting rapport, although she definitely texted like a teenage girl. Even so, it was hard to avoid smiling when she got excited about nailing a mathematics concept and/or getting multiple problems correct with zero mistakes. But through all the back and forth, she never once mentioned another session. Either she was already looking for another tutor, or she was letting me change my mind without interference on her end. Whether it was intentional manipulation or not, it was definitely working. I was leaning towards continuing our sessions, and also trying to figure out how to broach the subject without looking too desperate about it.

A text would be easier, but a call would be more personal. Especially after she seemed a little disappointed when I told her I couldn’t commit to regular sessions.

Taking a deep breath, I picked up my phone and found Annabelle’s name near the top of my Contacts. Calling a younger girl shouldn’t be so daunting, but there was just something about her that intimidated me a little bit despite her texting energy over the last few days. 

Before I could overthink it, I made the call. 

Two rings later, just when I was considering hanging up and taking the less stressful route of sending a text instead, Annabelle answered.

“Meredith? What’s up?” she asked.

Part Thirteen

–Last Saturday–

The moment Annabelle heard Meredith descending the stairs down the hall, she reached behind her back with a single hand and deftly undid the clasp of her bra. 

‘Finally,’ she thought to herself. 

It was hands down her least favorite bra. The band was too tight, her breasts didn’t sit that comfortably in the cups, and the material was so bland compared to most of the lingerie she owned. Pain is beauty, however, and the unloved black number that normally sat at the back of her drawer still served a purpose every now and then. The plain bra did an excellent job of showing off a good amount of cleavage while still appearing to be a normal undergarment; her lace sets would have had the same visual result, but would potentially make Meredith question why a girl would wear such a thing at home on a Saturday morning. 

Meredith.

The moment Annabelle had laid eyes on the girl, the gears started turning in her mind. Meredith wasn’t notably small, but she also wasn’t as tall or as curvy as Annabelle. That was good. In Annabelle’s experience, less endowed girls often ended up bitter and jealous when faced with a body like hers. And, when fueled correctly, bitterness could turn into anger. Jealousy could be turned into desire. Anger could be shifted to passion. Desire could be shifted to all kinds of things. 

Now that Annabelle was eighteen, there were no limits when it came to partners. She had already been with one undergrad student, and now she had her sights set on another. It didn’t matter if Meredith was into girls or not. At the end of the day, Annabelle was irresistible. And her cute tutor was no exception to the gravitational pull that came with being a sexy, confident, and clever redhead. 

Of course, sapphic promiscuity would only be a fringe benefit to what Annabelle had planned for the girl. After all, Annabelle could seduce just about anything that breathed if given enough time to figure them out. No, the much more interesting venture was awakening the submissive side of other girls. A bright, young Mathematics student who was so academically driven that she almost turned down this job? It would be delicious to see Meredith’s studious self be put towards other endeavors. An hour in the kitchen was just the beginning. 

This wasn’t Annabelle’s first effort, either. Trixie was already a shining example of what could happen to a girl who submitted to a life as a subservient maid. 

A few weeks into Annabelle’s senior year, Beatrix arrived as a student teacher. It was common enough to have Education majors around for some real world experience alongside their undergrad classes, but this particular blonde caught Annabelle’s eye. Not only was Beatrix attractive, but she was also very clearly into the fairer sex. To her credit, the student teacher was more subtle than teenage guys when it came to checking girls out, but Annabelle still caught it. Beatrix’s eyes occasionally lingered for a moment on a classmate’s chest when she was hunched over taking a test, or stole a quick glance when a girl bent over. 

Granted, this was a class of seniors, so the aspiring teacher was at least eyeing legal girls for the most part. But still, they were high school students; definitely a blurry line. In a more boring world, Annabelle would have somehow leveraged that against the young woman. But blackmail was no fun. There were more interesting ways to get what you wanted, and the effect would last a lot longer if the other girl wanted it as well. Even if she didn’t know it yet.

Back then, Annabelle could have tracked every tiny step on Beatrix’s journey from ‘student teacher’ to ‘dirty little secret’ to ‘university dropout.’ 

Now, the petite blonde was Trixie. She was nothing more than a maid for the Alodia household, and occasionally a partner in the bedroom. Trixie hadn’t realized it at the time, but she was always meant to serve better girls. Hot redheads like Annabelle. And, while Annabelle had certainly gone out of her way to push Trixie to her current submissive lifestyle, it’s not like the young woman was being forced to stay. She could leave any time. Return to what was left of her life, continue her higher education, and aspire to be more than a humble maid. But she wouldn’t. Annabelle’s pull was still very much there, and Trixie had fallen too far to know any other life than the one she was now living.

Annabelle hadn’t counted on a repeat performance. Since she would be heading to university soon, there wasn’t much sense in acquiring another pet. There was a good chance she would end up out of state. Her parents had already discussed investing in a condo or townhouse for her. In the long run, it made more financial sense than renting her an apartment or paying for a dorm. Four years of equity was the better play. 

Long story short, she didn’t need more than one maid. Annabelle hadn’t decided if she was going to bring Trixie along or not. The blonde was a fun project at the time, but the devious game was more or less over at this point. Looking ahead, Annabelle figured she’d find a cute classmate to seduce and collar. Because, of course, most of the excitement lay in the chase. 

Except Annabelle couldn’t help herself. She was clever, but she was also impulsive. And Meredith was the perfect target. Petite, and easily flustered; reluctantly obedient, but self assured enough that she wasn’t a doormat. Just Annabelle’s type, because it was boring when a girl was too easy. Little Mere was the perfect middle ground–a girl with a submissive streak that had yet to be tapped. 

Worst case scenario, Annabelle would use her for practice before graduation.

Best case scenario, she’d have a shiny new pet to bring along to university. 

Part Fourteen

I’ve always hated phone calls.

While they’re definitely the way to go in order to avoid excessive back and forth texting, there are just too many drawbacks compared to other forms of communication. Talking with someone face to face has the advantage of facial expressions and body language. Typing out a text or email lets you organize your thoughts in written form before pressing ‘Send.’ But both those perks are lost over the phone.

Long story short, calling Annabelle might have been a bad idea. 

I had been a lot more focused on IF I would be reaching out and suggesting another session. The pros and cons. Annabelle’s passion and initiative for mathematics was a huge draw, as was the outlandish amount of money I’d be making from each session, but how was I supposed to put that into words? It was too late to back out, however. It’s not like I could just hang up on her. “Oh, hey,” I said, “Sorry to bother you so late.” 

She quietly scoffed. “Please. It’s barely even nine. Besides, you never bother me.”

The casual compliment landed more effectively than she probably realized. Lightly blushing, and suddenly grateful to be on the phone instead of a video call, I muttered an awkward, “Thanks.” I don’t know what it was about the girl. It’s not like I had anything to prove to her. I was the tutor, and she was the high schooler. And yet, her low key validation made an unexpected impact. “Anyway, I was just taking another look at my schedule.” A white lie. Saturday was always a free day for me, at least in terms of obligations. I still tended to use the time for schoolwork and studying. 

“Oh?” The tone behind the one word response was enough to tell that she knew where I was headed. She didn’t fill in the blanks for me, however. 

“Yeah. It looks like my next few weekends will be more flexible than I thought. At least, until midterms hit.” That last part wasn’t a lie. Our sessions would have to be more hit or miss while I focused on wrapping up a few projects and studying for those tests. 

I still wasn’t sure how to ask Annabelle if she wanted me to continue as her tutor without sounding too desperate or awkward about it. Thankfully, she seemed to get my point. There was only one problem. “Damn. That’s bad timing. I wish you called me yesterday!”

Wait, what? 

My heart sank a little bit at the implication. I knew there was a chance that she already would have been looking for another tutor; a girl with her resources would be able to replace me right away if she wanted to. Hell, it was possible that my name wasn’t the only one on her list the first time around. Even if I was the best for my age, not to sound braggy, there were plenty of girls that could handle teaching upper level mathematics to a bright eighteen year old.

Would it be selfish to try and take the job back for myself? I mean, I was there first. And Annabelle and I seemed to have pretty good chemistry. She definitely wasn’t the spoiled brat I expected when walking in. And, admittedly, the money was really, really good.

“Oh, did you find a new tutor?” I asked. For once, I was actually grateful to be on the phone. Playing it cool was easier when she couldn’t see my face. “Someone else from my school? If I know her, I can give her what we’ve worked on so far.” 

Normally I wasn’t this kind of girl. Lying wasn’t my thing, although I technically wasn’t lying. If Annabelle had firmly committed to a classmate of mine, then it wouldn’t hurt to pass on my materials. It wasn’t just about the money, after all, and the gesture would help my temporary tutee succeed. Except that was IF Annabelle’s decision was final. But maybe if she gave me a name, and it was someone in my classes, I could find a way to suggest that I was the better girl for the job. She was probably going for another university-aged tutor, since her parents had already explained that she had wanted someone a little closer in age. 

“No, she’s from your sister school,” Annabelle said, “And probably for the best, right? This was more of a drive for you than it is for her.” 

Oh my God. Bridget.

I could feel my heart rate increase at just the chance that Annabelle went that way. And as much as I hated to think it, the probability was there. My childhood rival attended the private university across the river, and her mathematics abilities were on par with my own. If Annabelle had selected me because I was currently the best in my year, then it stood to reason that she’d use the same criteria for the sister school. And, although I didn’t keep tabs on Bridget, I would also be surprised if she wasn’t the best and brightest over there. Not only because of her natural talents, like mine, but she’s also so competitive that being at the top is the only acceptable option for her. 

Taking a breath to calm myself would have been nice. Too much silence on my end of the call, however, would ruin the casual attitude I was attempting to maintain. “Oh, really?” I replied, “Who did you end up finding? I know a few of the math majors over there from collaborative projects.” Another half truth. More like I knew one girl, and said projects were actually from before university.

“Really? Cool,” Annabelle said, “It’s this girl named Bridget. She’s the same year as you.”

I had mentally and emotionally braced myself as well as I could with only a few seconds to do so, but it still didn’t soften the blow. Annabelle was replacing me with Bridget. Any other girl, and I might have let it go.

Bridget, however, was NOT going to take this job from me. 

Part Fifteen

Playing it cool was a given.

The real question was, should I mention that Bridget and I knew each other? That would be the understatement of a lifetime. 

It would be easier to sway Annabelle back to my side if I could tastefully cast my former rival in a more negative light, but it also ran the risk of my name being mentioned to Bridget when Annabelle let her know her services actually weren’t needed. If I omitted any relationship with Bridget, however, then how would I make myself sound better in comparison? Except, of course, for the fact that I was Annabelle’s top choice the first time around.

I was still in the midst of our phone call, so I had to make a snap decision. The former made for easier conversation, as long as I kept reminding myself that less is more. Keep it light, keep it friendly; there was no need to get into the old rivalry. “Hmm, Bridget?” I said, “I didn’t know she had any tutoring experience.” Like I was one to talk. But this was about making Annabelle doubt Bridget, so my nonexistent teaching history mattered less than her nonexistent teaching history.

“Oh, you know her?” Annabelle asked, “And yeah, she taught a few younger students before university. I’m obviously her first prodigy, but I don’t think she minds.”

“Humble,” I teased. The girl was intelligent, I’ll give her that, but she was no prodigy. Otherwise she would have been running circles around me last Saturday. 

The bit about Bridget, however, caught me off guard. She tutored back in high school? That was news to me. Either it was a lie, meant to impress Annabelle and/or Annabelle’s parents; or it was the truth, which would explain why I never had any luck finding students a few years ago. If Bridget had our county locked down through word of mouth or other means, no wonder my attempts at advertising never yielded any results. 

Once again, I was overthinking things. It didn’t matter whether or not Bridget ran a tutoring business back then and kept it to herself. The more important focus was keeping her from making bank from a job that should still be mine. I mean, I did still want to teach Annabelle anyway. That’s why I made the call in the first place before learning this critical detail. But stealing it back from Bridget would be a pretty delicious cherry on top.

Going on, I aimed for the high road for the time being. I wasn’t above badmouthing Bridget, but I also wasn’t naturally the catty type. If I could convince Annabelle through other means, that would be fine. The end result is all that really mattered: Me, tutoring Annabelle. Bridget, losing what was supposed to be a sweet gig. “Oh, I didn’t know that,” I said, sticking with whatever truths I could, “But it would be a shame if you had to start from scratch with someone else.”

“What do you mean?” Annabelle asked, “You can send her our stuff, right?”

Oh. Right. I did say that, didn’t I? “Umm, maybe. I don’t know if I have contact info.” 

“That’s okay! I can give you her Email.”

“Well, umm. I guess that could work?”

This was quickly turning into my worst nightmare. It was one thing to hear that Bridget was getting a lucrative job that I foolishly (and temporarily) gave up. But if she learned that I had it first? I could already imagine how smug she would be about it, even in Email form. Not to mention how much leg work I already did, only to hand over everything for her own use. 

“Awesome. Thanks, Mere!” 

Just a few minutes ago, the nickname would have reminded me of the list of cons I made before giving Annabelle a call. But I barely flinched at it when faced with the important fight or flight decision before me. Quietly relent, because there was no easy way to get the job back? Or push for what I wanted? Normally I would have gone with the former, as I’m terrible at confrontation and/or directness, but there was just too much riding on this. 

Annabelle was passionate about mathematics; passionate enough to spend her precious time working on problems and texting me about them instead of doing whatever her other rich friends were doing. The money was really, really good. And, though it was difficult to figure out why, and impossible to explain to even myself, I felt drawn to the girl. 

And, of course, fuck Bridget. 

“Wait!” I blurted out. Lowering my voice from the somewhat shrill exclamation, I was once again grateful she couldn’t see my flushed cheeks. “Sorry. Umm, please wait.”

Totally calm on her end, Annabelle replied, “Yes, Mere?”

Taking a deep breath, I just said it. While the redhead on the other line seemed pretty socially adept, dropping hints and subtly sowing doubt over the phone wasn’t as easy as it would have been in person. “Honestly, Annabelle, I really don’t like Bridget. I think I should be your tutor; not her.” I moved the phone away from my lips to let out a nervous exhale following the honesty that was normally too intimidating for me to say out loud, and nervously waited for her reply. 

A few agonizing seconds of silence passed. 

Biting my lip, I listened for anything. A quiet breath, a creak of furniture, something in the background. Was she still there? It would be just my luck if I found the courage to say what I needed to say, only for the connection to drop at the perfect wrong time. I didn’t mind if Annabelle needed a minute to think about her response, but it would at least be nice to know that she heard.

“Annabelle?” I hesitantly asked. 

After a moment, she finally said, “I’ll call you in a few hours, okay?”

And, just like that, she hung up.

Part Sixteen

When Annabelle abruptly ended the call, I had no idea how to react. 

Was she upset? Annoyed? Did she just need to process what I said, or was it something else entirely? I didn’t know the girl nearly well enough after one day to read her, especially not over the phone. 

Even worse, what was I supposed to do with myself while I waited? It would have been one thing if she had simply picked Bridget over me; after I pushed back a little more, of course. Knowing my old rival was reaping the benefits of an opportunity that should have been mine would have stung, and I can’t imagine how long I’d need to get over it. But now the band-aid was still in place, instead of being ripped off. I had no idea which way Annabelle might lean, and the suspense was already killing me.

Also, what did she mean by a few hours? That could mean anything to a teenager. Or to a university student, I guess. 

It was already 9 PM. I typically went to bed between ten and eleven on weekdays, depending on how early my first class was the following morning. Hopefully Annabelle would call before then. I really didn’t want to stay up later than necessary, but I also didn’t want to get to bed with my phone’s volume on and answer with a groggy voice when I woke up to the eventual ringtone by my ear. Although sleep wasn’t going to come easily; I’d probably just toss and turn, stewing at the thought of Bridget tutoring Annabelle.

For the moment, I needed to distract myself. Studying wasn’t going to happen for the rest of the night; there was no way I could focus enough to make anything important stick. While I considered myself fairly patient, I also wasn’t the type of girl to just laze around and twiddle my thumbs. Sighing to myself, I got up and settled on doing chores to kill time. Might as well. Save for one problem–my apartment stayed pretty clean. Not because I’m a neat freak, but because I spent most of the day at school. I didn’t do much but eat, sleep, and study at my place. Laundry and vacuuming were out, as I didn’t want to disturb my neighbors at a later hour. After pacing around for a few minutes, looking around in an effort to think about what needed to be done, I decided to dump out my backpack on my desk and reorganize both the bag and my study space. 

Halfway through the process, my phone buzzed. ‘That was fast!’ I thought. The vibrations on the desk off to my left actually startled me, as barely fifteen minutes had passed since Annabelle hung up. Assuming it was her, I almost picked up without even checking first. Thankfully, I caught a glimpse of the screen just before I slid my finger over the ‘Answer’ section at the base of my phone.

Bridget was calling me?

Should I answer? I hadn’t spoken to the girl since high school. There was no way this was a coincidence. But Annabelle wasn’t supposed to tell her about me! That’s the last thing I wanted. Bridget always played dirty. I almost missed a competition once because she had gone out of her way to design letters and emails that were almost identical to the originals, but with false information. And that’s just one example. 

If she heard that I was standing in the way of a lucrative opportunity, then I could only imagine what she might have said to Annabelle about me. But why was she calling? To gloat that the job was hers, or to threaten me? I was never scared of the girl; that couldn’t be it. There was only one way to find out . . .

On what might have been the last ring, I picked up the phone. “What do you want, Bridget?”

“Hey, Meredith!” Her voice was chipper, like we were best friends reunited or something, but I could hear the subtle bite behind it. “I just had a very interesting conversation with a mutual acquaintance of ours. Did you really bail on such a perfect job? Just like that?”

Ugh, I didn’t BAIL. My schedule was busy, as I had explained to Annabelle’s parents. Add on the insulting chores and having to deal with an eighteen year old’s partial nudity, and I just wasn’t ready to commit to anything. Maybe I would have felt differently if I was handed all that cash sooner, but it was too late to dwell on stuff like that.

Except, I couldn’t tell all that to Bridget. Partially because I didn’t want to give her any ammo to potentially use against me, and partially because it would be a nice consolation prize to know that she was potentially doing chores instead of tutoring. For someone who has the attitude of a girl who never lifts a finger to help out around the house, I doubt Bridget would enjoy spending an hour cleaning the kitchen. 

“What do you want?” I repeated. While I was insanely curious about what she and Annabelle talked about, there was no way I’d be baited into asking about it. Either she could cut to the chase, or I could hang up. 

“Well, funny story,” she said, “Cute little Anna was asking if I’d be interested in co-tutoring with someone else. Hell no; obvi. I’m not going to give up half my pay to some other girl. But then she said it would be with you. Come on, Mere. Wouldn’t it be fun to work together again? Just like old times!”

My amusement towards ‘cute little Anna,’ as that didn’t describe the confident redhead at all, quickly faded when Bridget used Annabelle’s occasional nickname for me. “No, thanks,” I flatly said.

“I agree,” Bridget replied, “I thought about it for a sec, but decided that Anna deserves the best. You would only be getting in the way.” 

Then, to my shock, she concluded with, “So I told her I’d do the job for free.”

Part Seventeen

The next day, I was back at the Alodias’ mansion. 

Had I made a huge mistake? 

Instead of dealing with Bridget’s smugness the other night, I hung up on her immediately and called Annabelle instead. I wasn’t able to wait however many hours it was going to take for her to call me. Getting right to it, I offered my tutoring services for free as well. I was so heated from Bridget doing the same thing for the sake of taking away my job, that I didn’t stop to think about what I was giving up. I mean, Annabelle may be bright and fun to text with about mathematics, but the main draw for coming back had still been the high payout for each session. Until Bridget was added to the equation.

Two years after high school graduation, she still had a way of getting under my skin. Objectively, I should have just given her the job. Whether I was Annabelle’s tutor, or Bridget was, I still wouldn’t be getting paid after mirroring Bridget’s tactic. Honestly, I don’t even remember what I said when Annabelle asked why. That she was a promising young mathematician and I wanted the best for her, that the experience from our sessions and my prep work was all the payment I needed, that I could potentially count my tutoring as a credit? I had been tilted and frazzled from Bridget’s call, and could have babbled out any number of explanations. I just wanted to ‘win,’ and have the tutoring job all to myself.

Annabelle must have suspected something, as I had called to drop my price to nothing just minutes after she spoke with Bridget about the same. Thankfully, she didn’t press. Instead, she expressed her appreciation for the discount, then went on to tell me about her co-tutoring idea. Since I was so busy during the week, Annabelle scheduled things with Bridget for Monday and Wednesday evenings, and I could still have the Saturday slot I preferred. But since Annabelle would be learning at a more accelerated rate with a session every few days, Bridget and I would probably need to coordinate so our lessons didn’t overlap.

With Bridget’s lilting voice and obnoxious overconfidence still echoing in my head, I ended up blurting out, “I can do Monday and Wednesday!”

Just like that, I signed myself up for three tutoring sessions with no pay. Annabelle had even asked if I was sure, to which I insisted that I was. I didn’t want to deal with Bridget, and I was clearly the better young mathematician. Plus, Annabelle would learn the most efficiently if just one tutor was planning out and connecting all the lessons without trying to alternate with someone else.

So, the following evening, I was pulling around to the side of Annabelle’s house. 

I had to cancel last minute on my Wednesday night study group, which was going to be another whole thing to worry about later. Hopefully there would be another day that worked for everyone else to get together. I was also indefinitely giving up my Monday movie nights with friends, but I was more concerned about losing the study group that I had literally started if they weren’t able to permanently reschedule around my new conflict. There was also the matter of adjusting my personal study/homework time that used to be perfectly spread out over the course of a week, but that would be more manageable than everything else. The tutoring sessions themselves weren’t that long, but the prep time and the commute was really going to eat into my formerly balanced schedule.

This time around, I was going to have to be more committed to the job. During the call with Annabelle, she expressed how she really enjoyed our first session and the subsequent texting about all the things she had learned and was continuing to figure out with my help. Or, in other words, she didn’t want to get her hopes up only to have me quit again. I understood where she was coming from. Consistency is often important when it comes to academics, and it wouldn’t be fair for me to change my mind after setting up a schedule with her. 

As for the money, I’d just have to mentally stretch out the first $900 over the coming weeks. Because, though the insanely high rate would have been nice, I could see $100/session being what a reasonable household would offer. So I had already been paid for three weeks, technically. Then I could potentially mention things like gas money and prep work later on, and see if Annabelle would be open to paying me again once Bridget was out of the picture. Or, worst case scenario, maybe I could turn the excuses I made over the phone into a reality. Preparing creative problems was good mental exercise, and who knows? Maybe the Alodia family could be a good source for networking opportunities down the road, as wealth tends to pair with connections and influence.

The one thing I hadn’t tackled yet was changing our tutoring location. I hadn’t planned on seeing Annabelle again until Saturday, which would have given me a few more days to see if there were any coffee shops near her house before casually floating the idea over text. Or, I could have skipped the research entirely and let her suggest somewhere we could go. Today, however, would be at Annabelle’s house again. Hopefully I could at least keep us downstairs for a more professional (as in, clothed) session. 

Familiar with the outdoor layout from my first visit, I pulled my car around to the back. Parking in the small lot mostly concealed by greenery, I grabbed my things and made my way to the side door. Unlike last time, Trixie wasn’t there to greet me immediately. There was no doorbell button in sight, so I just gave a tentative knock and hoped that she’d be nearby to let me in.

And then I waited.

Part Eighteen

”Good evening, Ms. Moore.”

Just as I was about to circle around to the front of the house, Trixie greeted me at the side door. There was no doorbell, so I had resigned myself to knocking and hoping that she was within earshot. Apparently not, as the only reason she had come to check on the secluded servants’ section of the house was because I was late. Which wasn’t fair, because I’m the girl who’s always early; until I have to awkwardly stand around outside as the minutes tick by, that is.

After a reminder to do so, I took off my shoes by the door, then followed the young blonde maid through the back hallway as she explained how my arrivals would work. There was a hint of impatience in her voice, which also wasn’t fair. This was only my second time at the Alodias’ house, and no one had informed me about protocol or etiquette in any of the messages prior to this explanation. 

The side door locked and unlocked on a schedule. My tutoring schedule had already been added to their system, which meant that I would always be able to let myself in. As long as I was punctual, of course, which Trixie made a point of emphasizing. I resisted the urge to scoff. Short of a gridlocked accident or an unexpected snowstorm, nothing ever messed with my ‘early is on time’ mantra.

Upon arrival, I was to wait in the sitting room and communicate my presence to Annabelle. More specifically, I was not to text from the car or right outside the house. The Alodia family abhors wasting time, and a message like that wouldn’t give a precise time frame. It would be best to know that I was there when I was officially there. 

I just found myself quietly nodding. More in acknowledgement than agreement. The whole process seemed so stiff and formal, especially when I knew that Annabelle was more laid back. But this wasn’t my world. I’d just have to go along with all the rules, though it would be nice to have a little handbook or something. 

Texting Annabelle like I was instructed to do so, I perched myself on the edge of the cream armchair nearest the door. For all I knew, Annabelle could be one room over, or all the way across the house. Either way, this was only my second time here. I didn’t feel comfortable enough to relax and make myself at home, especially after everything Trixie went through as we made our way down the back hallway and out to the main area. 

After all the messages Annabelle and I exchanged over the last week, I expected her to text me back. Instead, I found myself waiting alone for a few minutes, fidgeting a little bit as the time dragged on. This was exactly why you texted someone after parking the car. 

Eventually, she arrived with an energetic, “Mere!”

I was startled, to say the least. Despite the general silence of the house, save for Trixie working in the kitchen a few rooms over, I hadn’t heard Annabelle’s approach at all. She was wearing a conservative white skirt with a lace pattern and a dark red blouse, once again making me feel self conscious about my own rather plain outfit. Hopefully she didn’t catch my surprised expression. The reason she snuck up on me was probably due to the fact that she was barefoot; the one casual touch to her otherwise put together appearance. 

“Umm, hey,” I said. Brushing my hair back, internally chastising myself about the two nervous ticks–saying ‘umm’ and adjusting my hair when it didn’t really need any adjusting–I was too thrown off by sudden appearance to correct the nickname that I honestly hadn’t been particularly diligent about doing the last time we spoke, either.

“Umm, it’s ‘Hey, Annabelle,’” she replied. 

Her tone was teasing, as was the way she echoed my filler word, but I still found myself lightly blushing and going along with it. “Hey, Annabelle.”

“Good girl.” She winked, then extended her hand, “Well, what are you waiting for? Come on, I’m excited to learn more of this shit!” 

After all the pep talks I had given myself in the car, all the reminders to keep things appropriate and distant in order to deter Annabelle from being too casual and comfortable around me like she was during our first session, my resolve was already bending. 

I was supposed to be her tutor. That didn’t mean that we couldn’t be friends, but that kind of relationship would have to come second. Of course, that was difficult when her texts were bubbly and full of excitement when it came to mathematics. Or ‘this shit,’ at the moment. And, just like her texts, there was no defending against her current attitude. Not without acting cold and aloof in comparison in order to shut her down. I may not be a pushover, but I’m definitely a people pleaser. 

“Learn more of these advanced equations?” I asked, placing my hand in hers and allowing her to pull me to my feet. Annabelle was eighteen. I wasn’t about to be the straight-laced university girl that got on her case about swearing. But she was using the vulgar word as a substitute for mathematics; my major and future field. 

Annabelle gave a half eye roll, squeezing my hand as well. “Curse words aren’t scary, Mere,” she said. Walking back the way she came and gently tugging on my arm in the process, she added, “Come.” 

Those extra few days would have been nice to prepare myself for the redhead now leading me through her house like a lost puppy. I had been counting on that time to figure out what the best approach was to keep my dynamic with Annabelle appropriate. Thanks to Bridget, as well as my full schedule before driving over to tutor, any fleeting moments of free time were dedicated towards scrambling to make a lesson plan for Annabelle, rather than thinking through all the things that had been going through my mind before calling her the other day. 

It was too late to suggest a coffee shop, because our time had already technically started. Maybe we could work downstairs, instead of in her suite? After my last experience with her casual exposure, I was nervous she might have similar thoughts about getting comfortable in her own space. 

“Hey. Maybe we could work down here?” I suggested. We had reached the base of the stairs, so it was clear where the girl was leading me. Deciding to take advantage of the fact that we were holding hands, I gave a small tug in the opposite direction to prevent her first step up.

Cocking her head to the side, Annabelle just replied with a simple, “Why?”

“Well . . .” I trailed off. What to say? It’s not like I could blurt out the real reason, because she would just launch into a similar explanation that happened last time I expressed my discomfort. Clothes are a construct. My discomfort didn’t seem to matter when it came to the viewpoint of an opinionated eighteen year old girl. Instead, I lamely went for, “More table space?” 

“Hmm, maybe next time?” she said, “All my stuff is already set up. My time is precious, Mere, and you were already late.”

I was NOT late. “It’s Meredith.” Finally standing up for myself in terms of the full name, if only to stop myself from saying something worse, I reminded myself that I was the tutor here. Just because Annabelle was acting a little entitled didn’t mean that I should be immature or impulsive in my response. 

“Meredith. Right.” She sounded pretty indifferent about it. It felt like she wasn’t taking the correction particularly seriously, but she also wasn’t rolling her eyes and dismissing it. 

At some level, was that my fault? How many times had I let the nickname slip by without saying anything about it? The more she got it wrong, the more difficult it would be to undo the habit. 

“You prefer ‘Annabelle,’ don’t you?” I asked. It was a question I already knew the answer to, as I had made a point to ask on our first day. 

“Of course. Because it suits me. But honestly, Mere?” She stepped forward. The girl only had a few inches on me, but it felt like a lot more when it was this kind of face to face proximity. “I don’t think ‘Meredith’ works for you. So we’re going to stick with ‘Mere,’ okay?”

Wait, what? My lips briefly parted in surprise as I tried to find the words. She couldn’t just-

“Annabelle,” I began, but that’s as far as I got.

“No,” she said, “Your name is ‘Mere.’”

Then, out of nowhere, she leaned forward and kissed me.

Part Nineteen

“Mmm!” 

My whine of surprise and mild protest hummed through Annabelle’s lips as they locked with my own. Mine had already been slightly parted to say something in response to the girl’s insistence about my nickname, so it was more than easy for her to take my bottom lip between hers. 

This was the third time I had ever kissed a girl. The first was when I was a first-year at university, as a dare. The second was a few months later, to humor a lesbian friend of mine who kept teasing me about it–’Are you sure you aren’t into girls, Meredith?’ Both times involved alcohol, and neither of those girls managed to flip a switch or anything. It was certainly different than kissing guys, and perhaps exciting in the moment to try something outside my comfort zone, but that’s it. Fleeting curiosity, as well as playing along to pretend like I wasn’t the boring, studious girl that I sometimes felt like others viewed me as. 

But this was Annabelle! She was eighteen, and still in high school. I was her tutor. 

Before those thoughts could fully register, however, I briefly kissed her back. Purely out of instinct, as that’s how my entire life had gone up until now. A significant person kisses me, and I reciprocate. Applying pressure with my own lips to match what I was being given, feeling the unique softness of another girl, I settled into the kiss for all of one second. Then, snapping back to reality with wide eyes, I shoved Annabelle away while taking a huge step back.

“Annabelle!” I exclaimed. “What the fuck?!” The marble floor and spacious entryway by the stairs caused my raised voice to resonate and echo. It was rare for me to lose control of my emotions, or swear out loud for that matter, but this was warranted. Still, I couldn’t help but faintly flush from how my exclamation could probably be heard all the way down the hall; the unexpected kiss was no doubt a factor as well. Trying to ignore the heat rushing to my cheeks, I frowned and narrowed my eyes at the audacious redhead. 

As I came to my senses, I could tell that I might have pushed her a little too hard. Annabelle had nearly tripped on the bottom step and fallen backwards, but she managed to catch herself on the banister. “Language, Mere,” she said. Scowling and taking a second to brush back her hair and straighten out her outfit after finding her balance again, she met my gaze. “And what was that? I could have hurt myself.”

She wasn’t wrong. Falling back into the stairs could have hurt her head, or wrists if she caught herself poorly against the steps. Except it wasn’t fair to blame that solely on me. “You just- you can’t-” Fumbling over my words amidst the accusation, as well as the lingering feeling on my lips from the recent kiss, I finally blurted out, “Annabelle, you kissed me!!”

“And you fucking shoved me,” she snapped. Immediately swearing after getting on my case about ‘language,’ but I barely noticed since I was already dealing with everything else. “Apologize, Mere.”

“I-” My voice caught in my throat. She was the one who started this, but my instinctive physical response was putting me at a disadvantage. Instead of arguing, I took a deep breath and said, “I’m sorry.” It was better to be the bigger person and get the apology out of the way. Then we could focus on what Annabelle did, and how it was wrong. “Now apologize for kissing me. Just because-”

Just because . . . what? Now that my shock had somewhat faded, and we were past the adverse reaction I had to the sudden advance, my flustered mind was finally making its way towards the ‘why.’ Why did Annabelle kiss me? Did she like me? All of our texts had been friendly, but maybe I had misread that positive energy. It was always more difficult to infer tone when it was typed. She had taken my hand to guide me through the house, too. 

While Annabelle was technically an adult, she was still a teenager. In my haste to deny Bridget the job, I had pushed to be Annabelle’s only tutor. God, that could easily be interpreted as me liking her. I hadn’t known she was into girls, of course, but still. Could I really blame her for putting herself out there and making a move? Suddenly, my frustration faded as I trailed off in uncertainty. 

“I’m sorry for shoving you.” Annabelle said. 

“What?” I asked, as her voice broke me out of my thoughts. 

“That’s how apologies work. You have to say the whole thing.”

“Oh. Umm, right. I’m sorry for shoving you, Annabelle.”

She placed a hand on her hip and gave me a stern look. “Miss Annabelle.”

Wait, what? Ever since the first day, she had insisted that I just use her name. That I didn’t have to follow those rules that Trixie was bound to. My head was already spinning from being kissed and the potential realization of what that might mean, and this just added to my confusion. Was she punishing me, or was my physical rejection all it took for her to stop seeing me as a crush? 

“Look, can we just talk-”

“Apologize properly, Mere. NOW.”

“I-” I could feel the faint flush turn into a full on blush as Annabelle took such a demanding tone. Weak as ever when it came to confrontation, especially when I was already so flustered, I found myself mumbling, “I’m sorry for shoving you, Miss Annabelle.”

“Again, Mere,” she said. Taking a step forward, exaggerating the few inches of height she had on me, she glared down at me with her deep green eyes. “And look at me when you speak.”

“I was . . .” I muttered. Wasn’t I? Now that she said otherwise, I found myself questioning it. So, nervously swallowing, I looked up and reluctantly made direct eye contact with her. “I’m sorry for shoving you, Miss Annabelle.”

“Good girl.” With the smallest of nods, she reached over and took a few strands of my hair with her fingers. With an idle twirl or two, she continued the conversation while still fiddling with my long locks. “And your name is ‘Mere.’”

Not a question. “But-” I began, frozen from our newfound proximity and the affectionate yet dominant touch.

“No. Your name is Mere. And I’m ‘Miss Annabelle.’ Got it?”

What was happening?! Just seconds ago, I was trying to chastise her for springing a kiss on me. Now I was on my back foot, too caught off guard by everything that was being thrown at me. Rather than a mutual apology following an awkward moment, I was the one being punished for a perfectly reasonable reaction. Instead of trying to put those thoughts to words, however, I found myself meekly nodding. I didn’t know what else to do, and it’s not like I could push her away. That’s what got me into trouble the first time. Except, no. That was the kiss. “Wait-”

“Say it. What’s your name?”

“Mere-” I got halfway through, only to be cut off by a sharp yank of my hair as I tried to form the second syllable. Gasping, and then blushing at the unintended squeak that escaped my lips following the intake of air, I once again let my emotions get the better of me. “Ow! Annabelle!! Don’t-”

“Your name is Mere. Okay?”

“But-” A lighter tug at my hair was enough of a threat, and I submitted much more easily this time around. “Okay.” But that wasn’t enough, apparently, as a painfully long silence followed my acceptance of her nickname for me. Squirming a little bit under her gaze, and really wanting to get back to the friendly relationship we had just minutes ago, I said, “My name is Mere.”

“And?”

“And I’m sorry for shoving you, Miss Annabelle?”

“Is that a question?”

“No. I’m sorry for shoving you, Miss Annabelle . . .”

I had only stepped inside the house minutes ago, and was already in a situation way more daunting than my first day. Instead of tutoring a half naked Annabelle, I was letting a kiss with her snowball out of control. In the back of my mind, I knew that I could just pull away and flee to my car, but I couldn’t find it in myself to take the first step. I felt powerless against the young redhead looming over me. I was older, but she was taller, and more endowed, and more confident, and better dressed, and had an aura about her that somehow demanded obedience. 

All my plans to lay down the law had vanished, and I found myself waiting for Annabelle to make the next move instead of taking the initiative myself. 

“Mere, why don’t you go help Trixie with the chores?” she finally said, “It’s laundry day. You can tutor me afterwards, okay? The proper response is ‘Yes, Miss Annabelle.’

Swallowing again, and averting my gaze, I quietly replied the way she wanted me to.

“Yes, Miss Annabelle . . .”

Part Twenty

Trixie didn’t seem surprised in the slightest when I returned to the servant’s quarters.

I wasn’t sure if that was the technically correct term for the modern mansion’s back hallway, but it rolled off my mental tongue better than ‘back hallway.’ Since I had walked past the laundry room back there a few times at this point, it was simple enough to find my way there after Annabelle dismissed me with a vague gesture towards the way I came from. Unless there were other laundry machines somewhere else in the house, I figured this would be the spot. A place where maids like Trixie could work invisibly.

Annabelle was no longer in sight, and yet I still felt the need to do as she had firmly suggested. I had signed up to tutor her for free, so it’s not like there would be any harm in simply leaving and never looking back. Aside from Bridget getting the job in my place, of course, but how far was I really willing to go to prevent that? A little hazy about whether I was doing this to cling to my volunteer tutoring job or merely feeling compelled to do it because Annabelle said so, I turned right instead of left and joined Trixie in the laundry room.

“Here to help?” the young blonde asked. Her question was rhetorical, apparently, as she moved on without waiting for me to reply. “Start with that dryer. Mr. Alodia’s dress clothes go on the brown hangers. Fold the rest, and then I will inspect your work.”

“Umm,” I hesitated. Just now taking in the room for the first time, I felt overwhelmed right away. There were two of each machine, similar to my apartment building, but the rest of the room was more spacious and sophisticated. Drying racks lined an entire wall, and the whole perimeter of the room was set up with metal bars and a variety of classy looking hangers. High enough to hang up the clothes without getting in the way of the machines below; a nearby step stool answered my question about how to reach them.

“Now, Ms. Moore. On the double.”

Lightly blushing from how I was distracted by yet another room in Annabelle’s impressive house, I crossed the threshold and followed Trixie’s gesture to the machine in the corner.

The dress shirts were manageable enough, even though I hadn’t spent much time with mens’ clothes before. It was actually a bit refreshing to hang everything up in the exact same way, which wasn’t at all the case when it came to my outfit tops. One by one, I either folded or hung everything in the dryer. The only part of the job that felt awkward to me was handling the silk boxers. Less because of the material, and more because I was holding the underwear of someone I didn’t even know. The fact that the undergarments belonged to the opposite gender didn’t help, either. Still, I worked quietly and without complaint, not wanting Trixie to judge me or berate me like she did when I helped her in the kitchen the other day.

When the task was done, Trixie paused what she was doing and took a minute to make sure my work was up to her standards. I was relieved when her biggest complaint was that a number of the items on the hangers were askew, but that would be pointless to fix before we took them upstairs. With the machine now free, I stepped aside to let her transfer everything from one of the washers over. I offered to help, but she said she knew both the clothes and the machines better than me. Which was valid.

I had falsely presumed that something like laundry would be quick and painless, especially with two people working together. After all, my experience with this chore was mostly ‘start washer, transfer to dryer, fold.’ The first two steps took no time at all; it was only the last step that was tedious and time consuming. Since I had just folded a bunch of clothes, my hope was that I could return to Annabelle and start our evening’s tutoring session. Instead, Trixie took me on a laundry journey that was a lot more involved than I had initially expected.

For starters, this was more than just my personal laundry. We were doing this for three different people, and my next task informed me that it wouldn’t be as simple as using the machines. While Trixie took as much as she could carry of Mr. Alodia’s clothes, I was to get started on hand washing everything in the basket next to the sink. Following her instructions for water temperature and cleaning methods, I got to work in the solitude of the laundry room.

Rather than returning empty handed, Trixie had returned with an armful of used sheets from what I assumed was Mr. and Mrs. Alodia’s room. I hadn’t seen Annabelle’s bed, of course, but it made sense that Trixie would do all the work of one room before moving onto the next. Washing bedding was the least of my concerns, as my newest train of thought made me realize something a lot more daunting–nothing in the laundry room belonged to Annabelle, unless I was grossly mistaken about her fashion sense compared to her mother’s. Would that be part of the job, too?

This wasn’t like our first session, on a Saturday. This was Wednesday evening, which meant I only had so much time before I head to head home and prepare for tomorrow’s classes.

I decided not to bring it up. Though Trixie looked to be around my age, and nothing like the cliché gray haired maids I’d seen in the movies, she had proved to be pretty thorough and diligent. At least, that was the sense I got from the brief time I had known her so far. There was a good chance Annabelle’s clothes and bedding would already be on her mind, but I didn’t want to be like the student reminding a teacher that she hadn’t collected the homework yet.

Trixie and I worked together quietly for the most part, save for when she corrected the way I draped an article of clothing or two over one of the drying racks. Hand washing took forever, so I was left to attend to that while she folded a new round of clothes and made another transfer. With wet, soapy hands and no clock on the wall, I had to rely on my natural sense of time to make a stab at how long it had been since I entered the laundry room. Twenty minutes? Thirty? Although my experience with Trixie in the kitchen proved that time could fly when you were focused on the task at hand.

Maybe I could take a ‘bathroom break’ to check my phone? No, the best way to get this done in the least amount of time possible was to stick with it.

By the time I finished hand washing every single item in the basket, I found a towel and turned towards Trixie and the rest of the room. Letting out an internal sigh of relief when I saw that nothing else was staged to go in one of the washers, I asked, “Do you think you can handle the rest, Trixie? I’m sure Annabelle is ready to get started by now.”

“Hmm. Why don’t you go ask her yourself, Ms. Moore? If she has anything that needs to be washed, you’ll bring it down. Otherwise, yes. I can do the rest myself.”

After thanking her, belatedly realizing that she should have been thanking me for the help instead, I went to find Annabelle. What if I just didn’t ask? Maybe if I could get back into tutor mode, I could find enough authority as the older girl to officially start our session. Even if she had dirty clothes, that was literally Trixie’s job. Not mine. Right? Or was there still a chance I’d get paid for chores, even if I volunteered my mathematics knowledge for free?

There were just too many thoughts swirling around my mind as I made my way up to Annabelle’s room. I couldn’t pin a single one down by the time I arrived at the slightly ajar door to her suite. Lightly knocking twice, I was greeted by “Come, Mere” almost immediately.

How did she know it was me? My footsteps, or my knocking pattern? Would Trixie have texted ahead, to keep her bosses’ daughter informed? Also, not even ‘come in?’ Her version sounded more like how you’d call to a dog, though it was too quiet and casual for me to jump to any kind of actual conclusion about the words.

Again, too many thoughts to process.

I pushed the door open and took a step inside. Relief washed through me when I saw that Annabelle was fully clothed, unlike last time. Before I could greet her in response, she gave me a soft smile and patted the spot next to her on the sofa.

“Over here,” she said, “We need to talk.”

Part 21

Never a fun phrase to hear.

It also threw me off my game. While I might not have figured out a good way to start one of the several conversations I wanted to have with the girl, I at least had a short list of what they were. That I was here to tutor, not do chores. Or, if I did chores, I expected to be compensated for my time like the first day. And, of course, the fact that Annabelle fucking kissed me. She had cut things off so abruptly after my apology, leaving me thoroughly frustrated and confused about the whole thing.

Objectively, it was a good kiss. Sudden, and passionate, and nothing at all like the couple of girl kisses I’d had before. But that wasn’t the point. There were all the reasons why something like that was wrong, even if she was the one who initiated, and now I was stuck in the awkward position where I’d have to let her down gently if she did indeed have a crush on me. Not only did I have no idea how I felt about girls in that sense, but this was also supposed to be a professional relationship; it wasn’t the time to explore, especially not with an eighteen year old.

Sitting down right next to the bold redhead didn’t seem like a good idea, but I felt compelled to do so anyway. It was the spot she gestured to, and choosing to stand or sit somewhere else could potentially come across as shy or weak. Whatever this talk was going to end up being, I needed to show Annabelle that I wasn’t afraid. I was the older girl, and I was her tutor. So, taking a quiet breath and leaving the door cracked in an effort to keep things slightly more publicly and hopefully innocent, I crossed the room and took a seat. Next to her, but not too close.

Getting right to it, Annabelle turned towards me and met my eyes. “So, Mere. You’ve kissed a girl before, right?”

“Umm. What-” I hesitated. Instantly blushing, I at least managed to keep from averting my gaze. “I, umm- it’s getting late, Annabelle. We should really get started on that problem set I sent you.”

“It’s ‘Miss Annabelle,’ remember?”

“Right. Miss Annabelle . . .”

It felt so weird addressing a younger girl in such a way. Also, she had been so dismissive about formalities on our first day together. What changed her mind?

“Good girl,” she said, “And it’s fine; you can tutor me in a few minutes. But let’s talk first, okay? Besides, it’s a simple ‘yes’ or ‘no’ question. Have you ever kissed a girl?”

I went quiet for a few long seconds, before giving in a mumbling, “Yes . . .”

“Oh, cool! So, I’m not your first. Then you’re bi? Or a lesbian, maybe? It’s fine; I won’t judge either way.”

“No! No. It’s not like that, Annabelle. I just-”

“Miss Annabelle.”

“Right, sorry. Miss Annabelle. Look, can we just move on? This isn’t really appropriate, and we shouldn’t-” I cut myself off, realizing that shutting down the whole conversation wasn’t the best idea. Maybe. I still needed to figure out how Annabelle felt, which meant shifting the focus onto her. The girl who strutted around in just her lingerie the last time I was here, and kissed me this time.

Was I just super blind? That was part of my confusion earlier. The red haired girl who was so casually conversing with me right now was impossible to read. If she had a crush, it certainly didn’t make her nervous around me. I wish I could have said the same about myself, but I pretty much always felt like I was on my back foot around the girl. She didn’t seem to take anything seriously and I, well, was pretty much the opposite of that.

Going on my version of the offensive, which ended up being a not so smooth transition, I just blurted out, “Are you into girls?”

“Exclusively,” Annabelle replied, with a smile and a shrug. “Boys are stupid.”

The follow-up comment was the most ‘high school’ she had ever sounded, but the actual answer was more pressing. Okay, girls. If she was that easy going about her sexuality, I could only imagine what she might say if I asked how she felt about me. Maybe I didn’t have to ask. “Miss Annabelle,” I began, remembering the title yet still internally cringing about using it, “I’m your tutor. I don’t know if I’ve accidentally led you on or something, but-”

“You haven’t, Mere,” she said. Not only interrupting me with her voice, but also by slightly scooting forward and placing her hand on my thigh, “I just wanted to kiss you. It’s as simple as that. Although we should really try again. How about more than a peck this time?”

But- but why?! Why did she want to, and how clueless was she when it came to my perspective?

Taking a deep breath, I took her hand off my leg and adjusted on the sofa to put us back at the respectable distance we had before. “Annabelle. Miss Annabelle,” I said, immediately correcting myself, “I’m trying to say that I only want to be your tutor. Nothing more. This should be a professional relationship, and I’m not going to keep coming back if I’m worried about you doing stuff like this. Personal space is important, as are clothes, and I really do prefer ‘Meredith,’ and . . .” I trailed off, belatedly noticing that I was rambling a bit with all the things that had been floating around my mind in a disorganized mess until they all came spilling out at once. Sighing, I met the girl’s eyes again and iterated the first point I was trying to make. “I don’t want to kiss you, Annabelle. Sorry.”

A long silence lingered after I wrapped up my not particularly coherent string of thoughts. Annabelle slightly cocked her head and kept her eyes trained on mine, almost as if she was studying me. Maybe she was just trying to figure out how to respond. I was finding that eye contact came a lot more naturally to her, as I was the one who was constantly tempted to glance away under her gaze.

Finally, after what felt like an eternity, she said, “But you did kiss me, Mere. Or at least, you kissed me back. Didn’t you?”

“Yes, but-” I started, too flustered by my previous attempt to explain things to prevent myself from answering a new yes/no question that wasn’t so black and white. Continuing with another less than eloquent explanation, I said, “That’s just, like, what I’m used to doing. I mean, that’s how I’ve always-” I really didn’t want to say the word itself, although even the thought of it brought back the memory of Annabelle earlier and all the subsequent guilt and confusion. “That’s what you do,” I mumbled, lamely concluding my reply without using the word ‘kiss’ along the way.

“That’s a little slutty,” Annabelle replied, without missing a beat.

“What? Annabelle! I-”

“‘Miss Annabelle.’ And relax, Mere. I’m kidding. If anything, I think it’s brave that you kissed me back. Kind of hot, too.”

I had never been disarmed so quickly. There were a lot of adjectives that sprang to mind about myself if someone were to ask, but ‘brave’ certainly wasn’t one of them. It’s not that I considered myself the opposite, but my academic lifestyle didn’t exactly lend itself to taking risks. Even standing up for myself had always been a mental hurdle. And yet, this eighteen year old girl who practically radiated confidence suggested that I was brave. More importantly, there was the way she said it. I don’t know why it had such an immediate effect on me, but it did. The follow-up compliment was flattering, too, but it barely registered in comparison to the former.

“I, umm- brave?” I quietly asked. Almost as if I needed confirmation of what she said. Because to me, what I did was a reflex and nothing more. Clearly Annabelle felt differently, which was more fascinating than some of her other unique viewpoints.

“That’s right.” Annabelle pursed her lips in a small smile. She scooted forward again, ever so slightly, and kept her deep green eyes trained on mine. “You’re brave, Meredith. Or maybe I’m wrong. Are you shy? Scared?”

“N-no.” Trying and failing to speak clearly, as it was enough of a battle just to keep eye contact with her. “Of course not.” I hadn’t even realized the use of my full name, and how it served as yet another way to subtly capture my attention.

“Then prove it. Show me that you’re a brave girl. You can do that, can’t you?”

Completely lost for words, I simply nodded my head.

“Good girl.” Annabelle reached forward and tucked a few strands of hair behind my ear, then quietly said, “Kiss me?”

Part 22

What were we doing?!

My mind was racing, yet was still completely unable to keep up. Similar to the way I had momentarily kissed Annabelle back out of reflex, I found myself naturally leaning in due to the way she had set things up. We were sitting so closely together, her voice was quiet and subtly intimate, and I was always a sucker when it came to my hair. The moment her fingertips brushed the side of my head for the little tuck, I immediately lost whatever words were at the tip of my tongue.

“Umm . . .” I muttered. All of a sudden, I felt more like my teenage self stumbling through her first kiss. Glancing down at the girl’s lips for a moment and the way they were still slightly pursed in a sultry smile, I quickly course corrected and looked back up while blushing a bit. Meeting her eyes was almost worse. She looked so calm and confident; patient, too. Between us, I was the older one, but it certainly didn’t feel that way at the moment.

After a few seconds of stillness, she ever so slightly cocked her head to the side. “Oh. Can you not handle it?”

There was just something about her. It was the same unplaceable feeling I got when we first met. The need to impress her, or at least the impulse to avoid her judgment. So, with a question like that, I didn’t pause to think before reply. “No. I mean, I can.” Trying my hardest to will away the blush that I could feel worsening, I concluded with the whole thing. “I can handle it.”

It was only after I said the words that I grasped what they were referring to. Kissing her. Kissing Annabelle. Instead of jumping off the sofa and giving a big speech about professionalism and boundaries, I had squandered the ‘out’ she just gave me by affirming my commitment. Technically, I could still take my answer back, but something about saying it out loud made it feel more binding. More real. Apparently I needed to kiss another girl to be brave, and now I had more firmly agreed.

“Then prove it, Mere.”

My heart was practically pounding out of my chest as I felt her warm breath tickle my lips. I didn’t flinch in the slightest at the nickname; there were more important things to focus on. Like the fact that I was about to initiate a kiss with a high schooler. Sure, she was eighteen, but she also hadn’t graduated yet. It was one thing for her to kiss me, because she was being all young and impulsive. But for me to lead? That was different, even if she verbally started it.

Wrong. Inappropriate. Taboo.

And yet, I was leaning in. Eyes fluttering closed as I tilted my head and allowed Annabelle to gently guide me into place with the hand that had stayed nearby after brushing my hair back, my lips brushed against hers. For what felt like an eternity, we stayed just like that. Dangerously close to crossing a line, all while our breaths mingled and the suspension increased. The longer we remained poised for more of a real kiss than the one that was sprung on me earlier, the more I almost wanted to go for it. All the hang-ups were still there, but they were more and more muted as I focused on all the sensations I could feel with closed eyes.

Annabelle was content to wait as long as it took, apparently. While she made a point to reciprocate what little I had given her by brushing and nudging her lips against mine, the girl hadn’t made any effort to push forward for something more.

Finally, I mustered the courage to kiss her. I certainly didn’t have the strength to break things off after the longest tease and build-up I had ever had before something as simple as a kiss. And if I didn’t do something soon, my nerves were going to make me freeze up indefinitely as my mind remained at war with itself. Ultimately letting my body make the decision, and doing the thing that it was telling me to do, I brushed my lips against Annabelle’s own one more time, and then leaned the rest of the way in to press mine against hers.

Like the few other girls I had kissed before, albeit dared and/or drunkenly compared to this fully sober moment, there was a softness to Annabelle’s lips that contrasted that of guys I had been with before. A unique patience, too. Not just from the way she had been waiting for me to make the first move, but also in that she didn’t immediately push for more like I had experienced with the opposite gender more often than not. Her lips parted just enough so mine could gently lock with hers; what would normally feel like a peck ended up feeling like more as we let the light pressure linger for quite some time.

It was officially a new kind of kiss for me, one that I had never experienced before. Which, of course, only sparked my subconscious curiosity and made me want to stay. Shifting to her upper lip, I kissed her just as delicately as before. Once again, we fit together effortlessly and stayed intimately connected for a few long seconds with just the right amount of teasing pressure. I was about to pull back, in both awe and fear that kissing Annabelle felt a lot better than I expected; I needed to get some distance, before this turned into something more.

But then she began playing with my hair. Just a few fingers, idly twirling whatever strands she managed to find. In an instant, I found myself melting from the combination of her inviting lips and the weakness of mine. Fuck. How did we get here?! The rational Meredith was still somewhere, trying to voice all the reasons why we should abort, but the flustered and tempted me couldn’t think as clearly. I met Annabelle’s lips for a third time, sinking mine more fully into hers before I could stop myself. Why did it feel so good?

Finally, Annabelle took some initiative. Leaning in and more assertively locking her lips with mine, she gave a small nibble to my lower lip. And, with a simple flick of her tongue, she managed to bait mine out as I readied myself for a deeper kiss. But it never came. The moment I tried to lunge forward and turn a few intimate kisses into a full-blown make-out session, I found myself chasing her lips to no avail. Every time I inched forward, I could only barely brush mine against hers. It happened several times in a row, leaving me frustrated and more desperate for what I suddenly couldn’t have.

“You-” I began, at a loss for words as I whispered the start of an accusation. Tease, perhaps? It was a tease, but I slightly came back to reality from the spark of emotion brought on by fruitlessly trying to deepen our kiss. My eyes flickered open, and a knot immediately formed in my stomach when I saw the smirk and the amused emerald eyes waiting for me.

I had just kissed Annabelle. And, for a moment, I had wanted to do more.

“Mere,” she quietly said, “Don’t worry. No one has to know.”

That I kissed a girl her age. I could only imagine it would do to my reputation, and potentially to my career. The Alodia family was wealthy and influential! Part of the reason I had accepted this job was for the potential doors it could open, but now I could see the opposite happening. I would be the horny university girl who made an advance on their ‘innocent’ daughter; there was no doubt in my mind that Annabelle would spin it like that if she were the one telling the story.

Of course, that was my mind getting carried away with projections. Annabelle literally just said that she wouldn’t tell. “Thank you,” I awkwardly replied. Worried that she might take it as thanks for kissing me, I abruptly pulled back. “Can we just pretend this never happened?”

Though we were no longer in kissing range, the young redhead still held the ends of my hair. Her fingertips had slid down when I pulled away, naturally landing where they were when I stopped. “Never happened?” she echoed. Going back to the idle twirling, Annabelle never took her eyes off mine. “You don’t want to kiss me ever again?”

Well . . . That wasn’t exactly true. The look on my face must have said everything; I wasn’t capable of lying to her or to myself. Not when I was still coming down from the confusing physical connection we just had.

“How about this, Mere?” she said. With a playful tug on my hair, she slightly leaned forward. “I have a fun idea.”

Part 23

I don’t know what was wrong with me.

The moment Annabelle shifted forward, I found myself leaning in and closing my eyes. My lips slightly parted for a kiss that never came. This time, I didn’t get so much as a teasing brush, and I reluctantly opened my eyes again to find the red haired girl with that same knowing smirk on her face.

“So you do want to kiss me,” she said. There was a confidence to her tone, with not so subtle subtext of ‘I told you so’ underneath. But it also wasn’t cocky or arrogant. It’s yet another reason why the girl was so difficult to deal with; she pivoted between emotions so effortlessly, and I could never quite get a read on her.

“Umm . . .” I must have been blushing furiously. Caught in the act with no good excuse for what I just did out of reflex and perhaps a bit of confusing desire, I pulled away and averted my gaze. There was going to be no graceful way to answer her question, so I tried to deflect. “What’s your fun idea?”

“Oh, right!” Annabelle exclaimed. A flicker of energy, as if she was remembering something exciting even though it had only been seconds since she brought it up. Somewhere, the mature Meredith within me was suspicious of how well versed this girl must be in social manipulation. Years of growing up wealthy and learning how to act around equally well off peers could do that to a person. Even if that were the case, it was working on me anyway. I could barely keep up, especially now that a bit of physicality was blurring things. “Okay, remind me. You’re a brave girl, yes?”

The same little phrase from a few minutes ago. Speaking of manipulation . . . It was such a verbal trap, but what else could I say? Not wanting to deflect twice in a row, I just nodded. “Yes. Of course I am.”

“Of course you are, Mere,” she smiled. Speaking a little more softly this time, Annabelle took a moment to brush her hair back. The motion immediately drew my attention back to her face, as well as her unfairly pretty locks. “Now, do you still just want to be my tutor? Nothing more?”

That is what I wanted. Boundaries. Nodding again, I found a bit more of my voice. “Yes,” I said. She was giving me a chance to speak my mind, and even showing that she listened earlier before jumping into the conversation about kissing. “We should keep this professional.” I couldn’t help but mentally linger on the word ‘should.’ Part of me was still curious, despite yet another ‘out’ Annabelle was giving me.

Rather than answering right away, she just gazed at me for a few seconds. “Okay,” she finally said, right when I was starting to internally squirm from the lingering silence, “But it’s pretty obvious that you like me. So we need to make sure you can handle a temptation or two. Otherwise, how do I know you don’t want something more?”

Wait, what? She was the one who kissed me. And now she’s claiming that I was the problem? Granted, my recent actions probably spoke louder than my intentions, but still. Annabelle started this! Narrowing my eyes, I finally saw a glimpse of her real age. Teenage girls were notorious for twisting the facts to their advantage. Turning a half-hearted agreement into a ‘promise,’ or saying that a confusing kiss meant a lot more than it actually did. Adults were perfectly capable of doing the same, of course, but this was more of the teenage variety–doing it right in front of my face, when we both knew how things actually happened. Maybe that’s why Annabelle was so confusing; eighteen years old put her right on that line between ‘teenager’ and ‘adult,’ and her proper upbringing added to the juxtaposition of immature/mature.

Lost for words, something that was becoming more and more of a habit for me at the Alodia house, I started with, “Annabelle-”

“Mere.” Cutting me off not only with her voice, but also with a finger suddenly pressed to my lips, Annabelle looked deep into my eyes with her piercing emeralds. “Are you a brave girl? Nod for me.”

Fuck. If she had pulled something like that on the day we met, I probably would have slapped her hand away and jumped off the sofa. Instead, all I could do was meekly nod my head. I was brave. And yet, she kept asking whether or not it was true.

“Good girl,” she smiled. Tapping my lips twice with her index finger, Annabelle took her hand away as easily as it had arrived, “Now, here’s my fun idea. You seem so stressed out, and I want to thank you for the free tutoring. So, turn around; I’m going to give you a massage. How does that sound?”

“A- a massage?” I asked. That was the opposite of appropriate, at least in terms of the personal space I was trying to lecture about earlier. As expected, her definition of ‘fun’ didn’t exactly line up with mine.

“Mm hmm. Here’s the deal, Mere. If you can sit still and behave the whole time, then I’ll know that we can go back to just being student and tutor. But if your little crush is going to make something as simple as a massage be a problem, then maybe this isn’t the right fit. The good news is, we always have Bridget if-”

“NO.” The loud word slipped out of my mouth before I could stop it. Annabelle looked a little taken aback by the abrupt shift in volume; I honestly surprised myself a bit with the piercing objection, too, and I scrambled to course-correct. “No,” I echoed, lowering my voice to a more normal level, “Look, you really don’t want Bridget as a tutor. She’s good at this stuff on her own, but she doesn’t know how to explain it to others.” Not a total lie, but it was more that Bridget was full of herself back when we knew each other and would never even try to teach things to others. Mostly it just felt better to say than ‘I don’t want her scoring a high paying job and rubbing it in my face.’

“Hmm, good to know,” Annabelle mused, “But if you can’t be professional, Mere . . .”

“I can be professional! I mean, I am professional.”

“Then show me. Turn around and prove that you won’t freak out when your girl crush touches you.”

For a second, I froze. I so desperately wanted to snap that I wasn’t crushing on Annabelle, or that I wasn’t the type of girl to freak out. Now that Bridget was on my mind, however, I felt a lot more compelled to do whatever it took to stay in Annabelle’s good graces. Besides, she was right. Objectively, there wasn’t a reason that receiving a massage should be an issue, but it wasn’t as simple as she made it out to be. Now that we had kissed on two separate occasions, wouldn’t something like this be low key more intimate than if it was with someone else? Except now that Annabelle had turned this around on me, that was kind of the point. I had to prove that it wasn’t. That it didn’t mean anything.

Resisting the urge to take a breath of courage like I’d normally do before something daunting, I just muttered, “Okay.” Before I could overthink it and/or talk myself out of the agreement, I turned myself away from the young redhead as best as I was able while still sitting up.

Of course, she had something to say about that. “Why don’t you sit cross-legged, Mere?” she suggested, “Put your feet up and get comfortable. This is supposed to be relaxing, isn’t it?”

Not seeing the merit in protesting over that, aside from the fact that it felt a little weird as a guest to be making myself at home in such a way, I did as I was told. Settling my legs in the new position, I faced fully away from Annabelle and braced myself for her hands. I don’t know why I was so nervous. It’s not like it was my first massage; then again, it was different when it was a good friend vs. a girl I barely knew.

Rather than landing on my shoulders like I expected, however, I felt her hands softly grip my midriff.

Twitching ever so slightly before realizing she wasn’t tickling me like what immature peers used to do in that spot, I glanced over my shoulder to the best of my ability. “Umm, what are you doing?”

“Hush, Mere,” she said, “And hold still. We need to take off your shirt first, okay?”

Part 24

My shirt?

I immediately tensed up. “Annabelle-” Pausing right away, I could already hear her answer to my reservations in my head. According to her, ‘clothes are a construct.’ If she didn’t mind hanging out in just a bra the other day, then her immature self wouldn’t see a problem with me doing the same. Plus, any objection held the risk of proving her point about me having a crush on her.

Deep down, the studious girl within was telling me that it was a lose/lose situation. Letting her strip me was inappropriate, but refusing made it seem like I was indeed freaking out about something as simple as a massage. Between the two options, however, going along with it felt like the better choice. That was how we were going to get back to tutor/student, right?

Right.

Diverting from my initial train of thought, I let out that nervous breath I had kept myself from showing less than a minute ago. “Umm, make sure you fold it,” I said. As if that was my biggest concern right now. It doubled as implied permission, as the only way the bold redhead could fold my nice shirt was if it was removed from my body first.

“Of course,” Annabelle said from behind me. Fiddling with the hem of my top, her fingertips brushed against my bare skin just underneath, “Arms up, Mere.”

She was so uniquely confident. Nothing the girl ever said was a question, yet there was a casualness to all of her little demands. I was going to keep telling myself it was a rich girl thing, rather than an Annabelle thing. Not having anything good to say in response, I simply swallowed and then did as she said.

A moment later, her hands slipped underneath my top and gently pulled me back by my bare midriff. At the same time, I felt her chest brushing my back and her lips against my ear. “Good girl,” she whispered. And, like it was nothing, she reset our bodies and pulled my top all the way up without dragging out the process at all.

Despite the warmth of the room, I felt a slight chill as my stomach and then chest were bared. A second later, my shirt was gliding up my arms and removed completely. I blushed furiously. It wasn’t the first time she had nonchalantly used the patronizing phrase, but it had never felt so intimately possessive before. The sight of my embarrassingly plain bra added a whole new mess of emotions, considering how nice all of Annabelle’s clothes and undergarments were. At least, the ones I had seen her in. If I had known something like this was going to happen, I would have worn something classier underneath.

Not, like, for that reason. I just felt self-conscious enough about my size, confidence, and social class compared to her, and this was a much more personal thing that I felt like I was going to be silently judged for. Was it too late to grab my top and flee to the bathroom? Annabelle hadn’t seen my boring bra cups yet; she only had a view of the straps and band at the moment.

Annabelle’s hands on my mostly bare shoulders confirmed that it was too late. Her grip was light and gentle, yet I still felt instantly weighed down by her touch. This was what I had committed myself to. A massage from the eighteen year old girl that I was supposed to be tutoring. At some level, maybe she was right. I was SUPER tense, though it was difficult to tell how much of that was from my academic stresses and how much was from the last few minutes.

Whatever lingering thoughts about calling this whole thing off faded when Annabelle squeezed my shoulders. Fuck. When was the last time I had a massage? Most of my university friends weren’t the touchy-feely type, myself included. The first bit of pressure from the girl’s thumbs was enough to instantly make me crave more. It didn’t change the fact that I had a few reservations about being topless and having the girl’s hands on me, but those were put on hold for a moment as I let her fingers gently knead my shoulders.

It was just a massage. Nothing more.

“Is this okay, Mere?” she quietly asked.

While it was going against the ‘never asks questions’ observation of mine, I had a feeling she knew the answer already. “Mm hmm,” I nodded. Okay, maybe I was telling a few white lies with that affirmation. But I was focusing on the way her hands were working my shoulders, and that by itself was more than okay.

Her hands were distinctly feminine as I felt them applying pressure to my bare skin, yet she was more than capable of going deep enough to make me melt from the relaxation. Some girls didn’t have the best grip strength, which led to pretty weak shoulder massages. Not Annabelle. She found that perfect middle ground, where her hands felt good without getting too aggressive like others did when they found knots.

It could have been five seconds or five minutes of silence; I had no idea. At some point, she shifted to rub the sweet spot between my neck and shoulders, and I forgot all about why perhaps this wasn’t the most appropriate idea. “Close your eyes, Mere,” she murmured.

Not the most difficult task. My head was already naturally lowering itself from the latest sensation, and my eyelids had drooped a little bit as well. It didn’t take much to let them flutter closed completely. I didn’t consider the fact that Annabelle couldn’t see my face, so I blushed a little when she asked for confirmation a moment later. Right. I guess I should have told her. “They’re closed . . .” I said.

“Good girl.”

And that was that. Without Annabelle’s impressive personal suite to idly check out while facing away from her, all I could focus on was her hands. She gave a lot of attention to my neck before finally shifting back to my shoulders. Aside from quietly humming every now and then when I really appreciated a gesture, I just let her work. Clearly she knew what she was doing, and I was happy to get lost in the experience for a time.

I didn’t notice right away, but eventually felt a trace of warm breath on the back of my neck. “Mere?” Annabelle whispered.

“Hmm?” It’s about all I could manage while under her spell.

“I’m going to unclasp your bra,” she quietly said, “You don’t have to take it off or anything. The straps are just getting in my way. Okay?”

I just nodded. “Mm hmm.” She had already pressed and pulled on the bra straps a few times, so I was well aware that they were a hindrance to what could be a better massage. Wanting more of what I had already been given, and trusting her point that her hands fully on my shoulders would make the experience easier for her and better for me, I consented right away.

“Good girl, Mere.” Using the straps themselves as guides, Annabelle traced down my upper back with paralleled fingertips until she arrived at the band. “Hold still.” Her lips had found their way to my ear again for the latest whispered directive, but I didn’t twitch in the slightest this time around. I was supposed to hold still.

After a small dose of suspense, Annabelle loosened my bra.

Part 25

The relaxing haze of the massage slightly dissipated when I lost the support of my bra. I hadn’t thought twice about murmuring my agreement to it, but the reality was a little more sobering than the verbal suggestion. “Umm, Annabelle?” I hesitantly asked. My hands slowly came up to hold the bra cups in place on my chest; my eyes remained closed. Somehow, that felt easier.

Rather than responding right away, Annabelle slipped her hands underneath the straps and gave my shoulders a much deeper squeeze than before. “Yes, Mere?”

I melted so quickly. After the way she had paused to deal with my embarrassingly plain undergarment, the absence of the massage made it feel all the better when she resumed. That, and clearly it helped that my straps were no longer part of the equation. A small hum of satisfaction escaped my lips before I could hold it back. Like the few before it, I felt a little self conscious about the sound. It’s not like shoulders were a particularly sexy part of the body, but the intimacy of being topless and having someone else’s hands on me might give the redhead the wrong idea.

Wasn’t that the point of this? To show her that I wouldn’t have a problem with something as innocent as a massage? That I didn’t have a crush on her, that I was brave, that I was a professional. The conversation from before was getting more and more blurry; but apparently, the answer to everything was to take my shirt off and undo my bra a few minutes later. In the back of my mind, I knew that my current state of undress was counterintuitive to a few of those concepts, but it was difficult to pay attention to that logic when my body was saying that it wanted the massage to keep going.

Just a little longer. That was fine, wasn’t it? Besides, Annabelle was right. I was stressed, and this was helping.

“Nothing . . .” I muttered.

“You’re pretty when you behave,” she said, “You do want to be pretty, don’t you?”

“Mm hmm,” I nodded. Under normal circumstances, I would have been taken aback by such a casually demeaning statement. But I was back under the relaxing spell, and my weak attention mostly focused on the question that immediately followed. Of course I wanted to be pretty, especially when being around Annabelle constantly made me feel self conscious about, well, everything.

She shifted her hands, using her fingertips to give a little more love to that sweet spot between my shoulders and my neck. “Don’t you want to be pretty, Mere?”

My brows slightly furrowed the second time. “Umm-”

“Be brave for me, okay?”

“I am brave!”

Once again, she didn’t reply right away. Digging into that sweet spot, followed by a few amazing rubs higher up my neck, slightly behind and below my ears, things went quiet for a good minute or two as I got more and more lost in the sensations that were causing me to slightly slouch in contentment. It went against everything I normally cared about in terms of posture, but I couldn’t help myself.

“Mere.” Annabelle gradually worked back down to my shoulders before finally leaning forward and whispering the nickname in my ear. “Do you want to be pretty?”

My head was already hanging pretty low, but I had just enough space to give a tiny nod of affirmation.

“Pretty girls know how to behave.”

“Mm hmm.”

“Can you say it, Mere?” She punctuated the question with a deep shoulder squeeze.

It was all I could manage to awkwardly mumble out an echo. “Pretty girls . . . b-behave.” I could barely speak. It was like one of those half-asleep moments; I was still lucid to a degree, but holding onto any thoughts aside from the most present one was next to impossible. I just knew that I never wanted this massage to end, and Annabelle’s guiding voice was the only thing around to listen to with my eyes closed and my defenses down.

“That’s right, Mere,” she cooed, “Pretty girls behave. From now on, you’re going to behave for me.”

I just quietly hummed in response.

“Say it?”

“I’ll behave . . .”

“Do you promise, Mere?”

Despite how under I was, that one little word gave me pause. ‘Promise.’ It’s not that it was the end of the world if I broke one, but still. I considered myself a girl who stuck to her word. “Annabelle-” The name was just as slurred as my previous few responses. Diction was difficult when I was half gone and my lips didn’t feel like moving very much.

For my troubles, I got shushed. The patronizing sound was noticeably loud next to my ear; I knew her voice had been close, but hadn’t realized just how intimately she had poised herself. “Promise me, Mere. Will you behave from now on?” I felt her hair tickle my bare back for a moment, and then she kissed my neck out of nowhere.

Quietly gasping, I squirmed a little bit under her hands. Mentally, it was the strangest contrast. Part of me was still very much melted from the ongoing massage session, but I also was conscious enough to know that Annabelle shouldn’t be kissing me. Especially not there, which was admittedly one of my weak spots in the bedroom. Instead of voicing my concerns, however, I just blurted out, “I’ll behave!” Somehow, that made sense to my flustered self. Behaving meant I would keep getting what my body wanted. But being difficult meant inappropriate kisses.

“Promise?” Annabelle asked. She brushed her lips against my neck again.

“Yes,” I replied, right away, “I promise I’ll behave.”

“Like a good girl? Like an obedient little pet?” She kissed my neck again, this time rounding it out with a light nibble with her teeth.

“Yes!” I hurriedly said. This needed to stop, before my already vulnerable body decided that it liked what I already insisted to Annabelle that I didn’t. “Just- Massage? Please?”

“Good girl. You’ll make the prettiest pet, Mere.”

Annabelle’s hands left my shoulders, as did their warmth that I had grown accustomed to. So far, she had made a habit of keeping herself connected to me at any given moment as she worked her way up and down my shoulders, so it was jarring to suddenly not have her touching me at all. I could feel her shifting on the sofa behind me, but she returned to my neck soon enough that I didn’t open my eyes or start to feel nervous that my hands were still loosely holding my bra onto my otherwise bare chest.

The fingertips brushing against my skin were a relief at first. That is, until I felt what they were doing. Rather than returning to the massage I was low key still craving, she began putting something on me. I could feel the material sliding against my neck, but that was nothing to the way it was suddenly cinched all the way around. “Annabelle- What?” I started to ask.

Before I could get more than that out, I heard a light click of metal. “There,” Annabelle said, “Perfect for my new pet.” She and I were positioned so closely to each other, so it was easy to feel when she got up from the sofa entirely. “Open your eyes, Mere. Don’t you want to see your gift?”

Without the massage to keep me under, I could feel the blush from before starting to form. I was- I was shirtless! And, my chest . . . “Annabelle!” I exclaimed. Eyes snapping open and hands clamping more firmly to my breasts to make sure nothing could be seen from above now that she was standing and I was sitting, I remained frozen in shock as I gazed up at the redhead. What on earth compelled me to take my shirt off for a shoulder massage?! Whatever logic had worked before wasn’t making any sense in retrospect. I couldn’t even grab the garment and run for the bathroom, since both my hands were holding my bra cups and removing one too quickly would risk flashing the eighteen year old before me.

“Inside voice, Mere,” she calmly replied. Lips pursed in that familiar small smile, Annabelle said, “You promised you would behave.”

“It’s- It’s Meredith!” I exclaimed, finally correcting her. As if that was the most important thing to deal with at the moment.

“Hush, Mere. Why don’t you go to the bathroom and give yourself a look?”

The refusal to take my full name seriously might normally result in more resistance, but how many times had I already let her get away with the nickname? Also, retreating to the privacy of the bathroom wasn’t the worst idea. Less because of her reasoning, and more because it would let me re-clasp my bra without a teenage audience.

“Okay . . .”

Still clutching the bra to my chest, I got up and scurried across the room and entered Annabelle’s private bathroom for the first time. Not even bothering to find the lightswitch, I made short work of closing the door behind me. Only then did I figure out how to turn on the lights, although the temporary darkness was easily better than what was waiting for me in the well-lit mirror:

I was wearing a COLLAR.

Part 26

I stared at my reflection in pure shock.

The undone bra I was still clutching to my chest was suddenly a secondary concern as I took in the slim black accessory. It starkly contrasted the bare skin surrounding it, and was the obvious source of the noticeable tightness I felt around my neck.

Annabelle had put a collar on me?! The girl had been bold in a lot of ways since we first met, but this was crossing a line. Narrowing my eyes, my expression softened almost immediately when I realized I wasn’t exactly in the best state to give the eighteen year old a piece of my mind. Taking a moment to clasp my bra and properly adjust it on my chest, I reached up to deal with the collar next.

Not such an easy task, apparently. At first, I thought it was just the fact that I was familiar with bras and unfamiliar with something like this. But the more I pulled and fiddled with the strap at the back, the more I figured out it might not be that simple. The tiny ring sitting on the front was clearly not part of the attachment process; while the somewhat slutty accessory was clearly meant for a human, there were enough similarities in its design to tell that the metal ring was meant to parallel the section designed for a tag, or leash, or whatever.

Smooth as the leather was, it still took a frustrating amount of tugging to work the tightly fastened collar 180 degrees around my neck to examine the strap. My eyes widened as I saw what the problem was–there was a LOCK on the strap! A small silver thing that looked more like it was meant for a cheap diary or a charm bracelet. And yet, it held surprisingly well. Even with visual access to it, and various attempts to snap it free, I couldn’t find the proper leverage while my sensitive neck ended up paying the price for any tug that was too aggressive. And, since I obviously couldn’t rip leather with my bare hands, it was becoming more and more clear that the only way out of it was with the key.

Taking the time to swivel the collar back around with a few tugs, if only to look as presentable as possible in my current situation, Annabelle ended up beating me to the punch before I could storm out and confront her. “Mere?” she called through the bathroom door. She knocked twice. “You okay in there? I thought you were just checking yourself out.”

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. If she could be casual and confident in her underwear, then so could I. Not fully convinced, but knowing I couldn’t just hide in the bathroom when she was literally right outside the door, I grabbed the handle and pulled with as much bravado as I could muster. “Annabelle!” I exclaimed, “You-”

Before I could get any further than that, she slapped me across the face.

Not the light, catty kind. Despite the speed and abruptness, it was like the girl had wound up and struck me as hard as she could. My head snapped to the side and I instantly felt a twinge of pain in my jaw from the way I had been hit while mid-word. Glaring down at me, her few inches of height on me feeling a lot more intimidating all of a sudden, she started with a sharp, “NO.” The single syllable seemed to pierce the space around me, though it was difficult to tell whether it was the resonance of the bathroom or that I suddenly felt a lot smaller. “You promised to behave, Mere. You said you would be a good girl. You agreed to be my obedient pet.”

W-what . . . ? No, I didn’t! I mean, I said a thing or two in the name of keeping the massage innocent. Because I could tell earlier that I was getting a little flustered and confused from her touch even though I had claimed to her that I was fine. But not- not that. She had to be twisting my words. Although it was difficult to think straight when I was trying to remember hazy details while simultaneously dealing with a stinging cheek as the aftereffects of the slap began creeping in. “I- no, I, umm . . .” I stammered. The private bathroom behind me was plenty spacious, but I still felt somewhat trapped when the frowning red haired girl was blocking my only avenue of escape.

Her arms shifted, and I instantly flinched at the thought of being hit again. Instead, she merely placed them on her hips. “Mere. Did you promise to behave? Yes, or no?”

Yes. I vaguely remembered something about being pretty, or brave, but couldn’t quite put things in order. Paying attention normally came naturally to me, but apparently not when my body was in a relaxed state. Or when I was flustered, for that matter. “Yes, but-”

“Yes. You promised to behave,” Annabelle iterated, “And you promised to be a good girl, right?”

“Umm . . .” I actually wasn’t sure. It was such a high school thing to do, even if the wealthy eighteen year old before me acted anything but a teenager most of the time. Still, I remember when I was her age, and it was such a classic girl tactic to turn a half-hearted agreement into a promise. Or, in this case, to turn a single promise with vague intentions into something that bound me to all the things I said when I was distracted by a more pressing issue at the time. But I DID agree, which made things tricky. Especially when I was topless and locked in a collar. “I didn’t promise,” I clarified, finding the brave girl within that I had insisted I was a number of times, “I just-” blushing at the demeaning phrase we were talking about, I lost a bit of steam at the end of my thought, “just said I would. Be good, I mean. Not a promise . . .”

Speaking of teenage tendencies, Annabelle gave a half eye roll at my response. Then she was back to her usual proper and casually confident attitude. “Okay, you said you would be a good girl. Right?”

My blush darkened as my distinction ended up being used against me. Now it just sounded as if I was a child fussing over an insignificant detail instead of focusing on the bigger picture. “You were-” I cut myself off. Why couldn’t I bring myself to explode?! When I had opened the door, I was ready to give Annabelle a piece of my mind. She was my tutee, for crying out loud. But it was all too much–the collar, the slap, the way she was looking at me–I felt beyond judged, and it was all I could do to somehow prove myself to the girl I objectively shouldn’t have anything to prove to.

“I was what?” Annabelle asked.

Before I could stop myself, I mumbled, “You were kissing me.” But, not like that. “I mean, my neck!”

“You promised to be a good girl because I was kissing your neck?”

“NO. I promised- I didn’t promise. I’m not even . . . Annabelle, it’s not appropriate. Can we please just go back to tutoring?”

“In a minute, Mere. Once we get through this, okay? Can you be brave for me?”

I felt less and less brave by the second, but I nodded in affirmation nonetheless.

“Brave girls are honest, Mere. So, what did you promise, and what did you say?”

Wrong. Embarrassing. Demeaning. I should have closed my mouth and not said another word, but all I wanted was my shirt and the key that would set me free. To get that, I needed Annabelle to move, because I was too nervous to push forward myself. “I promised to behave,” I quietly said. It took a conscious effort to meet her eyes, “And I said I’d be a good girl.”

“Almost. Present tense, okay? You do know what that is, right? I hope math isn’t your only thing.”

“But-”

“Mere. Say it.”

“I promise to behave. And I’ll be a good girl.”

Annabelle stepped forward, “Again, Mere. For me?”

Resisting the urge to step back, showing her in some small way that I wasn’t afraid despite how close I was to crumbling under the pressure and the way the redhead somehow exuded an air of ‘impress me’ even when the adult, university girl somewhere deep within me was whisper-screaming at me to snap out of it, I echoed the words. “I promise to behave. And I’ll be a good girl.”

“Mm hmm,” she said. Taking a second step, she reached out and placed a hand on my sore cheek. I flinched twice–both from the advance, and the hint of stinging as she made contact–yet allowed her to cup half my face while I looked up with nervous anticipation.

Annabelle quietly instructed, “Mere. Close your eyes.”

Part 27

Like everything else I had been going along with, there was a part of me that knew it was a bad idea to obey. But I did.

My eyes fluttered closed and I lost sight of the red haired girl cupping my cheek. Part of my obedience was because I was holding onto the hope that Annabelle meant what she said about getting back to tutoring soon. Whenever we got through whatever this was. Something told me her definition of ‘just a minute’ would be the loose, teenage version. Also, closing my eyes somehow felt safer. At least, the personal darkness meant I didn’t have to deal with eye contact or the daunting height Annabelle had on me when we were standing so close together.

And I waited. For an agonizing few seconds, nothing happened. All I felt was her hand on my cheek; all I heard was silence and perhaps the nervous beating of my own heart. Finally, she gently brushed her thumb against my skin and let out a quiet sigh. “You really are pretty. You know that, don’t you?”

I could feel my blush return as her warm breath tickled my lips. How close was she? Because we really shouldn’t- Then her words hit me. I was speechless. I mean, it’s not like I was unattractive; I knew that much. However, I had always considered myself on the cuter side of things at best. And my academic streak didn’t leave me too much time to worry about my looks in the morning when I was already exhausted all the time. So to hear a gorgeous, confident girl like Annabelle compliment me like that . . .

“Tell me that you’re pretty,” she said, when I didn’t answer what I had hoped was a rhetorical question.

“I-I’m pretty,” I mumbled. My eyebrows twitched in discomfort, threatening to open. Saying something vain like that was so unlike me, even when directly prompted. Annabelle was quick to remind me to keep my eyes closed.

“And do you remember what pretty girls do?” she gently asked.

That’s right. Before, she had subtly preyed on my insecurities and my relaxed state when first talking about how I should behave. That was when I let her undo my bra. I immediately felt conflicted. This time around, it didn’t seem like there were any strings attached to the compliment, and then there was the way she said it. She sounded so kind, and genuine, and almost affectionate. Now I had to somehow reconcile that with how she approached the simple yet effective word. Because as much as I considered myself a girl who didn’t need validation from anyone, Annabelle had a way of somehow drawing such desires from me. And I did want to be pretty.

Annabelle brushed my cheek again, comforting me with her touch despite being the one who brought about the pain in the first place. Her other hand gently landed on my hip, although I managed to avoid flinching this time around. I wasn’t scared. I was brave. “What do pretty girls do, Mere?” she asked, “You’re a smart girl, too. Come on.”

“Pretty girls . . . behave,” I said. My cheeks must have been crimson at that point, and I was morbidly curious about whether or not her hand could feel the heat radiating from my face.

“Mm hmm,” Annabelle hummed. Her fingers idly traced my bare side just above the waistband of my skirt, and she continued speaking in that calm yet ever so slightly demanding way. “Pretty girls behave. And brave girls are honest.”

It was all I could do to nod. Both phrases were familiar at this point, and both of those qualities were things that I wanted to be known for despite the doubt about whether or not I actually deserved them. Was I really that brave? Or pretty, for that matter? Annabelle seemed to think so.

“And you promised to behave, Mere. To be a good girl for me,” she continued, “How about another promise? Do you promise to be honest . . . ?”

Of all the questions asked of me, this one was the easiest to get through. I did consider myself honest. Nodding again, I replied, “I promise.” After an awkward few seconds of silence following my answer, I clarified, “I promise to be honest.”

“Good girl,” Annabelle said. Grazing her fingers from my cheek to my chin, her body somewhat shifted forward as well. I couldn’t see it, but I could feel the movement through the contact her hands had on me. Before I knew it, her lips lightly brushed mine. “Be honest, Mere. Do you want to kiss me?”

My lips lightly pushed back against hers. Purely out of reflex, similar to when I kissed Annabelle back that first time earlier on this very same day. Her question barely registered before I murmured a quiet, “Yes.” I was supposed to be honest, because I was brave, yet the simple black/white answer was enough to make me falter afterwards. “I mean . . . ”

“Mere.” The way she said the nickname that had become more and more regular throughout this session sounded like ‘pay attention’ in its inflection. “Be brave. Say the whole thing.”

I could feel her lips nudge mine here and there as she spoke in such a close proximity to me, and her warm breath cascaded over my own lips with the exhale that followed her directive. During our first session, when she had been doing lingerie-clad yoga, I had insisted that I wasn’t into girls. At least, outside some cliché university experimentation that the redhead didn’t need to hear about. But with Annabelle, the eighteen year old girl who could socially run circles around me without breaking a sweat, I was far less sure. Even without her demanding gaze, she had a way of captivating me with her voice, and her touch, and her words that kept me flustered and confused. At the moment, I was not at all the version of myself that arrived earlier prepared to lay down the law and set some serious boundaries for these tutoring sessions.

“I, umm . . . ” I trailed off, flinching as her lips pressed into mine. It took everything in me to not part my lips and technically be the one who initiated the kiss. Even though she started it. Instead, I shifted back ever so slightly and simply brushed against hers in a similar manner to what she did moments ago. Somehow asserting that I wasn’t afraid, but also maybe shouldn’t be doing this with her?

It was one thing to kiss her back. That was a reflex anyone might have; purely physical in its nature, before the mental side of things kicked in.

And then, when I kissed her up here, it was . . . to prove something? I couldn’t remember the exact progression, but it was similar to the bravery thing.

But this was notably different. This was saying that I wanted it. That made me culpable, and admitted something I wasn’t sure was true, despite how we were poised to do that very thing and I had yet to make an attempt to pull back or voice my concerns. My hands were both free. I was more than capable of pushing Annabelle’s hand off my waist, or slapping her away from the intimate and borderline possessive way she held my chin while my eyes were closed. Especially with the collar, but . . . I decided to push that transgression away while focusing on the current situation.

Kissing Annabelle.

Well, at least ‘confessing’ that I wanted to. Which I didn’t. Probably. Even though I blurted it out without a second thought.

Annabelle leaned in and more fully pressed her lips against mine. “You are fearless, Meredith.” I could feel her way more than before this time. Every syllable grazed and brushed my lips as she formed the words against me, and the tone this time was a combination of sultry boldness and unexpectedly intimate flattery. It made me want to melt right then and there, despite the distant thought that she might have ulterior motives for such a seductive compliment.

Without thinking about it, I leaned in and tried to kiss her. But didn’t succeed. The moment I felt the smallest hint of pressure between our lips, she pulled back. Teasing and baiting me, but I was too wrapped up in the moment to realize. Instead, I inched forward to take the kiss that only felt more tempting now that I had to chase for it. Once again, I couldn’t do anything more than the lightest attempted peck before she stole away from me. “Annabelle . . . ” I whispered in frustration.

“What do you want, Mere?” she asked. I didn’t need to see the smirk. I could practically hear it in her voice.

“I-” I shivered as she nudged her nose against mine and leaned in herself, only to give me a third false kiss that didn’t actually lead anywhere. ’Fuck you, Annabelle.’ It’s what I wanted to say.

Instead, I offered the simple current truth, “I want to kiss you.”

Part 28

I meant it.

Somehow, despite everything, I wanted to kiss the girl who had twisted what was supposed to be a simple tutoring session into something so much more. I was still only wearing a bra on my upper half, plus the demeaning collar around my neck. And there was still a subconscious awareness that none of this was appropriate. Those details were long forgotten, however, when I was busy chasing the softness of Annabelle’s lips.

As a mostly straight girl, it was confusing enough to be filled with such a pressing desire. Add the fact that this was an eighteen year old, literally still in high school, and I was still very much on the same back foot I had been on since stepping into Annabelle’s suite earlier. Sure, a two year gap wasn’t that big of a deal in the grand scheme of things, but her pre-graduation status was difficult to ignore. It was certainly more taboo than the age itself.

Confused, nervous, and hesitant. Pretty much the opposite of the red haired temptress before me.

“What was that, Mere?” Annabelle quietly asked. She brushed her lips against mine while subtly pulling me in by both my waist and my chin.

I knew what was going to happen, but I fell for it anyway. Leaning in for the fourth time, I attempted to meet her lips with my own. And got nothing for my troubles. Worse than nothing. It was another infuriating almost-kiss, where she parted hers against mine like we were finally going to do something together, only to pull back at the last possible moment.

TEASE. It’s what I wanted to accuse her of. Except there was still an intimacy to the moment, even if she was playing games. So, instead, I murmured, “I want to kiss you, Annabelle . . . ”

“Miss Annabelle,” she whispered.

“I want to kiss you, Miss Annabelle.”

My words lingered in the silence following them. My eyes were still closed, so all I had to go on was Annabelle’s touch and the warmth of her breath against my lips. Was she going to kiss me? I deserved that much. Admitting it verbally had taken a lot of courage. That, or perhaps desperation.

When I didn’t feel another tempting graze, I considered taking the initiative. She was still right there. If Annabelle was my age, if she was one of my peers, this would all be different. The girl/girl thing would still be wildly confusing, but at this point I probably would grab her university self with my own hands and put an end to the teasing with a deep, assertive kiss of my own. Because I was brave, and I wasn’t some clueless virgin, either. I knew how to make moves in the bedroom, albeit with guys.

Is that what Annabelle wanted? Was she baiting me in the name of sparking passion?

I didn’t care. After getting through three back to back admissions of what I wanted, the last one being clear and unnecessarily proper, I wanted what was rightfully mine. While I couldn’t find the strength to put my hands on her, I at least darted forward and used her nose as a guide to find my target. My lips crashed into hers. After so much suspense, I could feel my body practically melting as our lips met for a deep kiss.

Annabelle didn’t pull away. Not immediately, at least. She locked her lips with mine and sharply inhaled for a fleeting moment of passion. And then that moment ended. “Mere.” She gently pushed me back with the hand still poised on my waist, while taking a step the opposite way. Before I knew it, her lips were nowhere to be found, and I also lost the warmth of both of her hands as well. “That’s enough. You’re here to tutor me, aren’t you?”

That- that wasn’t fair! My eyes fluttered open as this latest spell was broken. I still stood in the threshold of the unfairly luxurious bathroom, half dressed compared to the redhead before me who was still fully clothed. And now, she had flipped things on me. I was the one going for a kiss, and she was the one pushing for what I was actually supposed to be here for. “But-”

“Come, Mere.” Without another word, Annabelle strutted away.

I could only follow. There wasn’t anywhere left to go, unless I wanted to stay in the bathroom or retreat farther into her suite. I felt a lot more self conscious about the bra and the collar as I timidly stepped back into the living room. It was a strange juxtaposition of being cold from all the exposed skin, yet also warm from the tightness and the embarrassment of the demeaning leather accessory. That, and the warmth of my blush that had returned in full force. Not only was I back in reality for the most part, but Annabelle and I just . . .

“Where’s my shirt?” I blurted out. Anything to break the silence, and distract myself from my swirling thoughts. That, and I noticed right away that it wasn’t folded over the sofa like I had last seen it.

“Clothes are a construct, Mere,” she reminded me. Patting the cushion right next to her, the young redhead gave me a warm smile. “Sit.”

Yeah, but that was her philosophy, not mine. Right away, I felt compelled to obey simply due to my vulnerable state and the way Annabelle seemed to more or less always get her way. However, I managed to stay strong this time. Standing was more powerful than sitting, even if I was only half dressed, and I also didn’t trust myself with that kind of proximity at the moment. Part of me still wanted to kiss her. “Annabelle.” I just needed a minute. This wasn’t me; I wasn’t into girls, and I certainly wasn’t into this particular girl. “I-”

“Miss Annabelle,” she corrected me again, “Get it right, Mere.”

Nodding, I said, “Miss Annabelle. Can we reschedule? How about tomorrow?” I asked. For the life of me, I couldn’t remember if I had anything on my calendar the following evening, but I didn’t care. Right now, the objective was getting out the door. Clearly I needed a cold shower, or even just five minutes alone. Time to think, and breathe, and reconcile all the events of the day with what I thought I knew about myself.

Annabelle sighed. “Is that really what you want?”

I honestly had no idea. But I wasn’t about to admit that. Nervously swallowing, I said, “Yes.”

“Fine.” Annabelle sat up and retrieved a pen from her small pouch of school supplies sitting on the table. Then, with her lips pursed in a small smile, she stood up while glancing my way. “Before you go, give me your hand. Be brave.”

The word still struck a chord in me. One way or another, I couldn’t shake the need to impress her. Just like the first day we met; she was the gorgeous rich girl, and I couldn’t help but seek her approval. “O-okay,” I said. As usual, it was never a question or request with Annabelle. She was telling me what to do, and I knew that I needed to do it. Because I wanted to be brave, and honest, and pretty. As she approached me, I held out my dominant left hand.

“You’re so pretty, Meredith,” Annabelle said. She took my hand and pivoted herself so we were more or less side by side. The use of my full name was more effective than I realized after not hearing it for so long, especially when paired with the compliment that subtly paired with the other word that worked so well on me.

“Thank you?” I replied. Her words had sounded genuine, and I wanted to believe her, but there was still a shadow of a doubt in the back of my mind. Did she mean it, or did she just want something from me? And, if she wanted something, did I want to give it to her? At the moment, probably. It’s exactly why I needed to sort myself out before putting myself in a position where more lines could potentially be crossed.

Annabelle rubbed the back of my hand with her thumb. At the same time, she popped the cap off what I could now see was a permanent marker. “Before you go, I just want you to remember your promise,” she said. Positioning the tip of the marker just above my hand, she instructed, “Hold still.”

I did.

With slow, deliberate strokes, Annabelle wrote letter after letter on the back of my hand. The marker and her own hand blocked my view for most of the process, though it became clear that her name was the first word in thick black ink that contrasted my pale skin.

“There,” she said. Taking both hand and marker away, she let me examine her work. Three bolded words were waiting for me:

ANNABELLE’S OBEDIENT PET

Part 29

If Annabelle had written such a thing when I first arrived, or spoke the words out loud for that matter, I would have been tempted to turn around and walk right back to my car.

The whole point of this session was supposed to be resetting our dynamic to something more appropriate. Tutoring her in a more public space, with clothes on. Only being there to teach mathematics, rather than being sent off to do chores. And somehow, I had failed miserably across the board. Annabelle had kissed me, and I kissed her back. It was a reflex, and I hadn’t fully meant to, but it still happened. I allowed myself to be sent off to do laundry. I let her strip my top half, and collar me, and I was honestly losing track of all the words she drew from my lips both during and after the massage. And now there was a reminder of one of those phrases drawn in thick black marker on the back of my hand.

And yet, I was too far gone to utter a single word about how my skin was marred by the demeaning words. Instead, I found myself just as conflicted as before. My better judgment told me that I still needed to get dressed and leave, while my more confused self wanted to stay and willingly fall into whatever game Annabelle was playing. The former won out, as I still had some sense about me despite everything I had gone through with the young redhead. “My shirt?” I asked.

Annabelle sighed. “So boring, Mere. Fine. Stay right here.” She got up from her spot next to me on the sofa, brushing against the side of my thigh in the process. The girl really had been sitting closely to me. It was then that I figured out that she hadn’t even done something immature like hiding my top. Instead, she had merely folded it and placed it on the edge of the counter separating the small kitchen in her suite from the living room. Of course, I only noticed as much when she walked over and picked it up to bring it back to me. “What’s your name?” Annabelle asked, standing over me and holding out the shirt with one hand.

It was another lose/lose setup. Either I could insist on my full name, and end up being in just a bra for even longer, or go with the nickname in order to expedite the process. Now that I had committed to leaving in the name of clearing my head, it wasn’t a difficult decision. “My name is Mere,” I answered.

She waited until I had my own grip on the shirt before asking a follow-up question. “And what are you?” Her own hand continued to hold my top, rather than letting go.

There were a lot of potential answers, based on all the conversations she had guided me through recently. Pretty. Honest. Brave. But, based on the back of my dominant hand that was extended to take my shift from Annabelle, I had a pretty good idea of what she wanted to hear. Reluctantly looking up to meet her eyes, I quietly said, “I’m your obedient pet.” I immediately blushed upon actually saying it out loud.

“And don’t you forget it, Mere.” Annabelle loosened her grip on the shirt and stepped back. “Okay, pet. Get dressed.”

Still feeling heat radiating off my cheeks, I did as I was told. What alternative was there? If I didn’t, I would have to continue sitting in front of Annabelle in just my bra. So, being obedient like my hand and my words suggested, I awkwardly pulled my shirt back on while she watched. Adjusted it after pulling my arms through, my eyes widened as the fabric brushed against the collar that I had temporarily forgotten about. “Umm, Annabelle,” I reached up to give a pointless little tug to the black leather. My attempts to remove the locked accessory in the bathroom had been futile, so doing so without my reflection to help wasn’t going to get me anywhere. “You-”

“Miss Annabelle,” she insisted. Placing a hand on her hip like the very first time she had corrected me on her name after I shoved her, she said, “You promised to behave, Mere. That means addressing me properly. Yes?”

“Right, but-”

“Mere . . . ”

“Yes, Miss Annabelle,” I mumbled. The eighteen year old was my junior by two years and was supposed to be my student, yet I felt so powerless around her.

“Good girl.” She took a few steps forward and took my chin in that possessive way. Only this time, she was standing while I was seated. Annabelle looked down at me with those piercing green eyes, idly smiling as she said, “You’re a brave girl, Mere. Aren’t you?”

Normally, I might nod out of nervousness, but my head was positioned so I could only crane my neck and look up at the confident, gets-whatever-she-wants girl. “Yes,” I murmured, though my soft voice sounded anything but brave.

Moving right on, she followed up with, “And you’re obedient?”

“Yes,” I replied, just as reluctantly.

“We’ll see,” Annabelle said, “As much as I’d love to trust you, Mere, I think we should test your obedience. So, you’re going to do something for me, okay?”

This time, my answer wasn’t quite as immediate. Glancing away for a moment, I had to remind myself to maintain eye contact. I was the older girl. I was brave. Even if I seemed to be yet another dominant spell cast by the teen girl. “Do what?” I hesitantly asked.

Pausing for a few seconds, probably more for effect than because she had to think of something, Annabelle finally replied, “Tonight, you’re going to put on your sexiest lingerie and send me a selfie of you wearing your pretty collar.”

Wait, what? “Annabelle- Miss Annabelle, I can’t . . . ” I blurted out right away. For years, I had been adamantly against sending such things, no matter how into someone I was. It was too much of a risk. One immature, petty ex later, and your most private photos could be circulated online or, worse, to people that you actually knew. Also, Annabelle was still in high school; eighteen, sure, but that still felt like a dangerous line to play with.

“Can’t, or won’t?” she casually replied. This time, right away.

“Won’t,” I clarified. For once, standing up for myself.

“Because you don’t trust me?”

“N-no. It’s not like that. It’s just- nudes are a bad idea in general, Annabelle.”

“Says you. Tell me why, Mere. Is it because you don’t think you’re pretty in lingerie? Because you think I’ll share them with the world?”

Of course, the other factors weren’t even on her mind. Stood to reason. Miss ‘Clothes Are a Construct’ probably had similar philosophies about relationships, as clearly she didn’t flinch at the prospect of kissing a university girl. Still, her suggestions didn’t leave me with much to work with. While I perhaps felt a little self conscious around a girl as gorgeous as Annabelle, it’s not like I had any major hangups about my own body. But that still didn’t mean I wanted to take inappropriate pictures of myself. “It’s not worth the risk,” I replied, settling on a more neutral version of her second suggestion. It wasn’t that I didn’t trust her; it’s that I didn’t trust anyone with such personal and vulnerable things.

Annabelle just sighed again. “You know, Mere, there’s a way around that.” She turned away, letting her fingers trace my chin all the way until her arm pulled out of reach. With no warning, she took the hem of her dark red blouse and effortlessly stripped herself of it. Now in just a black bra that had a little more lace than the similarly colored one I saw her in last time, which contrasted the conservative white skirt she thankfully kept on, Annabelle picked up my phone from the coffee table.

“Wait, Annabelle. What are you doing?” I was slightly concerned, but remained seated for the time being. My question was mostly meant in regards to my phone, though I also had no idea why she had taken off her top.

“‘Miss Annabelle,’” she corrected. After a single swipe of her finger, she turned my smart phone around to show me that she had simply opened up my camera app. Something anyone could do without a password from the lock screen. “And this is how you take pictures for other girls without being scared of it turning into a whole thing.”

She took a few seconds to pull her hair in front of her shoulders on both sides, then softly smirked for the camera while holding it up in the classic selfie position. My volume hadn’t been on before, but Annabelle must have flicked the switch before taking the picture. There was an audible *click* as she took the selfie, and then she was sauntering back over to me.

This time, shirtless.

Part 30

Annabelle’s body really was unfair.

She was slender and toned, with an hourglass figure. Just like when we first met, I found myself thinking that she was the type who would make pretty much every girl envious with her perfect complexion and curves that fit her slim frame just right. Those thoughts were only heightened when taking her in while she was wearing just a bra above the waist; I had been averting my gaze the first time she was half dressed, but now I couldn’t help but stare. Her cleavage was just above eye level as she approached, and she ended up standing in front of me in such a way where her boobs would pretty much always be right in my peripherals when looking past them to her face.

I would never admit to the intrusive image, but I could see myself kissing her if she bent over to initiate. God, what was wrong with me? For the most part, I had come back to my senses, and I still didn’t particularly view myself as someone who was into girls like that. Except for the gorgeous young redhead before me, apparently, who managed to have an effect on me despite all the reasons she was the last girl I should be ‘experimenting’ with. That wasn’t quite the right word, but there wasn’t a better one that came to mind at the moment.

“Like this,” Annabelle said. She turned my phone around. Just when I had started making the effort to not look at her bra clad breasts, I found myself face to face with a picture of her chest on the screen. The way she had angled the camera to capture her body from above ended up making her cleavage a lot more prominent, while also displaying her bare shoulders that were contrasted by a thin black strap on either side. Finally, the selfie was rounded off with her lips pursed in a small smirk, but that was as high on her face as the image went. “See?” she explained, “No risk. This could be any girl showing off for you.”

It took a few seconds to process. It was a lot, having the girl’s chest in my face in more ways than one. Then things clicked; she was talking about sending nudes without being scared of them getting out. “Umm . . . ” I muttered, glancing back up to meet her eyes.

Moving right on, she locked the phone and offered it to me. “Keep that one of me for reference, okay? I like it when my girls smirk for me.”

Once again, I was speechless. Under normal circumstances, a playfully possessive word like that would be totally fine. But with my straight-ish sexuality and the collar she had put on me, it landed a bit differently. I also hadn’t fully processed the fact that she had just nonchalantly used MY phone to take such a picture, and now was suggesting that I should hold onto the almost-nude of her. Backing up further, there was the whole thing that had started this conversation–that Annabelle wanted a similar selfie of me. For the time being, all I could manage was taking my phone back and maintaining eye contact.

While I couldn’t quite find anything to say, the shirtless girl in front of me was happy to move things along. “I think that’s it, then,” she said, “We’ll pick things up tomorrow. Ready to get going, Mere?”

Right. It hadn’t been that long, but I had already forgotten that I was supposed to be leaving. On my terms, to clear my head, though it already felt like it was now Annabelle who was making the decision for me to go instead. “Yeah,” I awkwardly nodded. Honestly, I was grateful for the reminder. It really was a good idea to get out of there. I was still pretty flustered and confused.

Annabelle stood there for a moment, as if waiting for me to get up and go. After a few seconds, she either realized that I couldn’t stand up with how she was positioned right in front of me, or she knew as much and took her sweet time moving anyway. “Go on, pet,” she said, finally stepping out of the way, “I’ll see you tomorrow, okay?”

“O-okay,” I said, blushing at the unintentional stammer. Before she changed her mind, as I’m pretty sure Annabelle could have convinced me to stay with a simple snap of her fingers, I scrambled to get up and collect my things. She simply stood there and watched, making me feel intimidated with only her idle smile and continuous exposure. Without doing anything, really. Maybe it was all in my head.

I didn’t even put my tutoring materials away. Feeling rushed for some reason, I simply slung my backpack over my shoulder and grabbed my stack of things from the coffee table. All of a sudden, it was like this was Annabelle’s lair and this was my one chance to escape before being seduced back inside. And yet, I already knew I was going to come back the next day. Because I was brave.

Annabelle didn’t return my quiet ‘goodbye,’ but she did call out to me just as I was about to step out into the hallway. “Mere?”

I paused and turned back her way. “Yes?”

“You’re taking that picture for me, right?”

No.

It wasn’t appropriate. She was only eighteen. I wasn’t the type to send stuff like that.

“Yes, Miss Annabelle.” The words slipped out before I could stop them.

“Good girl,” she winked, “See you tomorrow.”

The moment I turned the corner, I let out a breath it felt like I had been holding for several minutes. Did I really just agree to that? As I walked down the hall, I told myself that I had only said ‘yes’ in the name of getting out the door without any more delays. If I was being honest, however, it’s because I still felt the need to impress her. It’s not like I actually had to follow through with my affirmation, though there would be time to sort through all of that later.

I paused at the base of the stairs to sort my things out and put them in my bag, and then I went to retrieve my shoes and leave through the usual side door. Trixie was nowhere to be seen on my way out, and it didn’t sound like Annabelle had left the comfort of her personal suite in the time it took me to get myself ready to go. The last thing I needed was another batch of chores, as I definitely wasn’t in the headspace to say ‘no’ to Trixie, either. For a young maid, she was quite bossy.

Letting out another heavy exhale once I was in the safety and solitude of my car, I started driving. Some soft classical music helped calm my nerves, but just barely. Everything from the last half hour or so kept replaying in my mind–Annabelle kissing me, somehow letting her talk me into a massage when I tried to put my foot down about said kiss, allowing her to take my shirt off, then . . . a lot of other things. The details blurred together in my memory, and I still wasn’t sure how things escalated so quickly. I was supposed to be there as her tutor. And yet, my plan to show up and reset our dynamic ended up going in the complete opposite direction.

I blushed furiously at the memory of how we had been so intimately poised for a kiss. And it’s not like she made me do anything. I could have pulled back at any time; I could have pushed her away and insisted that I was just there to teach her advanced mathematics. Nothing more. Instead, I stayed, and said so many things. That I wanted to kiss her. That I would behave, and be obedient. God, what was wrong with me?

And then there was the most demeaning and embarrassing word of all–PET. Written in permanent marker on the back of my hand, along with the possessive part about being Annabelle’s. I’m sure she had written it for the sake of being playful and flirty in her own way, but that didn’t change the fact that it would take days to wash off and be impossible to explain. I was fairly confident she didn’t like me in the way a normal person would have a crush, but I certainly had the girl’s attention.

“Fuck!” I exclaimed. It was the second time that day I had sworn out loud, which wasn’t really like me. Particularly not when I was alone, but this was warranted.

I didn’t have the key to the collar!! Wearing it home was one thing. Just like I had hastily collected my tutoring materials, I hadn’t thought much about the smooth leather locked around my neck. It had been too important to leave and get a grip on things without Annabelle distracting and further confusing me, but now? How was I supposed to think when wearing such a thing? Also, I had class and group projects the next day! There was absolutely no way I could come up with an outfit that would somehow make it work. It’s not like I wore anything remotely alternative, and everyone knew the way that I typically dressed. I wasn’t exactly a risk taker in the fashion department.

No, the music definitely wasn’t helping. Groaning to myself, I kept driving. I still had a ton of schoolwork to get done, I was already halfway home, and I honestly doubted Annabelle would give me the key even if I stormed back into her room and demanded it from her. For all I knew, that would just spark another kiss as she misread my annoyance for passion, and I honestly didn’t trust myself to not kiss her back at the moment.

Again, what was wrong with me?

I tugged a little at the collar with one hand, but already knew it was pointless. The little silver lock on the back kept the leather fastened tight. If I couldn’t sort it out with the help of a mirror, there was no way I could make any progress with just one hand in the car. Maybe I could figure something out at home with whatever tools I had lying around? Ugh, I just didn’t know. If it was a lock on anything else, sure. But on my neck? I was going to be too scared to try anything too aggressive.

Should I call Annabelle? No, the plan needed to stay the same. Get home. Breathe. Think. Even when I arrived at her house with a clear head and conversational strategy, I failed spectacularly in that endeavor. I could only imagine how things would go with the girl if I approached more rashly without my thoughts or emotions in check.

As I pulled into my apartment, I took a moment to be grateful that I lived off campus. To my knowledge, none of my classmates had an apartment where I was staying, which meant there was no risk of anyone seeing my hand or neck when I got out of the car.

Tomorrow would be a different story . . .

Part 31

To say I was distracted the entire night would be a gross understatement.

The memories that had been replaying throughout the drive didn’t let up once I was back in the comfort of my own apartment. While I at least had a break from the real Annabelle, it’s not like I could escape the one dominating my mind. Her voice, her smirk; the way her hands felt. The time that I had wanted to myself wasn’t helping in the slightest. And the more I dealt with the recent memories, the more frustrated and confused I was.

For the life of me, I couldn’t find the line. Yes, locking me in a collar was not okay. But everything else she did? It’s not like it wasn’t without my consent. Even that first kiss she sprang on me led to me kissing her back. Not only had I agreed to a massage, but I had practically melted into it once she started. So where had things gone wrong? That was the problem. ALL of it was wrong and inappropriate to some degree, but also all of it was technically fine. The fact that we’re both girls was a huge part of it, since our gender tends to be a lot more comfortable with physical contact compared to guys. But still, taking off my bra for a girl I’m supposed to be tutoring? Telling her I wanted to kiss her? I certainly wasn’t innocent and blameless in those interactions.

“Ugh!” I groaned to myself. Fucking Annabelle.

Pausing the music on my phone, I put aside the dinner I had just made. It could simmer for a few minutes, and I honestly just needed to clear my head. Even the bedroom was too far away. I stormed over to the sofa and made short work of lying back and shoving my hand down my pants.

It hadn’t dawned on me until near the end of my cooking that I was subtly warm below the waist. I wasn’t even sure when it happened. Between the massage and the constant teasing as Annabelle baited out words and eventually a deep kiss from me, the rest of my body hadn’t received any kind of attention that would normally come with such intimacy. Or maybe it was just that I was playing all those moments on a loop since leaving her place, and I was so flustered and annoyed that I couldn’t sort things out that some of my emotions had been redirected into something else.

I didn’t care that Annabelle was a girl. I didn’t care that she was eighteen. While I was alone, and in the privacy of my own home, I needed that kind of release that wouldn’t be teased away by someone else. Even if she was the reason I was in such a state. Maybe my brain would work better afterwards.

There was no finesse to my touch, aside from the intimate knowledge of my own body and what I liked. I was already primed for this kind of pleasure, which was a rarity in itself. Normally I didn’t just dive right in. It must have been barely a minute before I got myself where I needed to go. Arching up into my own touch, my eyes remained closed as I took a shaky inhale.

I had just wanted to deal with the nagging pulse between my legs, and perhaps find some clarity in the process. Annabelle had definitely been a factor in why I was feeling the way I was feeling, but she wasn’t supposed to be part of my temporary personal solution. However, my mind was less my own at the moment. As I let out a breathy sigh, I suddenly found myself thinking of her.

Annabelle. Her fiery red hair, her piercing eyes, and her smug smile. Brave. Obedient. Pretty. Mere. For a moment, it was almost like her fingers were working me like this. Before I could stop myself, I let out a LOUD moan. Blushing both at how I had somehow brought Annabelle into this, as well as the fact that my apartment shared walls with other people, I bit my lip and quieted myself. Despite being mortified by both internal and external factors, I wasn’t nearly done, and I refused to ruin the pleasure I had just found. Keeping the rhythm with my fingers, I maintained the peak for a few more seconds. The subsequent moans were more quiet and subdued, between living with my parents in a quiet neighborhood and then living at an apartment with thin walls, I always held back my sounds. Except for that one I just made, while I had been too distracted to muffle myself like usual.

I brought myself all the way back down with my touch, letting out a long sigh as I rubbed myself one final time. Keeping my eyes closed and my hand where it was for a few long seconds, I delayed the inevitable for as long as I could. But there was dinner to eat, and homework to do, and so much to still figure out. Opening my eyes and removing my hand from its promiscuous location, I took a deep breath as I tried to come to terms with, well, everything. Because while I felt slightly more calm from the quickie I gave myself, I certainly wasn’t more level-headed.

Getting off to the thought of Annabelle? Even when she wasn’t with me, she was still present in such a personal moment. And no matter how hard I tried to justify things with the legal adult angle, as well as how maturely the girl carried herself, I still couldn’t shake the fact that she was in high school. Just like when I was in the car, I found myself faced with the same question–What was wrong with me?!

As I changed into fresh underwear and more comfortable clothes, I spent the whole time trying to reframe things. It’s not that I wanted Annabelle. Obviously. It was my fault for seeking release so soon after an afternoon with her where so much happened. If she was on my mind throughout the drive and the entire time I was cooking, of course she was going to be there for that. Any other day, any other time? I would have been thinking about, well, whatever I normally thought about.

Intrusive thoughts and vivid memories about Annabelle aside, I also had the collar to contend with. After dinner, I spent a good ten minutes in the bathroom seeing if I could remove it. While the lock looked super small and breakable, its size also made it difficult to examine or get a good grip on. Maybe it was possible to work through the leather with a good pair of scissors, but not when the collar was clasped so tightly around my neck. Like I had suspected in the car, the key was the only easy option. And that would not only require keeping the awkward accessory on for almost 24 hours, but also convincing Annabelle to give it back right away without falling victim to her usual games. And it had been made abundantly clear that I was not well equipped to handle the girl, considering how I had mentally and verbally prepared myself for today before allowing things to spiral so quickly out of control anyway. I couldn’t imagine tomorrow going much better, and yet I knew I had to go back. Not just because I was stuck in the collar, but because I told Annabelle that I would.

Being distracted during cooking was one thing, but I found that my schoolwork wasn’t much better. Normally I was more than capable of focusing for hours straight at my place, even after a long day. My study/homework rituals had gotten to the point where I had practically conditioned myself to be productive. Sometimes even looking at my desk sparked whatever mental formula I could procure from my most recent assignment, and sitting at the desk was even more effective in terms of flicking that switch from ‘relaxed’ to ‘top of her class student.’

Usually.

I could barely focus after dinner, even with the usual tea/music/desk combination. My mind kept drifting to Annabelle’s hands on my shoulders, her voice in my ear, her lips brushing against mine but never being quite close enough to be kissed. More than once, I had to fully snap myself out of it with a head shake and a frustrated exhale. Once, I got up and splashed my face with water in an attempt to reset myself, but that only brought on a round of blushing as I saw myself collared in the mirror.

It wasn’t that I had a crush on the girl, or that I wanted to do more of what we did. But at the same time, I wouldn’t be opposed if she made the same advances. I was so, SO confused. My logical, proper, mathematics brain knew full well that the thing to do was to storm over there tomorrow, demand the key, and never let Annabelle get within five feet of me ever again. Or, if I could stomach it, walk away entirely and let Bridget take the lucrative job despite how much I had done to prevent that from happening. But on the other side of things . . . I did want to keep Bridget from having a cushy job. And as much as Annabelle frustrated and intimidated me, she still had so many other effects on me as well. After all of her blatant manipulations, both socially and otherwise, I still felt the need to impress her. To be seen as pretty, and brave, and more. Even though she was the younger girl. Even though I was the tutor and she was the student.

And it was more than just the difference in social status, or even the fact I felt a bit self conscious when comparing myself to how drop dead gorgeous she was. The biggest part was honestly her confidence, and how she was the kind of girl who did whatever she wanted. Who took what she wanted. And, while she still had a few glaring teenage tendencies, I managed to fall under her spell again and again. I could have walked out of her suite a dozen times, and yet I stayed.

Sighing to myself, I began reorganizing my stack of work. My progress was atrocious, and it was getting to the point where I had to prioritize homework and group projects. Studying would have to wait, as that was the only thing without a deadline. Idly tugging at the collar, as if that would somehow loosen the slightly too tight leather, I got back to work.

There was only so much night left, as I wasn’t the type to stay up late. I still had to figure out if one of my scarves could successfully conceal my neck without looking too weird. That would probably end up being tomorrow morning’s problem.

Just when I was starting to finally find a rhythm after nearly an hour of not so great focus, my phone buzzed. At first, I thought it was one of my group members messaging me back. Apparently not.

It was a text from Annabelle.

Part 32

It didn’t help that my dominant hand proclaimed that I was ‘Annabelle’s obedient pet’ in bold permanent marker. I had tried to wash it off when I first got back to my place, but didn’t seem to make a dent. How many times would I need to wash my hands before the thick, black ink faded? The words were also in such a prominent place, meaning that I pretty much saw them every time I did anything; cooking and studying, for example.

So, when I picked up the phone to see what Annabelle had to say, I was once again met with the familiar brand before I could focus my attention on the screen. The text waiting for me was one fewer word than the permanent message I was stuck with. ‘Forgetting something?’ What was that supposed to mean? I could barely focus on my schoolwork due to all the things I remembered and replayed despite my best efforts. Something tutoring related? Or, something else . . . ?

A few seconds later, my eyes widened in realization.

The selfie! That’s what she was talking about. I had been too caught up in the frustration at still being collared, and all the other memory fragments of things that I had done with Annabelle swirling around in my mind. Somehow, that bit with my phone had been a blind spot. The moment I remembered, however, I could visualize it just as clearly as everything else. Annabelle picking up my phone, smirking for the selfie, and- Oh, my God. That picture was still there, wasn’t it?

Flicking her message away, I opened my camera roll and saw the familiar picture she had shown me right after taking it. Her smirk, her cleavage, the lace bra; her fiery red hair and so much smooth skin. I stared for longer than I cared to admit before slamming the phone face down on my desk. “No,” I said, out loud to myself. Annabelle was wildly attractive, yes, but I was not into her. She was the one making moves on me, and I was- I wasn’t sure what I was. Certainly not a girl who recently touched herself to the thought of all this.

I needed to work. While I was quickly figuring out that studying wasn’t going to happen tonight, as retaining anything with a distracted mind was hopeless, I needed to at least finish all my assignments and get a decent head start on my part of the current group project. Not message Annabelle, or check her out even if it was safer to do so with a picture than when the two of us were together. I definitely wasn’t about to take a matching selfie for the younger girl.

Objectively, the best move was to delete her partial nude. Both to remove the confusing temptation and to not have a picture of a half dressed eighteen year old on my phone. But Annabelle told me to keep it, and there was her point about a neck-down picture being anonymous. Plus turning my phone back over now would refresh all the distractions I just managed to symbolically reject by putting the device down in the first place. Excuses, maybe, but I needed to work.

Eventually, I managed to hunker down and be productive. Just because I was naturally good with numbers didn’t mean that I was effortlessly top of my department. It was hard work staying on top of the complex problems that were thrown at me. And, aside from working through everything, I also needed to show my work and check my work. With all that, I could only go so quickly. Still, I persevered, just like every weekday evening.

My phone buzzed.

Since I had left it where it was, I had no idea how much time had passed since I had ignored Annabelle and tried to put her out of my mind. I knew that I should leave it alone, but it could just as easily be one of my group members like I had hoped for the first time. It probably wasn’t. We were meeting tomorrow, and the stuff we were working on separately at the moment didn’t really require checking in with each other until then. But I had to know.

Sure enough, it was here. Just a simple, ’Mere?’ If it were anyone else, I would have scoffed. At first glance, it looked like the kind of text someone would send if they felt a little bit desperate and ignored. ‘You there?’ ‘Hello?’ Classic teenager. Or older, when it came to certain immature guys. But this was Annabelle. Not only had she waited more than ninety minutes to follow up, but she also wasn’t the type to beg via text in that way. With just a single word, she managed to convey everything–the girl wasn’t begging; she was expecting my attention and obedience.

Sighing to myself, I stared at the screen for a few seconds as I debated whether or not I should message her back. Though I was alone at my place, and had plenty of time to breathe after everything, it still felt like she had a subtle hold over me. Fully turning over my hand, I looked more fully at the words for the first time in a while. ANNABELLE’S OBEDIENT PET. It wasn’t actually like that, of course. Mostly because the word ‘obedient’ was so . . . insulting? Demeaning? A little bit slutty, depending on the context?

Ultimately, I told myself that this was about the collar. In order to get the key as quickly as possible, I had to keep Annabelle happy. At the back of my mind, however, I knew there was something more to it than that. ’Studying.’ There. Caving a little bit and giving her attention, but also not being the docile pet she might be hoping for. I was still her tutor, and had work to do as a math major. This was my time, and I was offering a little bit of it to her. I could only hope that my simple text conveyed all that as effectively as hers did to me.

I stared at the phone for a few seconds, kicking myself for how I was basically being the very same teenager type I was just silently judging. Impatiently waiting for a text back, instead of putting the phone down and letting it come in due time. Luckily, Annabelle replied quickly enough that I didn’t need to figure out whether or not I should do just that with my phone. Call me when you’re done.’

Call her? But- I knew I didn’t have to, but I also knew that I would. Sighing to myself, I confirmed as much. ‘Okay.’ The moment I sent the text, I kicked myself again. Damnit. I could have left her wondering. Literally eight words across her three texts, and she was this much in my head. Overthinking everything, and once again pulled away from the focus I had managed to find. Annabelle fucking Alodia.

After another stretch of time where my focus was pulled left and right as I tried to find my groove again, I finally managed to give more of my attention to the pages in front of me than anything past or present that had to do with Annabelle. Little by little, I chipped away at the remaining work on my desk until I finished everything that absolutely needed to be done by midnight. My work for the following day’s classes, and the group project. Normally I would keep going and get as much of a head start as possible on the rest of the week’s assignments, but it had been enough of a conscious effort to keep my thoughts forward for what I had done so far. The rest would have to wait.

I picked up my phone again and clicked on Annabelle’s name to pull up her number. This was a terrible idea. While it’s not like she could kiss me or undress before my very eyes, I also hadn’t had any time to collect myself or prepare for such a call. There had been too much to get done after leaving her place, and it had been proven time and time again that I was never truly capable of handling the girl. However, that logic also held in terms of why I might as well call her. Preparation or not, I would find myself on my back foot thanks to how she was. Maybe it was better to just go for it and stop over analyzing things like I normally did.

That being said, a breath couldn’t hurt. Hovering my thumb over the button on the screen, I closed my eyes and audibly exhaled. “Here we go,” I muttered to myself. And then, before I could talk myself out of it, I made the call.

Three rings later, and she picked up. “Hey, Mere. Took you long enough.” Casual, with just a hint of judgment that was hiding behind what was a teasing tone on the surface. I recognized what she was doing, but that didn’t mean I knew how to stop it from working.

“Sorry,” I blurted out, blushing right away at the unnecessary apology, “Busy night. What’s up?” What the hell was I doing? I was talking to her like we were just two girls having a normal conversation. While playing it cool felt important, there was still so much more I wanted to say. I needed the key at her place. I wasn’t the type of girl to send nudes. I was her tutor and, as much of an effect as she had on me, we really needed to find our way back to that dynamic.

“I just wanted to make sure you weren’t scared or shy or anything,” she said, “I mean, after all those claims about how you’re a brave girl . . . ”

Ugh, so she was talking about the selfie. I never actually agreed to that! I mean, I didn’t disagree, either. But that wasn’t the point. It was just so presumptuous on her end, especially in the sense that I hadn’t made up my mind one way or another. “I am brave, Annabelle.” At some level, I knew I was walking into a verbal trap, but I couldn’t help myself. Scared? Shy? Fuck no. At the same time, however, I could prove that in other ways. “But I told you-”

“Nudes are a bad idea?” she giggled, “What about the one I took for you? That could be literally any hot redhead. Besides, you owe me. Selfie for selfie. That’s fair, isn’t it? Besides, it’s not like you need to flash your boobs or anything! It’s just a bra pic. Mere, it’s only a big deal if you make it a big deal.”

“Because clothes are a construct?” I rolled my eyes.

“Because collared girls are obedient.”

I hesitated. She had sounded more like a teenager with the giggle and the way she jumped around with her explanation. But then, out of nowhere, the tone shifted to the more stern Annabelle I had experienced a few times at her place.

That side of her was a lot more intimidating. Even over the phone, I wasn’t quite sure how to handle it . . .

Part 33

It felt like an eternity between her effortlessly quick reply and when I spoke next.

In truth, it was probably only two or three seconds. But when it comes to silence, that kind of time can be so daunting. I didn’t have anything clever on the tip of my tongue, but I had to say something. Had to show Annabelle that I could keep up with her, even if we both knew she was better at the social game. While she was younger than me, I could picture her growing up with an expectation to walk and talk properly. Add her teenage immaturity and flirty tendencies to the mix, and it was way too much to handle.

“I didn’t ask to be collared,” I blurted out. God, I was glad she wasn’t with me in person. There wasn’t a mirror nearby, but the sheer heat on my cheeks made it easy to guess how deeply I was blushing. Something about the word ‘collared’ hit me pretty hard. Obviously I was locked in the accessory, but it felt a lot more real now that I was talking about it with the girl who had put me in the thing.

Annabelle just giggled again. “Didn’t you? You said you’d be a good girl, Mere. An obedient little pet.”

Yeah, but- That wasn’t . . . I bit my lip in nervousness. It was true. I had definitely said those words, and had said them when my bra was undone and loose on my chest. When Annabelle was massaging me. When she was kissing my neck. While a lot of it was a blur, I distinctly remembered blurting out those words as a means to slam the brakes and return to the massage and only the massage. “Annabelle,” I muttered into the phone, once again speaking more for the sake of avoiding too much silence than anything else. Except that afternoon, I had opted to echo her degrading phrases instead of simply rejecting her advances. Because, at some level, I had wanted it. Let my body lead, instead of my mind. Leaned into the relaxation of the massage and the temptation of everything else. “That’s not what I meant,” I said, a second later. Tutor. I was her tutor, and yet somehow I had been collared and proceeded to leave the Alodias’ almost-mansion without doing anything remotely mathematics related with Annabelle.

“Are you saying you’re a bad girl?” Annabelle asked. I could practically hear her little smirk on the other end of the phone.

It was a total trap of a question, too. “You know what I mean,” I replied, flipping my previous statement. Less was more, especially when I had yet to sort out how I felt about this whole thing.

Annabelle huffed. “A good girl would take a sexy picture of herself like she was told to do. I don’t waste my time with bad girls, Mere.”

“I-”

*Click*

She hung up on me? “Fucking bitch,” I muttered to myself, before clasping a hand over my mouth. That was so inappropriate. The call was over, and I was alone, but there was still no excuse for saying something like that about a teenager. An adult, technically, but Annabelle was both in my eyes. And, once again, she was having an effect on me without actually being present in my apartment. I was a girl who swore pretty selectively, and my average had skyrocketed ever since meeting Annabelle.

While I meant it in the moment, I also didn’t mean it. Because that makes sense. It was like the best friend or family member that drove you crazy but you still willingly spent time with them. Although ‘bitch’ wasn’t quite the right word for Annabelle, the concept still stood. The call was over, I was home alone, and I was pretty sure I’d still keep in contact with the girl even if I wasn’t locked in her collar. Although that was certainly a bonus motivator for continuing this tutoring and more. Or, if not a motivator, another excuse.

But a picture? I was still torn about that. It was one thing to return to her house and brave another one on one encounter in her suite. It was something else entirely to send the kind of incriminating selfie I had refrained from my entire life thus far. And what kind of precedent would that set? If I took one, then there wouldn’t be any harm in taking a second and third. And if I did so as a ‘good girl,’ would I be implying that Annabelle could request similar things of me?

Groaning, I pushed back from my desk and stood up. ‘Fine.’ This time, I merely thought it. Taking a moment to close the blinds, I grabbed the hem of my shirt and haphazardly pulled it up and over my head. The truth was, I didn’t fully understand why I was actually doing it. A lot of my motivations lay in the fact that I was tired of overthinking the whole thing. The more I tried to work through Annabelle’s games and how I felt about both her and everything that had happened between us so far, the more flustered and frustrated I got. Why not be a little impulsive? I would show her that this didn’t bother me, even if there was a strong chance that I was playing right into her hands.

Clothes are a construct, Annabelle. Right? Then whatever. I’d prove that I was just as bold and shameless and all that.

Except not in the bra I was wearing. It was way too plain compared to the expensive looking ones she had on every time I saw her half dressed. I knew which undergarment I was going to choose before I opened the drawer. The dark blue bra I pulled out was normally reserved for dates when I thought there was a chance things would progress beyond just dinner or wherever it was we met. It felt a little weird letting Annabelle glimpse something a bit more meaningful in terms of my sex life, but I couldn’t help myself. After the embarrassingly plain bra she saw me in that afternoon, I felt the need to show her that I had nice underwear as well. Unlike her, however, I saved it for the proper occasion instead of wearing it to a tutoring session.

Switching out the bra on my chest with the new one, I definitely wasn’t wondering whether or not Annabelle’s ‘special occasion’ bras were even more expensive and exquisite than the ones she so casually wore around me. My boobs weren’t quite as impressive as hers, but my upper half did look good in the cut of the dark bra. A decent amount of cleavage, and a bit of lace on the cups that made it stand out compared to my everyday underwear. Normally I would be wearing the matching thong and a pretty outfit over the lingerie, but this was different than preparing for an outing I was excited for. The more accurate word for this would be ‘daunting.’

I was still torn. Deep down, I knew that this was a terrible idea. That whatever I was trying to prove was more to Annabelle’s benefit than it was to mine. The impulsive urges from a few moments ago weren’t quite as strong now that I was standing half topless and thinking about the next part. But also, I felt compelled to see it through.

Picking up my phone and taking a deep breath, I angled the camera from above and checked myself out on the screen. Annabelle had been so quick about it, but I needed a few seconds to adjust it from what would normally be a selfie to frame my chest and just the lower half of my face. Right away, I noticed the problem. While it was one of my favorite bras, the dark blue fabric clashed with the black leather of the collar. Did it matter? Maybe it would be better, actually. I wasn’t big into fashion like she was, but I knew enough. There were ways to pull off black and blue, but this didn’t look like one of them at first glance. But if Annabelle didn’t like the combination, maybe she would be more motivated to give me the key right away. After all, I could give her a better picture if my neck complemented the bra like the rest of my bare skin did.

Deciding that it was the perfect way to subtly rebel against her while still being ‘obedient,’ I stayed just how I was. There were plenty of other options in my drawer that would go better with black, but she would have to deal with this instead. Also, my chest really did look good in the current bra.

Speaking of daunting, I still had to actually take the picture. While smirking. I remembered the insistence well, mostly because it had followed the phrase ‘my girls.’ Not just possessive, but an implication that there were more. I knew she could have easily been flirting, or teasing, or referencing her history/preferences rather than suggesting she had a harem or a collection of ‘pets,’ but-

God, what was wrong with me? Shaking that image out of my head as best as I could, I tried to push the blush away while attempting to contort my face into an expression that matched the smugness and sultry attitude that Annabelle had managed to capture in the partial nude selfie she had taken for me as an example. It had clearly been effortless for her. That was not at all the case for me. I was absolutely not the smirking type in any aspect of my life, and especially not in unfamiliar territory like this.

Pursing my lips and trying to draw on some version of myself that might be able to be so unnecessarily brash and confident while also being subtly seductive at the same time, my thoughts flashed to Bridget. She was absolutely the smirking type, to the point that I could hear it over the phone back then. Looking back, she absolutely did not have the nuances that Annabelle did, but I wasn’t trying to compare the two of them. If anything, I was trying to channel how it might feel to tell Bridget that I kept this job from her.

I wasn’t the gloating type, either. But if anyone could draw out my competitiveness and a sore winner attitude, it was her. So, keeping her and that little fantasy in mind, I shifted my lips into an arrogant little smile. It felt entirely unnatural and unfamiliar, so I quickly snapped the selfie before it faded.

Checking myself out a second later, I immediately wondered whether or not I should try again. Despite how I had aimed for a thought that was socially driven, I still ended up looking rather slutty when my smirk paired with the bra and collar adorning my otherwise topless self. Was I really going to send this to Annabelle? It would certainly prove that I wasn’t shy or scared or whatever. But, still . . .

Locking the phone and letting out a heavy sigh, I tossed it onto my bed. I had time. I didn’t need to commit right away.

Part 34

‘I had time.’

That was what I had just told myself, but it wasn’t totally true. My schoolwork had taken a lot longer due to my lack of focus, and it was approaching midnight. After everything that happened at Annabelle’s place, I was doubly exhausted due to the late hour as well as the emotional/psychological toll the day had taken. It was more or less already my regular late-ish bedtime, so I really only had the process of getting ready for bed to figure out whether or not I’d send Annabelle the lewd selfie I took of myself. If I delayed much longer, especially if that stalling took place once I was under the covers, I’d end up falling asleep before messaging her.

What was normally a peaceful evening ritual ended up stressful not only because of the decision I had to make, but also because I had to see my collared self in the mirror as I washed my face and brushed my teeth. And, of course, the sight of myself in just a bra above my waist. That was literally never how I walked around at my apartment, and it served as yet another reminder about what I just did for Annabelle. The moment I was done with the sink, I unclasped the thing and changed into a comfortable loose tee like I preferred. The red haired student might have been fine strutting around in lingerie, but I wasn’t like that.

My phone was right where I had left it, nestled in the covers where it had landed from my throw. Primly sitting on the edge of the mattress so I wouldn’t get sleepy from a more horizontal position, I unlocked the device and stared at the recent picture I had taken of myself. “Ugh!” I groaned to myself. Objectively, it was attractive despite the mismatched colors, but it was so unlike me. And, while nothing in the background proved that this was a partial nude of me, it would still be coming from my phone. My skin tone, my hair, and way more of me than I’d normally be comfortable sending to someone.

But it was Annabelle. As usual, I felt the need to impress her while simultaneously avoiding her judgment, but the pros and cons of doing something like this were impossible to sort out.

She didn’t know anyone at my school, but she did have Bridget’s contact info. She was a girl, which felt safer than someone of the opposite gender asking me for nudes, but she was also eighteen. A teenager. I was her tutor, but apparently also her ‘obedient pet’ and stuck in a collar until I went back to her house for the key. Then there was everything we had done together, which made this feel like both a huge mistake while also almost a continuation at the same time. Plus I had already taken the picture.

Fuck. I had no idea what to do.

Though there was no way she knew I was stuck in the impossible quandary, Annabelle’s name suddenly popped up on my screen as she texted me. It was a single question mark. How could a message seem so immature and yet so daunting at the same time. The barely formed text said nothing yet everything. And suddenly I felt a lot more pressured to make a choice.

Taking a deep breath, I attached the picture but didn’t send it quite yet. I just stared at the screen, going through everything all over again in my head. Isn’t that why I took it in the first place? To show Annabelle that I didn’t mind playing her game? And it was getting to the point where I needed to commit one way or another. Saying ‘no’ would have its own repercussions, as would sending the text, but staying in limbo would make me look bad either way.

Perhaps a bit impulsively, I hit the ‘send’ button. Ripping off the band-aid, although in a way that there was no way to put it back on if I wanted to. Once a text was sent, it was sent. I nervously swallowed at the sight of my bra-clad chest officially in the messages between me and Annabelle. And I waited. Whatever tiredness I had felt before had evaporated in favor of a wave of nervousness that passed through me as each second passed after the small ‘delivered’ appeared underneath the inappropriate picture.

One minute passed. Then two.

Had Annabelle gone to bed? Even if she hadn’t, what exactly was I waiting for? Whether she texted or called in response, I was in no way prepared for whatever she was going to have to say. Would she immediately judge the bra color and demand a second attempt, or say that she was kidding about the whole thing despite a similar picture of her still existing on my phone right next to mine? Or maybe she would flirt and make this whole thing more confusing.

Honestly, I didn’t know which I preferred, if any. Anything but the ‘silence’ that was her lack of an immediate reply.

Suddenly I felt like the teenager I was annoyed at her for being earlier, in terms of my sheer impatience. There was no way I was going to send a follow up message, as I was already regretting the selfie. I so badly wanted to beg her to delete it, or not show anyone, but that would only encourage her to taunt me with such possibilities. No, the damage was done. I just needed to have faith in the neck-down concept that she had demonstrated earlier, as well as a bit of trust in the girl to have some discretion.

After another ten minutes of waiting, I gave up. Either Annabelle was sleeping, or she could guess that ignoring me would make me sweat. One way or another, the only thing that I could do was attempt to sleep. After a bit of tossing and turning, and checking my phone more than I would care to admit, my body’s need for rest finally took over and allowed me to drift off. Normally I slept through the night with no issues, but it should have been obvious that this would be an exception. I found myself somewhere between waking and sleeping dreams, many of which revolved around intimate scenes with Annabelle. My subconscious was taking everything that transpired at her house and throwing it back in my face when I was utterly defenseless against the intrusive thoughts.

By the time I truly woke up to my alarm, it was like I had barely slept. I had to go through a whole new round of ‘I’m not into Annabelle’ in my mind, using the same logic as before. Waking up in a collar was also slightly disorienting and, belatedly realizing what I really wanted to check on, I grabbed my phone beyond just turning off the alarm a moment ago. It really was pathetic how easily I was kept in suspense in regards to her message, but I had also never sent something that scandalous before!

This time, there was actually a message waiting for me. Sent a good half hour ago, with the familiar phrase, ‘Good girl.’

So demeaning, and such a simple response to something that had been such a big deal for me! But that was probably the point. Considering how cavalier she was about the whole undressed thing, paired with the immaturity of being a high school senior, of course she couldn’t be bothered to imagine that others might be more reserved in that regard. What was it with this girl? It was so easy to judge Annabelle, and she was beyond frustrating. But, at the same time, I couldn’t stop thinking about her.

Again, not a crush. Just . . . something. It was confusing, and impossible to explain.

It took me all of ten minutes of getting ready for the day for me to decide to do something I had never done before–I was going to skip class.

It’s not even that I overly cared about not missing any material. I had a solid handle on most of the mathematics content I was currently in the middle of, but it was more than that. In the name of getting good references, as well as staying in the good graces of professors I’d have for future semesters, it was important to not seem lazy or above it all. That meant going to class, participating, and generally being a good student even when I wasn’t always in the mood to be the role model that ‘top of her class’ pressured me into being.

But today? There was no way. The collar alone would spark so many questions. Wearing a cleverly placed scarf would maybe be a solution, but I didn’t want to risk the leather collar peeking out to anyone who happened to see my neck from just the right angle. And then there was my hand. Short of wearing gloves indoors, how could I possibly hide the bold, black marker that proclaimed that I was Annabelle’s pet? On top of all that, I was tired. It felt like I had barely slept, and I wasn’t convinced that my recent work was my best.

All in all, it would be better to stay in. I could review everything I had completed last night, I could scrub at the back of my hand some more, and I could try to get a nap in before returning to Annabelle’s place to get the collar off. I considered texting her then and there to set a time, but decided against it. She had ‘ignored me’ all night long, even if she had really just crashed before me, and acting aloof about everything was probably better as a whole. The more desperate I looked, the more she would walk all over me.

Instead, I got to work messaging a couple of teachers and classmates. Feigning sickness, which would absolutely be a believable excuse for a girl who literally never missed class. Then I sent over a bit of group work to a friend, as I would have to skip the project meeting we had scheduled. Partially to be consistent with the ‘sick’ thing, but also because I wasn’t sure traffic would allow me to make both the meeting and the tutoring session with Annabelle if she stuck with our normal time.

All this trouble, for a girl I was merely supposed to be tutoring for FREE.

After a long morning of studying, checking my work, and making a late breakfast, I finally got around to texting Annabelle. Nothing remotely clever came to mind in terms of responding to ‘good girl,’ so I decided to ignore it and move onto the rescheduled session that would hopefully fix all this and get us back on the right track. Since that went so well when I tried it before.

Trying to at least put a little backbone into the message, I drafted a number of texts before settling on one that was way more simple and direct than the first few attempts. ‘What time tonight, Annabelle?’

And then I was back to waiting.

Part 35

Eventually, Annabelle messaged back with a succinct, ‘5:30.’

Even over text, she had that casually demanding way about her. My peers absolutely would have responded by offering the time as a suggestion, but this felt like it had already been decided. Or maybe it just read that way because I had resigned myself to being available for whenever she was. If I had been attending my regular group project meeting, then I would have countered with something else.

The ‘me day’ wasn’t particularly relaxing. Not only was there the impending make-up session with Annabelle to worry about, but I also felt guilty for lying to pretty much everyone about being sick when I felt perfectly fine. Technically, it could have been a ‘mental health day,’ which was honestly more accurate than the former. But that phrase was rather hit or miss on how it was received, despite being a perfectly valid reason for staying home.

I did manage to get a decent amount of work done without any classes or commitments to distract me throughout the rest of the morning and afternoon, but my focus was still fairly inconsistent compared to my usual mindset. As for the collar and everything that had led up to it, I ultimately decided to leave the upcoming conversation with Annabelle unscripted. I had tried to verbally plan things out before, but that clearly hadn’t ended well. There was no way to steer the conversation where I wanted it to go when the unpredictable eighteen year old so effortlessly managed to keep me off balance.

This time around, I would keep my attention on a single concept instead of all the specifics surrounding it. Removing the collar. That was my priority, and I would try my very hardest to keep Annabelle from pulling my attention elsewhere until we had resolved things there. Pet or not, I couldn’t go about my real life in the kinky accessory. I could already imagine her reminding me of all the things I had so foolishly repeated and affirmed throughout that intimate massage, but this wasn’t about my dynamic with her. I had a reputation and an image at my university to worry about.

Any conversation with Annabelle, however, required the impossible redhead to actually be there. There were a lot of things I had braced myself for while doing my usual routine of parking around back and taking the servants’ entrance, but I hadn’t considered the thought that she might leave me waiting. According to Trixie, Annabelle was caught up at a social commitment and would be back as soon as she was able.

It was both a relief and an annoyance at the same time. On the one hand, I would have a little time to get settled in her suite and adjust to the environment before Annabelle started up with her games. But also, I couldn’t help but think that she was being a little insensitive at the same time. While it was very possible her young, wealthy self had something that couldn’t be ended punctually, it seemed she had found the time to message Trixie but not me.

Instead of the positive benefit that crossed my mind, I ended up being hit with yet another unexpected turn. Only after my shoes were off and we had walked halfway down the back hallway together, Trixie gestured to the familiar laundry room. “You should make yourself useful while you wait,” she said, “There’s clean bedding in the hampers, and the dryers are nearly done with the machine safe clothes. Why don’t you get started making the upstairs beds?”

While it was posed as a request, the blonde was hardly asking. She wasn’t the same kind of bossy that Annabelle was, but there was a directness to her tone that always seemed to manage to disarm me nonetheless. Or maybe I was just a pushover in the fact that I was avoiding confrontation like usual. “Fine,” I mumbled. Fiddling with the backpack slung over one shoulder, I at least followed up with, “But then I need to get set up for my tutoring session with Annabelle.”

“You should really call her ‘Ms. Annabelle,” Trixie said.

“But she said-”

“I know what she said. It doesn’t mean it’s the right or respectful thing to do.”

“Trixie-”

“Bedding, Meredith. Then come right back down, yes?”

Lightly blushing, I just nodded. Maybe it was the house itself that kept me from having any backbone whatsoever, or maybe I was just middle class and not remotely prepared for this kind of lifestyle. Not Annabelle’s way of talking, or the embarrassing way that Trixie assumed that I was as much of a servant as she was. Regardless, I did as I was told. Taking the heavy basket, I made my way upstairs and started in Annabelle’s room even if its location at the end of the hall wasn’t the most efficient first stop.

After setting my stuff down, I got to work making her bed in the adjacent room. Of course she had a fucking king bed despite being a single girl who definitely didn’t need that much space. Even with a partner- No, I wasn’t going to start visualizing things like that. Though I managed to push those intrusive thoughts out of my mind, I could feel the idle blush linger as I went through the arduous process of getting the fitted sheet into place without anyone else helping me. The rest was simple enough afterwards, but I still made the effort to get the pillows and comforter to look as perfect as possible.

If I was being honest with myself, it was more because of that always existent need to impress Annabelle, rather than feeling the pressure to get it right because she and her family were super rich and expected such perfection.

The rest of the rooms were mostly a challenge in the fact that I didn’t know where any of them were. After testing door after door, I eventually found the necessary guest bed and master bedroom that had bare mattresses. I wasn’t sure if it was better or worse than being in Annabelle’s room. It was fine in terms of what had subtly flustered me before, but it felt weird being in a stranger’s bedroom. I literally hadn’t met Annabelle’s parents yet, and now I was making their bed like a maid.

Little did I know, it was about to get so much worse.

When I returned to the laundry room with the empty hamper, there was a uniform waiting for me on one of the higher hangers. Trixie gestured to it the moment I entered the room. “Try this on, Meredith.”

“W-what?” I asked. Surely she couldn’t be serious! I wasn’t actually a maid, and I was more than capable of doing chores in my casual clothes. Hadn’t I proved as much? If not with the bedding just now, but also when I helped out those other times? Either way, the suggestion was too much. “Umm, no. Sorry, Trixie. I’m a tutor, not-”

Cutting me off like usual, she said, “Annabelle is going to be another hour, and it won’t do if someone sees you looking like that while you’re helping out. Will you at least try it?”

Another hour?! My heart sunk at that. The time she had given me had resulted in a gross amount of traffic as I crossed the city around 5 PM, and it wouldn’t be much better if I tried to leave now. Although even without the interstate being congested, my apartment was a far enough drive that leaving and coming back would only give me a few minutes at my place. If anything, I would just find a nearby coffee shop. That would be more comfortable than getting work done at Annabelle’s house, and was easily preferable to dressing up like a maid and doing chores.

“Then I’ll come back in a little while,” I replied. After all, I wasn’t that much of a pushover. I was still a rising star in mathematics, and older than both Trixie and Annabelle. The uniform was a bit beneath me, even if I had been pressured into doing all kinds of chores instead of strictly tutoring. “Annabelle can message me when she’s available.” For all I knew, one hour could easily turn into two and suddenly eat up my whole evening once adding the session itself and the commute home to the equation.

Trixie just frowned. “You’re saying you won’t even try?”

It was the third time she had used that word. ‘Try.’ As if this was something as simple as eating a vegetable or a new meal, when it was clearly more complicated than that. Unfortunately, that complexity was the very reason why I couldn’t bring myself to simply say ‘no’ to the question that wasn’t that black and white. “I’m saying I’m a tutor.” Might as well repeat some of my own words if she was going to do the same.

Rather than responding right away, Trixie just gave me a curious look. The following silence was deafening, and it was surprisingly effective. And why? It’s not like I thought I was better than her. God knows I had plenty of friends with waitress jobs and similar gigs that required uniforms. But that didn’t change the fact that tutoring lended itself towards being more comfortable. Plus it was one on one, and I was only supposed to answer to Annabelle. Not her maid, or whatever official title Trixie had. I was fairly certain no one had ever told me. My lips parted to potentially say something else to break the silence, but I couldn’t think of anything that was worth saying. Just like that, I was all kinds of awkward and uncomfortable, especially as I started noticing the collar a bit more in the silence.

Finally, Trixie spoke again. “Put the uniform on, Meredith.”

In less than a minute, I had been ‘defeated.’ It’s not like it was a battle, or even an argument, but I thought that I would have a little more resolve in terms of leaving and getting back in my car. Instead, a simple minute of back and forth with Trixie had me going along with what she wanted. “Okay,” I quietly said. Blushing all over again, and in disbelief that I crumbled so quickly without Annabelle even being present to influence things, I took a hesitant step forward towards the maid outfit looming in front of me.

The version Trixie had on was pretty telling in terms of what I would look like. It wasn’t at all the cliché slutty kind you might see on Halloween or in some lewd video online. Instead, it was an interesting combination of simple and classy, no doubt designed to look proper for the Alodia family while also being pragmatic in terms of doing chores. While I obviously preferred the more modest variety, that still didn’t mind that I was particularly enthused to put it on. And yet there I was, hesitantly pulling the subservient outfit down from where it was hanging.

“I’ll give you a minute,” Trixie said.

Once she saw that I was willing to try it on, she stepped out of the laundry room and closed the door behind her.

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